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hey
got Chris to school alright?
yeah, fine
how’s Jee?
adorable as always 😍
great
hey, uh ... thanks. for last night.
of course
I'm glad I could be there for you
yeah. me too
and Christopher was so glad you joined us as well
you did a great job yesterday
what, falling apart and crying on your shoulder?
yeah, 10/10 breakdown
😒
that's not what I meant though 😜
I meant being there for Chris, celebrating Shannon, and then yeah, being honest with yourself and me about everything
.......... yeah
it was a lot tbh
I’m really proud of you
how’re you feeling now?
..................
kinda ... raw. I guess. and a little confused
confused? about what?
um
okay
about us
actually
you and me, us?
uh huh
okay…
did I do something?
should I not've come over yesterday?
it’s not that
I just ... I felt something I didn't expect to
and I feel so guilty about it
.........
sorry
I shouldn't have told you
you haven't told me anything yet
haven’t I? oh
felt like I had
I mean.... I have an idea but I could be completely off and I don't wanna assume
right
so… what did you feel?
that you didn't expect?
I think I’m in love with you
but I didn't know it until last night
and that's completely the wrong time to have realised it. it feels so ........ unfair to shannon's memory.
Eddie, you can't control your feelings or when you realise them
I should be able to control it
it would've been different if you'd acted on them last night
but you didn’t
maybe
well….
what if things were the other way around and it was Shannon realising she had feelings for someone?
.....................
what do you mean?
I mean if you were gone but she was still here with Chris
… oh
cause you said you feel guilty
yeah
would you be upset with her if she started having feelings for someone else?
if you'd been dead for years?
... I ....................
I'd just want them both to be happy, I think
right
I'm pretty confident Shannon just wants you to be happy too, Eddie
yeah. probably
you're probably right
I think I need a bit more time to just ... sit with what I'm feeling though. process it. compartmentalise it.
yeah
of course
I hope it's not weird for you?
maybe I shouldn't have said anything
no
I’m glad you told me
okay then
you know you can always tell me anything
I know buck
thanks for being okay with it
of course
make sure you look after yourself today, yeah?
yeah, of course
and hey, if you get bored or just want some company you're welcome to come help me with Jee
I’ll let you know
okay
is there anything else I can do to help?
I don't think so. but thank you
any time
I'll talk to you later then?
yeah, sounds good
I'm gonna help Jee do some drawing
text or call any time if you need me
will do
❤️
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hey
how’re you going?
hi
I'm okay, I think
just okay?
yeah
how was your day with Jee?
amazing
but exhausting
who knew toddlers had so much energy??
yeah, little ones can be like that
feels like I've just done a full shift 😅
I believe it
so…
??
did you make any progress with processing and compartmentalising?
oh
why do you ask?
…. because I’m your best friend?
of course. right
sorry
I wanna make sure you’re okay
I am, I think
so you did make progress?
yeah
great
well done
thank you
Shannon wrote a letter for christopher after she left. I read it a few times today. that seemed to help
oh, yeah?
I mean, it wasn't for me. But it helped to have her words. to remember who she was. to think about what she might have wanted for me
that sounds great
I'm glad you were able to do that
thanks buck
no problem
so does this mean you're more comfortable with your feelings now?
my feelings … for you?
well, yeah
but not just them
all of your feelings
well, the guilt and the grief are still there, but they're not overwhelming me anymore
that definitely sounds like an improvement
yeah
it is
and um…
have you clarified your feelings at all?
clarified?
yeah
just cause earlier you said you think you're in love with me?
you weren’t sure
oh
and I get that it could've been really confusing cause I was messaging you all day and I made that cake for you and stuff
… right
I wouldn't blame you if you'd just gotten mixed up
well, if it makes you more comfortable, we can say that's what happened
..... so that's... not what happened, then?
no, buck
it’s not
so, you’re sure?
yes
you’re in love with me?
mhm, yup
it seems I am
wow, okay
that’s great
......... it's great?
is this about your ego?
what??
no!
this is about you knowing what you want
..... okay
that is... if you do actually wanna do something about it
if you don't, if you need more time or something that's fine
what are you trying to say to me, buck?
I'm saying I'm here for you
I already know that
I’m here… if you want me
If I … want you?
I don't wanna pressure or influence you
but
I'm in love with you too
................... you are?
yeah
omg
how did I not know that?
…. idk?
I thought I was pretty obvious 😅
… wow
I mean it, though
if you need more time
I don’t know tbh
that’s okay
I know how important Shannon is to you
so I just want you to know that I'm never gonna be upset if you wanna talk about her
thanks buck. I know that
so... how do you feel now?
like I want to see you
in person?
yeah
.... do you want me to come over?
I'd like that. but you don't have to
I want to
okay
okay then
come over
do you want me to stay the night?
.............
I can sleep on the couch
you can stay
let me know if you change your mind
I won’t be mad
I won’t
okay
so, should I head over now?
If you're ready to. that'd be great
yeah, sure
I’m ready
so am I
in that case, I'll see you soon
great. see you soon buck
💛
🧡
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hey
hi
I miss you already
😘
I miss you too
thanks for last night. it was ... lovely
you’re very welcome
I enjoyed it too 😉
wish we didn't have to be stuck at work right now
oh yeah?
what would you rather be doing?
😏
what? what does that mean??
don’t worry about it
😒
😇
hey, Eddie?
yeah?
I love you
I love you too Buck
I can't believe how lucky I am
really?
yeah
you’re amazing
so are you
I wish I could be kissing you right now
yeah, that would be nice
I'll be honest, I was kinda surprised at how ... easy it was. last night, when we kissed
what were you expecting?
I don’t know
thought it might be a little awkward, I guess
I’m glad it wasn’t
so am I
but even if it was, we would’ve worked through it
yeah. of course
I’d do anything for you
same
🥰
it was so nice holding you last night, too
can I tell you something?
of course
I wanna hold and be held by you every night
for the rest of our lives
wow
waking up next to you this morning was heaven
it was pretty wonderful, I agree
I can't remember the last time I woke up with someone's arm around me 🥰
I love you so much, Eddie
I know
I love you too
you have no idea how happy that makes me
I’m so glad
hey
do you have any plans for tonight?
no, why?
would you like to go on a date?
with me?
yeah
I’d love to
😊
if it's too late to find a sitter, we can bring Chris with us
I just really wanna treat you to a fancy meal
really?? we can bring Chris?
of course we can
he’s awesome
that sounds amazing, buck
yeah?
definitely
great
it’s a date, then
it’s a date
wow
we’re going on a date
we sure are 😉
incredible
you are
😳
thanks buck
so are you
you’re gorgeous, you know
sexiest thing I’ve ever seen
uhm
thank you
you’re welcome
you’re amazing, you know that?
sure
🙄
and so modest
😉
lol
you love me
omg who told you?
this guy called Eddie Diaz
he let it slip
I'll have to have words with him
hey, Cap needs you to go check on the supply closet
............. does he?
yeah he said it’s urgent
I feel like if that were true he would've told me himself
it was easier to get me to pass on the message
you’d better hurry
see, since I'm currently hanging with Bobby in the kitchen, I feel like I would've noticed him talking to you
……….
okayyyy you got me
still think you should check on the supply closet though…
whyyyyy
cause there's something in there that needs your attention
is there just
is this what our life is gonna be now?
sneaking into cupboards so we can make out?
hey if you wanna make out I'm not gonna say no 😉
hey, uh ... you better stay in the cupboard for a bit
Chimney's hovering right outside
so?
tell him to move
🙄
😇
okay, he’s gone
........... the door won't open
what do you mean?
it’s stuck!
it’s not stuck
are you sure?
omg am I trapped in here??
can't you hear me moving the handle?
I can’t get it open
fuck
let me try
should I get the battering ram???
um
idk
wait
what?
I had the door locked
.............. you what
I locked the door on autopilot
but
🙄
you’re not here
which cupboard did you go to??
the one near the bunkroom
ah
yeah…
wrong one
sigh
where are you?
on my way to you
.......... do you want me to go into the cupboard and wait for you??
CAN you get into the cupboard?
or is the door still stuck?
we-ell ..... I forced it open with my shoulder. but we might get stuck inside 😬
😏
no buck
that is not a good thing
oh come on
I can think of worse things than to be trapped in a small room with you
sure
but what if we get a call?
idk about you, but I don't want to have to bang on the door until someone finds us and asks why we were BOTH in there
😅
fine
we'll just have to wait until our shift finishes, then
oh. well. that's sad actually
....... is there anyone in the bunk room?
......... are you serious?
yeah?
wait, I'm not suggesting more than kissing!
just because there are beds in there doesn't mean…
😳right
I just thought, if it's empty then we could shut the door
and not worry about getting stuck
okay, well I checked and it's empty
well then…
I’m almost there
😘
🧡
💛