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1. Why do you? by purple_pAnCakE_hearts

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Heated Rivalry (TV) RPF  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • F/F, F/M, M/M
   • Work in Progress

   02 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Minor or Background Relationship(s)
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Hayden Pike
   • Jean-Jacques Boiziau | J. J. Dagenais
   • Rose Landry
   • David Hollander
   • Yuna Hollander
   • Cliff Marlow | Cliff Marleau
   • Svetlana Vetrova
   • Original Characters
   • Jackie Pike
   • Background & Cameo Characters
   • Luca Haas
   • Wyatt Hayes
   • Troy Barrett
   • Harris Drover
   • Scott Hunter (Game Changers)
   • Kip Grady
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Autistic Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Anxious Shane Hollander
   • Panic Attacks
   • Top Ilya Rozanov
   • Bottom Shane Hollander
   • Semi-Public Sex
   • Explicit Sexual Content
   • Rough Sex
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • NHL | National Hockey League
   • Bad Friend Hayden Pike
   • Good Friend Jean-Jacques Boiziau | J. J. Dagenais
   • Soft Dom Ilya Rozanov
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Implied/Referenced Homophobia
   • Implied/Referenced Domestic Violence
   • Implied/Referenced Eating Disorders
   • WAGs | Wives and Girlfriends (Sports RPF)
   • Not Beta Read
   • Racism
   • Sub Shane Hollander
   • Boston Bears | Boston Raiders (Game Changers)
   • Montreal Voyageurs | Montreal Metros (Game Changers)
   • New York Admirals (Game Changers)
   • Shane Hollander Has an Oral Fixation
   • Protective Ilya Rozanov

   Summary

   “Why you do that?”

   Shane looked up, a furrow in his brow. “What?”

   Ilya’s face hardened. “Break yourself for people who do not build you back up, is stupid.” He turned to the rink. “You’re going to kill yourself on the ice for people who do not care, Hollander, and Good Canadian Boy image will be all you are known for, is bullshit.”
   –
   Shane loved hockey; hockey was his life, and there’s nothing he wouldn’t do to play for the rest of it. Even if it cost him his mind, body, and soul.

   Ilya loved hockey; hockey got him away from the people draining his life away, and he’d rather face loneliness than his family’s negligence.

   But love could only do so much, and perhaps their perception of it was skewed. Because torturing yourself to get that ounce of love, isn’t going to get the love you deserve. It gets you a mirage that will one day disappear, leaving you with a shell of yourself you don’t recognise anymore.

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