Deep deep feelies
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After an upbringing lacking in mundanity, Neil just wants to live a “normal” life. He’s got a home, a circle of friends, a job — why not give casual sex a shot?
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How would things be different if Nathaniel and his mother had been in Seattle early enough to put him in California the same time as Andrew? What if their paths had crossed back then? What if Andrew's first promise wasn't to Aaron but to Nathaniel?
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one last time, i need to be the one to take you home
one more time, i promise after that i’ll let you goAndrew and Neil break up. About two years later, they're both heading to the Olympic Games.
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- Part 1 of One Last Time Universe
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Andrew and Neil, post-canon, growing together (and apart).
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Two fractured people. One impossible thing between them.
Andrew doesn't hope. Hope is just loss that hasn't happened yet, and Andrew has had enough loss to last several lifetimes. He exists on the margins of his own life, keeping everyone at a careful distance, surviving one day at a time and calling it enough.
Neil is a dead man on borrowed time. He is chronically ill, the Moriyamas' circuit has its hooks in him too deep to pull out and his father is after him, ready to kill. He is meant to die one way or another.
They find each other at the bottom. Two people who had already stopped expecting anything good, stumbling into something that feels impossibly close to hope.
For a while, it almost is. But fate doesn't negotiate.
Neil cannot outrun what's always been waiting for him. Andrew cannot outrun the loss that's always been coming.
They were never meant to survive, let alone love.
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"Andrew didn't want to die anymore. He just didn't know how to live either." - Andrew
"Death sounded like a promise from here. He knew, that his last breath would be the best one he'd ever taken." - NeilAlternate Universe, Soul crushing angst