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Leia slammed the side of her fist against the wall in a desperate attempt to ground herself. But if the throbbing pain in her head wasn’t enough to keep her anxiety at bay, no amount of wall punching could. She squeezed her eyes shut as her world swayed and shifted, forcing herself to take a deep breath.
You are not on the Tantive IV.
The Falcon shook as its shields deflected blasts from Imperial ships.
You are on the Millennium Falcon. Vader is not here.
You don’t know that.
Fuck off. We’re safe. Any second we’re going to jump to lightspeed. We are not about to be boarded. We will not be taken prisoner. We will not be interrogated.
She repeated the facts to herself on a loop, over and over, desperate appeals of logic to something that was completely illogical. The tightness in her chest didn’t ease, nor did the tension in her muscles. She was a tightly coiled spring, ready to come undone at the slightest provocation; with all of her carefully crafted defenses crumbling to nothing but dust and ash.
The Falcon lurched into hyperspace and Leia was thrown to the metal decking. Everything ached and the walls of the corridor spun. She cursed under her breath.
Han’s voice rang through the corridor, bouncing around the inside of her skull. “I told y’to strap in!” She winced.
“Yeah, well if you can make the walls stop spinning, I will,” she said as she tried to push herself off the floor. She slipped, her elbow connecting painfully with the metal decking as a wave of nausea swept over her. No. You will not throw up. It is forbidden.
“Doesn’t really matter ‘nymore,” he huffed, his hands closing around her waist.
Her anxiety soared, her heart pounding as memories of being roughly hauled off the ground flashed through her mind.
“No!” she screeched, scrambling away from him. “Don’t touch me!” A durasteel band tightened around her chest as she pressed her back to the wall, hugging her legs to her chest and burying her face in her knees. “Don’t touch me,” she gasped, fighting to breathe.
“Okay, okay,” he said, his voice low and soft. “I’m sorry, ‘m not gonna touch you. Promise.”
She nodded, trying to push back the overwhelming memories of bruising hands and mechanical breathing. Distorted voices and pain. Unbelievable pain. Her ragged breathing echoed off the corridor walls and her head throbbed in time with the rapid beat of her heart. A pain far too familiar. You hit your head. That’s not Vader. A sob tore out of her throat.
Not Vader. Not Vader. Not Vader. Not Vader. Not Vader. Leia repeated the phrase over and over until the individual words ceased to have any meaning. This will pass. This will pass. This will pass.
And it did—the minutes may have dragged by, but the tightness in her chest eventually lessened, her breathing eased, and her heart slowed. Her head however, throbbed worse than ever.
The metal plating creaked nearby and she lifted her head from her knees, hurriedly wiping her face as she grimaced down at the mess of makeup, snot, and tears that now stained the skirt of her dress. Han sat opposite her, leaning against the wall as he rolled his wedding band between his fingers. He gestured to her dress, “Y’ready to get outta that thing or d’you need a minute?”
Not only was her dress ruined, the seams were digging into her thighs and her corset was uncomfortably tight. She nodded, managing to give him a small smile. “I’m ready,” she said, kicking her heels off to the side.
“Uh-oh, the heels have come off,” he said, giving her lopsided grin as he slipped the ring back on his finger and pushed himself to his feet. He held out his hands to her, “C’mon, Your Worship.”
She rolled her eyes, immediately regretting as nausea roiled in her stomach. Probably better to take his hands than wind up on her ass again.
Definitely the right move. The corridor swayed around her as he pulled her up and she listed to the side. His arm went around her waist and her hand fisted in the front of his shirt. “Kriff,” she muttered, squeezing her eyes shut.
“Y’got your head pretty good earlier. Y’alright?” She felt him shift, could feel him tense. “Isit alright if I leave my arm here? Don’t want you fallin’ again.”
Leia nodded, biting her tongue as she forced herself to breathe deeply. His arm around her tightened and she tried to fight back a rising wave of nausea. You will not throw up on Han.
“I think I have a concussion,” she said, slowly opening her eyes once the nausea subsided.
Han snorted, shaking his head as he smiled down at her. “What was your first clue, Highness?” he said softly.
“Fuck off,” she muttered, her words softened by the curl of her mouth and the warmth blooming in her chest.
He smiled, shifting his hold on her slightly. “Nah, someone’s gotta look after you,” he said, taking a step and nudging her down the corridor.
Leia leaned against him, letting him guide her towards the crew quarters as she ducked her head in an attempt to hide her growing smile. Whether it was the concussion or just sheer exhaustion, she was beginning to think it wouldn’t be such a bad thing to let him take care of her for a little. Just this once.
“Alright, hop up there,” he said, loosening his hold on her waist as he waved on some lights. She squinted against the bright light, a searing pain lancing through her head.
“Can you dim those, please?” she murmured, raising her hand to shield her eyes.
“Kriff, yeah.” Somehow he managed to still keep a hand at her back and adjust the light settings. “Sorry.”
She blinked, her mind taking a little too long to recognize where they were. The medbunk. Leia wrinkled her nose and made a disgusted noise in the back of her throat.
“I know. Just wanna do a quick scan, make sure it’s nothin’ more ‘n a concussion,” he said, gently pushing her towards the bunk.
“Fair enough,” she muttered, unable to find the energy to protest. He kept a hand on her arm until she was safely seated before going to rummage around for the mediscanner.
Leia leaned against the side of the bunk, resting her forehead against the cool metal and closing her eyes. A bone deep exhaustion settled over her, every ache and sore muscle receding into the background as the throbbing in her head dominated her attention. Ouch. Distantly, she registered a rapid succession of beeps indicating a completed scan. “Well?” she asked, not bothering to open her eyes.
“Concussion and some bruising.” A clatter and a drawer sliding shut.
She opened her eyes just enough to get a look at him as she raised an eyebrow, the corner of her mouth turning up. “Is it really a mission if no one’s bruised?”
Han snorted, throwing her a smirk over his shoulder. “Guess you’re right. Need anything for pain? Nauseous?”
Leia chewed on the inside of her cheek for a moment; between taking something and throwing up, she supposed medication was the lesser of two evils. “Something for nausea, yeah. Please,” she added on.
He nodded, rifling through the drug drawer and shaking a pill out of a bottle before pulling out a bottle of water. “Alright, stay there,” he said, handing her the medicine and water. “I’m gonna go get your bag.”
She intended to say ‘wait’, but it just came out as an unintelligible gurgle as water dribbled out of her mouth. Han stopped halfway out into the corridor, cocking an eyebrow and she could just tell by the quirk of his lips that he was just barely holding back a laugh. Bastard. She swallowed and dried her face before adopting her haughtiest royal voice. “Is that an order, Captain?”
That did it; a short bark of laughter escaped his lips before he tried (and failed) to compose himself. Finally, he settled on a crooked grin. “It can be.”
Thankfully, Leia caught herself before she rolled her eyes this time, ignoring the fluttering in her stomach and whatever it could possibly mean. She pushed herself up onto unsteady feet but remained upright without having to brace against anything. “Well, I am not staying in the medbunk,” she said, raising her chin.
With his grin still in place, Han shook his head slightly. “As you wish, Your Highnessness,” he said, offering her his arm with a mock bow. “I’ll walk y’back to crew quarters then.”
“Thank you,” she sniffed, gathering her skirts in one hand and ignoring his outstretched arm in favor of sliding hers around his waist. Standing was one thing, walking was an entirely different matter. One she did not trust herself with at all.
Han followed suit, pulling her into his side with a hand on her waist. She shivered against his warmth, allowing herself to lean into his solid form as they walked back to the crew cabin in silence.
“About the only time I wish you’d rip my clothes off,” she said, smirking up at him as he led her to the side of the bunk. The thought of standing here for another hour as he unbuttoned the cursed dress was not appealing.
“Dunno about ripping,” he said, letting go of her and reaching into his pocket. “But cutting...” Han held up a pair of medic scissors with a self-satisfied smile.
Leia sagged in relief, resting against the wall. “Oh, I could kiss you.” The words tumbled out of her mouth, a flush rising up her neck as they finally caught up with her. She turned around, bracing both hands against the top of the bunk and tipped her head forward, hoping he wouldn’t run too far with them.
“Wouldn’t catch me sayin’ no to that,” he murmured, his fingers brushing across the back of her neck. She couldn’t stop the shiver that raced down her spine.
“Get me out of this thing first, Flyboy, and then we’ll talk.” Goddess, Organa, get your shit together and stop playing with fire.
Han snorted softly, his breath playing across her skin as she heard the first snipping sounds. His knuckles were warm against her back as he kept his free hand between her and the scissors. The warmth disappeared once he made it past her corset and the dress slowly began to loosen.
“There,” he said, tossing the scissors down on the bunk, “ought to be able to get it off.” She pulled her arms from the sleeves and pushed the dress over her hips, letting it fall to the ground. He held out his hand and steadied her as she stepped out of the pool of fabric before kicking it into the corner.
“Need help with the corset or are y’good?” he asked, letting go of her hand and keeping his eyes firmly on her face.
Leia smiled, leaning back against the bunk. “I’ve got it from here, but thank you.”
He nodded, shifting from foot to foot with an apprehensive look on his face. “Y’mind if I wait out there until you’re in bed?”
Again, Leia just barely kept herself from rolling her eyes. She tried to ignore the warmth building in her chest from his continued concern. “If you insist, Nerfherder,” she said, offering him a smile.
His shoulders visibly relaxed as he smiled back. “Oh, I do,” he said, practically swaggering as he walked out into the corridor and around the corner.
She chuckled, shaking her head slightly as she began shedding her undergarments, tossing her corset and stockings to the corner one by one.
“Dammit,” she muttered, tearing through her overnight bag and pulling things out.
“Y’alright?” he called, an edge in his voice.
“Yeah, I just...can’t...find my sleep clothes.”
“Here,” he said after a few more moments of her desperately emptying her bag, “take this.” His hand appeared in the hatchway, holding his white button up.
She glared at it before sighing. Better than sleeping in fatigues. “Thank you,” she said, taking it from him and slipping her arms through the sleeves with a wince. Han’s scent settled around her as she buttoned the shirt, easing her lingering anxiety and soothing her frayed nerves.
As she resisted the urge to run her nose along the collar, she was hit with the realization that somewhere over the past two and half years, she’d come to associate the smell of spacer soap and engine grease with comfort and safety. “What is wrong with you?” she muttered to herself.
“Huh?”
Leia jumped, having momentarily forgotten Han was sitting outside her door. “Nothing. Sorry, just talking to myself.” Because that sounds better. She rolled her eyes at herself and nausea rolled in her stomach as the floor swayed under her. Dammit.
“D’you answer back?” Leia didn’t need to see his face to know he wore a gentle teasing smile.
“Sometimes.” She grabbed her beauty bag and settled on the bunk, a small smile pulling at her own lips as she pulled the covers over her legs. “Alright, I’m in bed; you can stop worrying now.”
Han rounded the corner, leaning against the hatchway with the same smile she’d had in her mind a few moments ago. Though it softened as he watched her start pulling pins from her hair. There was something in his eyes...not sadness but something. “Always worry about you,” he said quietly, rubbing his thumb across his jaw.
Leia cast her eyes down, chewing on her lip as she tried not to read too much into his words while her stomach flipped and twisted. A hiss escaped her throat, her neck twinging as she tipped it forward.
“Y’alright?” Her eyes flicked up to his, his worry clearly plastered all over his face.
“Yeah, just sore.” And tired. So tired, with too many pins and braids between her and sleep. She eyed Han, an idea forming in her mind but a voice that sounded suspiciously like her aunties’ raged against the idea.
No. You know what that means; the weight it holds.
Oh, it’s just this once. And it’s not like it’s just anyone. It’s Han.
“Your brain’s gonna overheat if you keep thinking like that, Princess,” he said, the corner of his mouth turning up in a smirk.
She chewed on her lip, ignoring his jibe. “Would you help me take my hair down?”
She’d never seen him drop a smirk so fast. “Uh...yeah, s-sure. Sure,” he said, pushing off the hatchway. “Is that...allowed?”
“‘Allowed’?,” she echoed, her brows knitting together. “I’m asking aren’t I?” Did that not imply consent?
“Well yeah. But...never seen you with your hair undone. Thought it had some kind of—” Leia had to bite her lip to keep from laughing as he continued to stumble over his words, his expression becoming more and more flustered with each passing word. “Didn’t think it was...thought it went against your—“
“It’s fine, Han,” she said, finally taking pity on him with a wry smile. “My aunts would be rolling over in their graves, but I have about half a kilo of pins in here and I’d like to sleep sometime in the next few hours.” And then a different thought occurred to her. “Of course, if you’d rather not—“
“No, no! That’s not—I do! I do; just wanted to…dunno. Guess I wasn’t expectin’ it,” he finished, rubbing the back of his neck with a self-conscious smile.
She smiled back at him, her cheeks heating slightly. “You’ll probably regret those words; it’s terribly tedious.”
“Nah,” he said, finally stepping inside the cabin and crossing to the bunk. “Never mind helpin’ you.”
Leia ducked her head as she scooted down further in the bed to give him room to sit behind her. “Thank you,” she murmured.
“Don’t mention it, Princess,” he said quietly, the mattress dipping as he settled behind her. His confusion was nearly palpable with the only sound being fabric rustling as he shifted and fidgeted. “So...I just...pull ‘em out?”
Her smile grew; from the tone of his voice, one would have thought she’d asked him to defuse a thermal detonator. “Yes,” she said, feeling around the twists and curls for a cluster of pins. “Start here.”
“Okay,” he grunted. “Lemme know if I hurt you. Gonna try to be gentle.”
“I know,” she said, having no doubt that he would be gentle. Probably even more gentle than she was. Warmth fizzled through her veins and settled in her chest as his fingers brushed against her scalp.
She started taking pins out of the opposite side, throwing them down on the blanket and unraveling her hair, pulling her fingers through it as she went.
“Damn,” he whispered, managing to make the swear sound more awed and reverential than a prayer. She hummed, twisting to throw him a questioning look over her shoulder.
“Your hair is so long,” he murmured, not looking up at her. She couldn’t be sure, but it felt as though he was running a lock of hair through his fingers. Heat rose up her cheeks just imagining it. Goddess, Aunt Celly would have your hide.
He doesn’t know any better.
“Soft too.”
Leia snorted, barely catching herself from rolling her eyes as she resumed pulling out pins. “It’s like straw right now; I haven’t been able to put a proper mask on it in years,” she said, frowning as she examined her split ends.
“‘Mask’?”
“Um,” she said, shaking her head slightly. There were infinitely more important things than her dull hair right now. “Yeah, like a hydrating mask. Usually cream or oil. Keeps it healthy and moisturized and repairs damage. My mom and Winter, we’d make a big night out of it once a month. We’d do hot oil treatments and watch ridiculous holos with our hair up in braids and these thermal wraps around our heads,” she said, smiling to herself even as her heart ached in her chest. “Amilyn would help me when I was in Coruscant and I’d help her dye her hair some new wild color.” She shook her head, idly wondering what shade her friend’s hair was now, if she’d changed it. Leia cleared her throat, pushing the memories aside. “Sorry, you didn’t ask for all that.” Clearly exhaustion and her concussion were getting to her if she was prattling on about hair treatments.
“No, no. Don’t apologize, don’t mind hearing about it,” he said quietly. A large braid swung free, brushing her back. “Want me to untie it?” She could feel him playing with it, probably running his hands over the rounded ridges.
“Yes, thank you,” she said, pulling out more pins and casting them aside. She heard the snap of the elastic before it was added to the growing pile of pins and then Han was gently pulling the strands apart. She closed her eyes for a moment, focusing on the soft pull as he ran his fingers through the braid. Goddess, she’d nearly forgotten how good it felt to let someone else take down her hair. His hands in her hair and his fingers brushing her scalp eased the lingering tension in her shoulders.
“Y’alright?” he asked, an edge of concern in his voice.
She tilted her head to the side. “Hmm?”
“You stopped pullin’ pins out.”
“Oh. Right. Sorry,” she murmured, reaching up to take more out.
“Don’t mean it like that, Princess,” he said, a smile in his voice. “I don’t mind finishing the rest but are y’alright? Not feeling sick or something?”
“No, I’m fine. I’m…” Great. She pushed that thought away, not wanting to examine why she was comfortable with this. Why she was wishing he’d do this every night. “Are you sure you don’t mind finishing the rest?” she asked hesitantly, chewing on the inside of her cheek.
Han snorted. “Yeah, ‘m sure. I uh...kinda…like it,” he said haltingly.
Even if her hair was already half down, she was fairly sure he could see the flush that rose up to the tips of her ears, sweat prickling at the back of her neck. Oh dear Goddess.
“Was that—should I’ve not said that? ‘M sorry, didn’t mean it that—in any kind of way.”
She blew out a soft chuckle, shaking her head. “It’s alright.”
“Hey, don’t laugh,” he teased, though she detected a hint of vulnerability under his easy tone.
“I swear I’m not laughing at you,” she said, smiling as she hugged her legs to her chest. “In another lifetime, everyone—including myself—would have been thoroughly scandalized at the thought of letting you take my hair down.” A giggle bubbled up in her throat as she imagined the look on her aunties’ faces upon finding out she’d let someone outside the family take her hair down. And then her words caught up to her and her stomach dropped as she realized how he might take her choice of words. “I don’t mean—it’s not you. I don’t mean it like that, letting anyone take it down. Anyone that’s not family or—letting someone outside the familial structure, it’s—” Way to go, Organa. See if you can’t shove your foot in your mouth a little more. She sighed heavily, wincing as her ribs protested. She swallowed, searching for the best way to explain it to him without making it sound like some kind of declaration. “Hair carries a certain significance in Alderaanian culture, it’s more than just…hair. It’s a symbol, an outward manifestation of your soul.” Like that’s not going to send him running. “For anyone that’s not immediate family...letting someone else take care of it...it carries a certain…weight. It—” She stopped when he placed a hand on her shoulder, squeezing it gently.
“I think I understand, Princess,” he said softly, his tone warm.
She exhaled, closing her eyes as she slid her hand over his. This wasn’t some big statement, but letting him take her hair down still meant something to her. “I wouldn’t let just anyone do this,” she said, her voice frustratingly thick.
And the ones she would have were precious few these days. He squeezed her shoulder once more and she dropped her hand, blinking back tears. “I know,” he murmured, returning to carefully picking pins out of her hair, unwinding them and letting the strands slip through his fingers.
Leia nodded and took a deep breath, resting her cheek atop her knees. As she focused on the soft tugging of her scalp and soothing sensation of his hands in her hair, drowsiness settled heavy in her limbs. Her heart was slow and steady, her breathing evening out and deepening. His gentleness rivaled Ami’s, and at some point after she briefly explained how to brush out the tangles, Leia must have fallen asleep, the repetitive motion lulling her into a sense of security and safety.
Han rubbed a hand up and down her back, pulling her back into consciousness. “Leia, wake up.” She groaned. “C’mon, Sweetheart,” he coaxed, “can’t let y’sleep like this.” The bunk creaked and metal decking echoed her groan as he stood, a hand on her shoulder pushing her back. She let him lead her down, a hand cradling her head and neck before he pulled the covers over her. “Comm me if y’need something, alright?”
She reached out, grasping his wrist. “Stay,” she murmured, her voice rough as she pulled him back towards the bunk. She wasn’t sure why, but the thought of him leaving her alone spiked her anxiety, her pulse pounding in her ears. “Please.” She chanced a glance up at him, peeking at him through her lashes.
He rubbed the back of his neck with his other hand, glancing between her and the hatchway as he gnawed on his lip. She squeezed his wrist once in lieu of pleading like a small child again. A corner of his mouth turned up. “That an order, Major?”
“Maybe,” she said, unable to keep the answering smile off her face.
“Alright, just lemme get the lights,” he murmured, catching her hand in his and giving it a gentle squeeze before letting go.
Leia nodded, keeping an eye on him as he ran a hand over the control panel but left the door open. She pressed her back to the wall, giving him room as he toed off his shoes and climbed in bed next to her, close enough to feel his radiant body heat but not quite touching.
“Y’alright?” he murmured, turning to look at her as she burrowed deeper into the covers, pulling her hair out from under her.
She hummed about to open her mouth when she realized her fingers were closed around a braid and not a wild mane of loose hair. “You braided my hair.” There was just enough illumination from the base lights that she could see his smile.
“I did,” he said, not bothering to hide the pride in his voice. “Not the one y’usually sleep in though.”
She shifted, her knees brushing the soft fabric of his dress pants. “I didn’t know you could braid hair.”
“Wasn’t sure I could either,” he admitted, turning onto his side so he didn’t have to crane his neck to look at her. “Never braided hair before.”
She did her best to raise an eyebrow at this angle. “Then what were you braiding?”
He bit his lip, mouth quirking up into an impish smile. “Bread.”
That only confused her more as she tried to figure out how one possibly braided bread before she remembered the sweet Challah loaves they used to eat on Alderaan for the holidays. “You bake?”
“Hey, don’t sound so surprised,” he said with a grin, reaching up to tap the tip of her nose. “‘M a sentient of many talents, Princess.”
She wrinkled her nose, trying to comprehend a galaxy in which Han Solo knew how to bake. “Where in nine hells did you learn to bake?”
Han tsked, managing to sound like one of her old governesses as he tucked a hand under his head, his knees bumping against hers as he settled into his new position. “Think you’re gonna have to buy me a drink for that story,” he teased.
Leia fought back another eye roll, settling on gently kicking him under the covers instead. “I think we’re far past the point of drinks, Captain.”
He grinned, nudging her back. “Not gonna argue with that.”
She studied his face as he chewed on the inside of his cheek for a moment, seemingly searching for words as his eyes roamed her own face. “‘S not that exciting really. When I was a kid, couldn’t have been more’n three or four, this guy brought me off the streets. That was his thing—takin’ in orphans and teachin’ ‘em to run scams and pickpockets and beg. That sorta thing. Had this whole hierarchy,” he murmured, his brow furrowing and mouth turning down at the corners. Leia fought the urge to reach up and smooth the furrow with her thumb, tried not to think about how his cheek had felt under her hand earlier in the evening. He shook his head slightly. “Anyway, he had this cook, an old Wookiee named Dewlanna.” A corner of his mouth turned up, the lines around his eyes softening as he remembered, chuckling softly. “Dunno why, but she took it upon herself to look after me. Kept me outta trouble when she could.”
“I’m sure that was a full-time job,” Leia whispered teasingly, biting her lip as she realized she’d interrupted. Han didn’t seem to mind though, just smiled and nudged her with his knee.
“Sure didn’t stop me from findin’ it anyway,” he said, features darkening before he shook his head again, eyes returning hers. “She taught me a lot of things, not just cookin’ and bakin’. Stuff like history and maths and science. Shrike didn’t want us too educated, but she was determined to give me as good an education as she could. Was always sneakin’ me textbook chips and makin’ sure I studied ‘em.”
Leia couldn’t help the wide smile on her face as he talked, tone warm and features fond. “She sounds like a special being,” she murmured, imagining a weathered Wookiee looking after and fussing over a small Han.
“She was. Saved my life more’n once,” he said, swallowing audibly.
Leia wasn’t sure if it was the way his voice thickened as he voiced that admission or the way he bit down on his lip after, a lost look in his eyes. Either way, she found herself reaching up to rest her hand on his cheek as she leaned in. His eyes snapped to hers but he didn’t pull back or push her away so she closed her eyes and brushed her lips against his. She pulled back a mere centim before he followed her, his lips every bit as soft and warm as she remembered. But in place of heat and passion, there was tenderness and vulnerability as his mouth moved against hers slowly, his hand finding her waist under the covers.
He was the first to pull away again, though he still lingered, leaving the softest of kisses against her lips. She swallowed, not quite ready to pull away or open her eyes to his yet. “I’m glad you had her growing up,” she murmured. Glad someone took care of you. The galaxy could be a cruel and unforgiving place, and she knew his upbringing had left its scars, but she was glad he’d known the love of someone that cared for him.
Han swallowed and pressed a kiss to her forehead, squeezing her waist. “Me too,” he whispered against her skin. Finally, he pulled away, using the hand on her side to gently push her back. “Y’should sleep, Princess.”
“I know,” she said, pulling her hand back and resting it between them as she smiled up at him. She caught her lip between her teeth, hating the question that popped into her mind, insecurity suddenly clawing at her insides.
His brow furrowed again and he reached up to run his knuckles along her cheek. “S’wrong?”
“You’ll stay...right?” Heat rose in her cheeks as she looked away.
“Yeah,” he murmured, taking his hand away from her face and placing it over hers, squeezing it reassuringly. “”M not goin’ anywhere.”
Her eyes met his again, taking in the warm and tender way he regarded her. She nodded, pulling her hand out from under his and placing it on top, slipping her other one in its place and threading her fingers through his as she held his hand between hers.
With one last squeeze, Leia closed her eyes, burrowing further into the bunk—and if it brought her any closer to Han, neither of them mentioned it.