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hey y’all
i hope you all are having a nice day/afternoon/evening/night? haha c:
(of course, this is lengthy lol / sorry about that: long story short, i’m going on hiatus. if you wanna know why, please read. if you wanna know about the fics themselves and where i’m going with each one of them, just scroll down a bit)
um… yeah. it’s embarrassing, but i haven’t updated most of my fanfictions in months. i mean.. i’ve kinda always done that? i’m more of a daydreamer: i think a lot about my ideas, write them down, but don’t actually write them as particular scenes right away. i’m an incredibly slow writer because i tend to analyse everything i write. it takes me ages to update, but at least i actually write the chapters. nowadays, however… nothing’s happening. blank pages have been staring at me for the last few weeks. and it’s terrifying lol. i actually signed up for two fanfiction fests for this summer; one is due in july, the other one in september. i barely wrote anything for both. i guess life happened? the pandemic surely didn’t help. contrary to pretty much everyone else, i was not in quarantine. i work at a big grocery store, so i have been working full time since the beginning of the whole chaos back in march. not gonna lie, the past few months have been insanely stressful. people are rude and disrespectful and don’t understand that we’re living in a crisis right now and, to put it simply, the homo sapiens species is literally so annoying. but anyways, that’s not the point. the point is: working made me exhausted and irritated. obviously, many other things happened, like stan twitter completely making me go crazy and regret everything, my whole university admission journey, me fearing my future, overthinking and having too many questions… to put it simply, i feel like i might be going through a burn out (and that’s actually pretty funny considering i’m infj. burn outs are true infj behaviour.) i feel as if i were suffocating, drowning in a sea of insecurities.
moreover, a lot of things i used to enjoy with passion don’t really help, sadly. reading and writing are some of them.
so i’m taking a break. i’m going on hiatus for an undefined period of time.
i need to focus on the two fics i have planned for the fanfiction fests that are coming up. imma concentrate on those two, and put all my other projects on pause for a while (to be honest, i’m still debating if i should give up and not write anything. but i do like the ideas i have for both fics, and i hate giving up. so trying it is). i’m truly sorry about that. here are a few updates concerning my fics specifically:
bourgeons d’étoiles
pretty much all chapters are planned. i just need to write them. if i’m not wrong (my notebook is far from me at the moment lol), there should be four more chapters, each one of them representing a season. but nothing has been written yet ever since i posted the prologue last year. i’m sorry :/ i haven’t forgotten about this story, though!
scars and dices
i’ve got soooo many ideas for this one. i honestly thought of turning it into a book instead lol (but maybe later). i started writing the first chapter back in january (when cafés were still open) but I think i will have to rework it since i’m not exactly sure about the information i wanna reveal yet. but yeah! there’s progress.
red ribbons
i really love this story and played with its world a lot (not gonna lie, i’m pretty proud of myself for the world building of this one). the first chapter has been in the work pretty much ever since i posted the prologue, back at the end of january. it has more than two thousand words now, which.. not impressive, but not bad, i guess. so yeah there’s progress!
be my fire, be my dream
haven’t touched this one since the last update. sorry about that. i don’t know where i’m going with this one. i kinda dislike it. it’s too fast-paced. i’m thinking of reworking it, but not for now. i do have a few ideas for the next chapters, though, so let’s see how it goes!
loving you feels like hugging the sun
the second part of this oneshot has been in the work for a while, and i’m almost done! i just need to write a few more things and voilà! i should be done with it soon lol :3
on that note, it’s past one a.m here, and i’m going on an ikea date with my childhood friend tomorrow cause i need a breath of fresh air. so i should go to sleep lol.
if you have any questions, don’t be shy and ask away! i now have a new twitter account (i still use the previous one, but it’s not really fic and/or updates-focused). please leave a comment below or contact me here!: @lumielixie
see you soon (i hope! / i’ll do another update like this one when my hiatus will be over)