Was I right, was I wrong, will I be forgiven, can I do better?
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heartache's been sewn on your skin by FiresFromOurHearts
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
03 Oct 2021
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Carrie & changing; or what could be a beginning.
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- Part 1 of Was I right, was I wrong, will I be forgiven, can I do better?
- Part 7 of JATP Songfic Week 2021
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look at all these tears i've wept by FiresFromOurHearts
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
24 Jun 2021
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The truth of the matter is that Carrie’s a bleeding mess of a person, broken fractured pieces stuck together with nothing more than nail glue. The truth of the matter is that Carrie has so many secrets that they’ve grown into thorny vines that weave through her ribs to strangle her heart. When she breathes, she feels them prick her lungs, leave her coughing up blood.
It’s easier to reach out, strike out, then admit that all the things she does are a vicious attempt to avoid recognising her reality—that she’s not okay.
In which Carrie struggles with the realisation that she's not okay, and sometimes standing out in the rain leads to finding a place of comfort and safety. She might not be okay, but maybe she'll get there one day with the help of some friends.
(Part of a series but can be read alone.)
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- Part 4 of Comfort Clothing
- Part 2 of Was I right, was I wrong, will I be forgiven, can I do better?
- Part 25 of Author's Favourites
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Can you forgive me friend? by FiresFromOurHearts
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
02 Oct 2021
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This is music as it should be, she thinks, void of sad songs and tragedy torn through it. This is music that isn’t grey. It’s the glow of a sunrise, colour streaked across the sky. It dances through the air, doesn’t contrast the silence but compliments it. Like this, Carrie thinks she could want to sing, want to create.
There is always what comes after and after Carrie's break down, there comes a time to rebuild herself. The morning might not be easy, but at least Nick is there. Whatever comes next, Carrie isn't alone.
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- Part 3 of Was I right, was I wrong, will I be forgiven, can I do better?
- Part 2 of JATP Songfic Week 2021
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I'm ready to try and never become that way again by FiresFromOurHearts
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
25 Feb 2022
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It is not enough to want to change.
This is a thought that carries Carrie onward. It is not enough to want to change. She wishes it was enough, but it can’t be. Just wanting—how can the desire be enough? Even if it’s a yearning bone-deep, a desire that she can’t shake, it’s still not enough. It makes up for nothing.
But then, how does she make up for all the things that she’s done? How can anything she do possibly be enough?
In which Carrie tries, learns how to swallow words, tries something new, and realises she has more friends than she thought.
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chasing stars (abandoning dreams) by FiresFromOurHearts
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
05 Dec 2022
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When Carrie was younger she wanted to be a star. It’s what she tells everyone who asks. ‘What were your dreams when you were a kid?’ And Carrie always smiles, and says—‘Well, I wanted to be a star.’
It’s a lie.
What it means to grow up with fame hanging over your head like the blade of an executioner, and what it means to grow up as Carrie Wilson.
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When Trevor reappears back in a mansion haunted more by silence than by ghosts, Carrie finds herself sitting down opposite him. For a long time, there has been something missing from their conversations, so much going unsaid.
Perhaps, at long last, it's time for a change.
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Apologies are hard and challenging, but Carrie knows it's required after all that she's done. It's time that she apologies to Julie and Flynn.
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