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Please don't leave (I won't ever) by 17darwinism
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Mar 2026
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“What did you actually think?”
He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…”
“Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers.
Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.”
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Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.Series
- Part 2 of Please, God, I'm finally loved
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the tape measure incident by 17darwinism
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Feb 2026
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“No, your task,” Harris holds out his hand, “is to pull out exactly 9 inches without looking.”
Ilya does very little to hide the devilish look on his face.
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Harris does the tape measure TikTok trend on the Centaurs, and he learns more than he ever wanted to know. But at least the internet seems to love it. -
Sound of sirens, rush of pain (I almost thought I heard you call my name) by 17darwinism
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Dec 2025
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"He imagined Shane would be similarly unforgiving if Ilya took his own
life. Not that Ilya ever would. Unless he couldn’t help it." (The Long Game)or,
Two years after being diagnosed with depression, Ilya wants to commit suicide.
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- Part 1 of Please, God, I'm finally loved
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Please, God, I'm finally loved by 17darwinism
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
01 Mar 2026
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What happens when you're faced with the reality that love is not always enough to keep everyone going?
Set post The Long Game (book 6).
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we're the product of love (that we do not receive). by Joooceee
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Feb 2026
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Maybe together they could figure out a way to make sure Ilya was never afraid of David again. He really didn’t want to be afraid of David.
“Is… silly.” Ilya said. “Maybe not silly, but now that we are here and not there, I see it was silly. I broke the wine, and I thought - maybe everyone will be angry. And…” Clearing his throat, Ilya pushed past his discomfort to spit out the next part. “Well, angry back in Russia is not the same as angry here, I think.”
“What was angry like back in Russia?”
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Ilya drops a bottle of wine, and it's fine. Really, it's fine. If only someone could tell Ilya's brain that.
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02 Feb 2026
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the best ilya fic in the world may have just dropped……
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Things We Can Never Assign to Oblivion by khaleesiofalicante
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Jan 2026
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“There’s no need to help. Everything is fine,” Ilya tries to reassure him and wraps his arms around Shane’s waist, pulling him closer. “Come here. Give me a kiss.”
Give me a kiss.
The words echo loudly inside his head.
It’s not how he used to say it.
Back when words didn’t come so easily and back when he was too scared to ask for what he wanted, everything was simpler and smaller.
OR: As Ilya's English gets better, his Russian gets a little rusty. So, he has a crisis about it.
Bookmarked by 17darwinism
30 Jan 2026
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language loss is something so so so painful to me. beautifully writte n
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kiss me like a final meal by blueberrryink
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Jan 2026
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Everybody else on earth was born with a manual on How to Be. A sort of silver spoon already tucked into their mouth.
Shane wishes he had gotten one.
After an exhausting day of masking and overstimulation, Shane has a panic attack. He loses the ability to speak. Thankfully, Ilya is there to help him through.
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28 Jan 2026
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i don't think i breathed throughout the entirety of this fic. just fucking amazing. every single word, every single line. oh my god.
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and i spit out the seeds by linearity
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
30 Oct 2025
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A video of Shane sucking Ilya’s dick is leaked. Over the next twenty-four hours, Ilya goes on an odyssey.
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17 Jan 2026
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this is deadass my favorite fic in the world i cannnnnooooooootttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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say something batshit crazy (i'll do it, don't you make me) by yrsaffectionately
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Jan 2026
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lily @shanehollanderstop
i’ll say it because i am not afraid of losing my job: roger crowell is a piece of shit and should never know peace in his life ever again. my name is hayden pike and i play for the montreal voyageurs.
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Ilya joins stan twitter
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- Part 2 of hollanov social media fics