standing on the edge
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every word you shouldn't say will come bubbling out of your throat by ChickWithThePurpleGuitar
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
09 Jun 2022
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The lacrosse team starts a winning streak everyone attributes to a sudden rise in Nick’s aggression as a team captain. (Carrie doesn’t go to the games.) Kayla, Stephanie, Lulu, and Rachelle try out for the dance team since “Dirty Candi’s sort of over now.” (Carrie doesn’t try out with them.) Nick starts a band with a few of the theatre guys, and they open for Julie and the Phantoms at Prom, and Nick takes Julie as his date, and they win King and Queen by a record-breaking landslide.
(Carrie doesn’t go to Prom, because she doesn’t have a boyfriend anymore, and no guy asks her, and the girls she thought were her friends go as a group without her, and social functions make her mean, so it’s easier to just stay home anyway.)
For eight months, Nick ignores her, and her band gets bored of her, and Julie shoots her awkwardly polite smiles in the hallway that Carrie lets herself return, but they don’t really talk.
Cause after everything, Carrie doesn’t know how to be nice anymore.
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- Part 1 of standing on the edge
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i hear your heart play its broken beat by ChickWithThePurpleGuitar for RadioFreeHayden
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
03 May 2022
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Willie doesn’t know what he’s waiting for.
He doesn’t know what he’s doing here at all, really—it’s not like there’s a shortage of other things he could be doing. He could be hiding. He could be celebrating. He could be tracking down the hundreds of freed souls displaced when the Hollywood Ghost Club went down.
Instead, Willie is sitting on the windowsill of a hospital room, watching Nick sleep.
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- Part 2 of standing on the edge
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whisper with a voice that i can't outrun by ChickWithThePurpleGuitar
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
24 Oct 2022
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Prompt from tumblr: Carrie + "I'll play nice" + standing on the edge
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- Part 4 of 30 Day Girls Challenge
- Part 3 of standing on the edge
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did you ever think that it was hard for me by ChickWithThePurpleGuitar
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
28 Oct 2022
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Prompt from tumblr: Flynn + "Why would you help me?" + standing on the edge
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- Part 22 of 30 Day Girls Challenge
- Part 4 of standing on the edge
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i woke up with some scrapes on my arms and a mouthful of hell by ChickWithThePurpleGuitar
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
05 Oct 2022
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Willie, with a startled yelp, flips backwards, board over helmet, off the curb and lands flat on his back, hard. The sound that leaves his mouth following the tumble is one Nick has unfortunately come to be all too familiar with: the scream of someone in unimaginable pain.
“W-Willie?” Nick tries, but it’s like the words get stuck somewhere between his stomach and his throat. He tells himself to step forward, get down, make sure Willie’s okay—he could be bleeding, or something could be broken, he’s not a ghost anymore, he could be hurt—
His feet must not listen to his brain, because the next thing he knows, he’s stumbled back a few steps, and then he’s on the ground, curled up on the sidewalk, and Willie’s whimpering, but Nick’s vision is starting to white out at the edges, and then—
Then he’s trapped in a memory. Trapped, like he was for the eight months before Willie and Julie saved him, in his own mind.
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- Part 5 of standing on the edge
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i don't know what i have seen (but the puzzle is carved into me) by ChickWithThePurpleGuitar
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
18 Sep 2022
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Nick comes back to himself in May.
His doctors tell him he’s spent the last two weeks in a coma that none of them can determine the cause of.
His dads tell him he was missing for six days before then, that he left for school one day and never made it to first period, that it took the cops forty-eight hours to care and another ninety-six to find him, unconscious, bleeding, and bloated from near-starvation amid the rubble of an abandoned hotel in downtown L.A.
Only Willie tells him the truth: that for the better part of a year, Nick’s body didn’t belong to him.
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- Part 6 of standing on the edge
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one day i'll watch as you're leaving (and life will lose all its meaning) by ChickWithThePurpleGuitar for RadioFreeHayden
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
26 Oct 2022
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Prompt from tumblr: Carrie + asleep on the couch + standing on the edge
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- Part 14 of 30 Day Girls Challenge
- Part 7 of standing on the edge
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i'd be tangled up without you (like a nightmare and an empty bed) by ChickWithThePurpleGuitar
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
14 May 2022
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Today has been rough, and it’s not even noon yet. Nick’s been fighting off a migraine since dinner last night. He had a nightmare that he doesn’t even remember, but it set off the shiver-spacey feeling Carlos Molina good-naturedly dubbed his “ghost tinglies” that makes it impossible for Nick to get warm for a good thirty-six hours. He forgot the word for blender at breakfast this morning, and his dads got so worried about him he forgot how to speak at all.
He just wanted to hide out in his bed under a weighted blanket and try again tomorrow, but routines are good for him, and he couldn’t stand the idea of Britney looking at him all disappointed. So here he is, on the Wilsons’ front porch, desperately hugging one of Willie’s sweatshirts around him and wishing he could still stomach wearing his letterman jacket.
Carrie opens the door, which makes Nick huff out a little sigh of relief, because he doesn’t think he could handle talking to her dad right now. She looks him up and down, and up again, and says, voice all icy-still like it gets when she’s trying to be casual, “Quiet day?”
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- Part 8 of standing on the edge
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i thought i was damned to watch life through my hands by ChickWithThePurpleGuitar
Fandoms: Julie and The Phantoms (TV 2020)
06 May 2022
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There are places Nick can’t go now.
The Hollywood Ghost Club is an obvious one—or that whole part of town, he should say, since he no longer has the unwanted privilege that possession once afforded him to be able to find the place. Others are harder to explain—the lacrosse field, the alley outside the Orpheum, Carrie Wilson’s balcony.
(Julie’s house was impossible to even look at, until Willie introduced him to the studio like a feral cat to its bed. Now he’s more comfortable there than in his own home. But he still politely declines when Julie or her dad invites him into the house proper.)
But of all the places Nick can’t go now, the one that poses the most inconvenience, the one hardest to avoid, the one most likely to send Nick into a dissociative panic and make him forget where he is and who’s in control, is anywhere—everywhere—with a mirror.
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- Part 9 of standing on the edge