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Lu Guang didn’t want to do this.
He knew that it would only hurt Cheng Xiaoshi worse,
but what choice did he have? He would hate him, but it would save his
life. Lu Guang knew he would curse
himself for an eternity,
forced to leave and watch Cheng Xiaoshi from afar,
but this was just the way it had to be. If he had to pretend to hate him to save him from his own twisted destiny,
then so be it. Everything he had tried so far
didn’t save him, and he was out of photos now.
So, even if it didn’t save him,
it would save Lu Guang. He couldn’t bear to allow
Cheng Xiaoshi to die in his arms again, especially with no way to bring him back once the life left his body limb after limb.
He would just have to live without him
like he should’ve learned to do before that very first dive. Before he clapped his hands together so long ago on a whim.