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    After five years of touches that aren't enough, of words that are never said, Shane finally knows what sex with Ilya Rozanov feels like. It feels like the beginning of something more - something that will take them past this silly rivalry and into each others arms. It's perfect. It's all he's ever wanted, before he even knew he could have it.

    But by the next morning, he's faced with news that derails everything. And Ilya has no idea.

    Or, Shane sees Ilya in the tabloids with someone else and realizes he is in way over his head. The best response? Go no contact, find a replacement, and spend the next three years pretending you didn't knock yourself off course.

    *spoilers for future series/book events ahead!

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    14 Jan 2026

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    In the months between Sochi and Vegas 2014, Shane Hollander decides he’s done watching Ilya from a distance.
    He stops waiting.
    Told through alternating POV, this fic explores what happens when Shane moves on, and what it does to Ilya to realize he doesn’t get to decide where Shane stays.
    It was never just sex. It was never just a game.
    And when Shane finally chooses steadiness, it changes the rules.
    And who is that man?

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    Shane is trying to build something honest.
    Ilya is trying not to lose him.
    And the silence they used to live inside is no longer an option.

    filled with angst. slow burn.

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    11 Jan 2026

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2008.

    What?

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    28 Dec 2025

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    03 Jan 2026

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    “You’re going to Boston.”

    Long after Farah hangs up, the words keep echoing in Shane’s head. If he had thought his thoughts had been chaotic this morning, when his biggest problem had been his rival potentially fucking him when he came to Montreal in two weeks, that’s nothing compared to the code-red panic that started the instant he found out he was being traded to Rozanov’s team.

    Rozanov, who was supposed to be his great career rival. Rozanov, who he’s hooked up with twice now. Rozanov, who had been planning on coming to Shane’s apartment in Montreal to fuck him the next time they saw each other. God, how on Earth is Shane going to walk into his locker room in Boston in a few days time?

    The impending awkwardness of dealing with Rozanov is almost enough to eclipse the hurt he’s trying to ignore. The knowledge that Montreal values him so little that they’re willing to dispose of him only six months into his rookie season. Almost, but not quite.

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    Or, Shane gets traded to Boston AU.

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    02 Jan 2026

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