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Peter didn't leave his room.
Not after the argument. Not after giving the suit back. Not after slamming the door hard enough for the entire floor to hear.
The tower continued on around him anyway.
Breakfast came and went. Lunch followed. Dinner eventually arrived. At some point someone left a tray of food outside his room. Peter knew because he could hear it being placed there. He could hear the hesitation before whoever it was walked away.
He never touched it.
The room felt too quiet.
Too empty.
Peter sat on the floor beside his bed with his knees pulled to his chest, staring at nothing in particular. His mask sat abandoned on the desk. The Stark suit was gone. For the first time in years, his room felt unfamiliar.
He hated it.
Hated the silence.
Hated himself for caring so much.
Most of all, he hated that a small part of him still wanted Tony to come through that door.
A soft knock interrupted his thoughts.
Peter didn't answer.
The door opened anyway.
Natasha stepped inside.
Unlike everyone else, she didn't immediately start asking questions. She didn't tell him he worried them. Didn't lecture him. Didn't tell him how reckless he'd been.
She simply closed the door behind her and sat down beside him on the floor.
For several minutes, neither of them spoke.
Peter appreciated that.
Eventually Natasha let out a quiet sigh.
"You know everybody's worried about you."
Peter gave a humorless laugh.
"Yeah. I figured."
"They have been for a while."
"I know."
The response came out flat.
Exhausted.
Natasha studied him for a moment. The dark circles beneath his eyes looked even worse than they had yesterday. His shoulders were slumped. His gaze remained fixed on the floor.
The kid looked tired.
Not physically.
Not anymore.
This was something deeper.
Something that sleep alone couldn't fix.
"You scared us, kid."
Peter nodded.
Another silence followed.
Then, quietly, he said, "He threatened to take my suit."
Natasha closed her eyes for a brief moment.
Of course that was what he was thinking about.
"Yeah."
Peter laughed bitterly.
"He doesn't get it."
"No," Natasha admitted. "I don't think he does."
That finally got Peter to look up.
For the first time since entering the room, Natasha saw something crack behind his eyes.
"They all think I'm being reckless."
His voice was quiet now.
"They think I'm being stubborn."
Natasha didn't interrupt.
Peter swallowed.
Then he looked away.
"There was a robbery."
The words seemed to surprise even him.
As if he'd finally become too tired to keep carrying them alone.
"A few days ago."
Natasha remained silent.
"There were four robbers inside a bank. Nothing unusual. I've stopped stuff like that hundreds of times before."
Peter rubbed his hands together.
His fingers trembled.
"I had everything under control."
His voice faltered.
Then—
"One of them fired."
Natasha's stomach dropped.
Peter's eyes were fixed somewhere far away now.
Not in the room.
Not with her.
Back there.
Back in that bank.
"The bullet wasn't meant for him."
The words barely came out.
"It was meant for me."
Natasha felt her chest tighten.
"There was this little kid there. Maybe eight years old. Maybe younger."
Peter's breathing became uneven.
"He was holding his dad's hand."
A pause.
Then another.
When Peter spoke again, his voice cracked completely.
"The kid wouldn't stop crying."
Natasha finally understood.
Not just the robbery.
Not just the guilt.
Everything.
Peter squeezed his eyes shut.
"It reminded me of Ben."
The room fell silent.
For a moment, all Natasha could hear was Peter trying—and failing—to steady his breathing.
"I couldn't stop seeing it."
His shoulders started shaking.
"I couldn't stop thinking about Uncle Ben."
The tears came quickly after that.
Peter rubbed furiously at his eyes, frustrated by them.
"It was the exact same thing."
His voice was breaking apart now.
"A kid losing somebody."
Another shaky breath.
"And all I could think about was that maybe I'd just created another me."
Natasha moved closer.
Peter didn't seem to notice.
"What kind of hero does that?"
The question came out small.
Painfully small.
Peter laughed, but there wasn't any humor in it.
"I save people every day."
His gaze dropped back to the floor.
"But I couldn't save him."
The tears were falling freely now.
"I couldn't save Ben."
His voice cracked.
"And I couldn't save that guy either."
Natasha watched years of guilt spill out all at once.
Years.
Not days.
Not weeks.
Years.
Every loss.
Every mistake.
Every moment Peter had blamed himself for something no kid should ever have to carry.
"So maybe they're right."
Peter's voice had dropped to almost a whisper.
"Maybe I don't deserve to be called a hero."
The words hung heavily in the room.
Natasha immediately shook her head.
"No."
Peter laughed weakly.
"Nat—"
"No."
This time her voice was firm.
Certain.
The same tone she used during missions.
The same tone she used when she knew she was right.
"You listen to me."
Peter fell silent.
"You know how many people we've all lost?"
Natasha asked quietly.
"Steve. Clint. Bruce. Tony. Me."
Her gaze softened.
"We're heroes, Peter."
A pause.
"And sometimes we still fail."
Peter looked down.
Natasha gently nudged his shoulder.
"It doesn't make us monsters."
The tears started again.
"It makes us human."
Outside the room, nobody moved.
Because everyone had heard it.
Steve stood frozen beside the door.
Bruce stared at the floor.
Sam looked like somebody had punched him.
Bucky's jaw was clenched so tightly it hurt.
And Tony—
Tony felt sick.
Because suddenly everything made sense.
The sleepless nights.
The panic attacks.
The disappearing.
The exhaustion.
The argument.
The suit.
The rooftop.
None of it had been about stubbornness.
Peter had been drowning.
And nobody noticed until he started sinking.
The door slowly opened.
Peter wasn't surprised.
With hearing like his, he'd known they were standing there the entire time.
One by one they entered.
Nobody made a joke.
Nobody teased him.
Nobody tried to pretend things were okay.
Instead they simply joined him.
Steve leaned against the wall.
Sam sat at the foot of the bed.
Bruce pulled over a chair.
Clint dropped onto the floor beside Natasha.
Bucky sat down directly next to Peter.
Close enough that their shoulders touched.
Tony entered last.
For a long moment, neither of them spoke.
Then Tony crouched in front of him.
The room became very quiet.
"I'm sorry."
Peter blinked.
Tony swallowed hard.
"I should've listened."
The words seemed difficult for him.
"I thought you were being reckless."
A small laugh escaped him.
"Turns out I was just being an idiot."
Peter let out the tiniest snort.
The first genuine reaction anyone had gotten from him all day.
Tony smiled faintly.
Then his expression softened.
"You don't have to carry everything alone, kid."
Peter stared at him.
For the first time in days, the weight on his chest didn't feel quite as crushing.
It was still there.
The guilt.
The grief.
The memories.
But now there were other things too.
Bucky's steady presence beside him.
Natasha's hand resting on his shoulder.
Sam sitting nearby.
Steve watching over him.
Bruce.
Clint.
Tony.
His family.
And for the first time in three days, Peter finally allowed himself to believe he didn't have to survive it alone.