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Toward Despair by AmberXBoone, corrupt_touch (AmberXBoone)
Fandom Supernatural, Supernatural (TV 2005)
- Mature, Explicit, Teen And Up Audiences
- Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death, No Archive Warnings Apply
- M/M, F/M
- Series in Progress
25 Feb 2026
- Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
- Graphic Depictions Of Violence
- Major Character Death
- No Archive Warnings Apply
- Castiel/Dean Winchester
- Castiel & Dean Winchester
- Lisa Braeden/Dean Winchester
- Castiel (Supernatural)/Original Male Character(s)
- Castiel/Crowley (Supernatural)
- Castiel/Shapeshifter
- Benny Lafitte/Dean Winchester
- Benny Lafitte/Dean Winchester (mentioned)
- Benny Lafitte/Dean Winchester (Implied)
- Castiel (Supernatural)
- Dean Winchester
- Chastity (Supernatural: Free to Be You and Me)
- Lisa Braeden
- Crowley (Supernatural)
- Castiel
- Shapeshifters (Supernatural)
- Original Supernatural (TV) Character(s)
- Demons (Supernatural)
- Lisa Braeden's Boyfriend Matt
- Ben Braeden
- Benny Lafitte
- Naomi (Supernatural)
- Ephraim (Supernatural: Heaven Can't Wait)
- Nora (Supernatural: Heaven Can't Wait)
- Sam Winchester
- Emma (Supernatural: Slice Girls)
- Lucifer (Supernatural)
- Ruby (Supernatural)
- Charlie Bradbury
- Crowley (mentioned)
- Vince Vincente (mentioned)
- Rhonda Hurley (mentioned)
- Jack Kline
- Rowena MacLeod
- Famine (Supernatural)
- Castiel and Dean Winchester Have a Profound Bond
- Castiel Heals Dean Winchester
- Dean Winchester is addicted to Castiel
- Castiel's Angelic Grace (Supernatural)
- filling in the gaps that lead to Despair
- Episode: s05e03 Free to Be You and Me
- Past Sex Work
- Prostitution
- Blow Jobs
- Castiel/Dean Winchester First Kiss
- Castiel Loves Dean Winchester
- Dean Winchester Loves Castiel
- One Bert and Ernie are gay. Two you are not gonna die a virgin
- Castiel is Not Okay (Supernatural)
- Last Night on Earth
- Touch-Starved Dean Winchester
- Oral Sex
- Explicit Sexual Content
- Post-Episode: s05e10 Abandon All Hope...
- Grieving Dean Winchester
- Dean Winchester Needs Love
- Castiel and Dean Winchester are Screwed Up
- Rain Sex
- Fallen Angel Castiel (Supernatural)
- Castiel Just Wants To Be Loved (Supernatural)
- Castiel watches Dean Winchester
- Falling Angel Castiel (Supernatural)
- Voyeur Castiel (Supernatural)
- Non-Consensual Voyeurism
- Shapeshifting
- Shapeshifter sex
- Post-Episode: s06e20 The Man Who Would Be King
- Episode: s06e20 The Man Who Would Be King
- Castiel Has Issues (Supernatural)
- Infidelity
- Anal Sex
- Canon-Typical Violence
- Blood and Gore
- Angel Castiel (Supernatural)
- Top Castiel (Supernatural)
- Castiel Has Demonic Orgies (mentioned)
- Messy shapeshifter sex
- Explicit Language
- Post-Episode: s06e21 Let It Bleed
- Episode: s06e21 Let It Bleed
- There Were A Lot of Plotholes after Castiel Erased Lisa and Ben's memories
- Orgasm Delay
- Castiel Can Do A Lot of Things with his Angel Powers
- Castiel and Dean Winchester Need to Use Their Words
- Blood Drinking
- Blood as Lube
- Post-Purgatory Dean Winchester
- Post-Purgatory (Supernatural)
- Episode: s08e07 A Little Slice of Kevin
- Post-Purgatory Castiel (Supernatural)
- Post-Episode: s08e07: A Little Slice of Kevin
- Drug Dealing
- John Winchester was a terrible father
- Naomi Being an Asshole (Supernatural)
- Homelessness
- Mutual Masturbation
- Dean Winchester Just Wants To Be Loved
- Episode: s09e06 Heaven Can't Wait
- Nighttime Gap in s09e06 Heaven Can't Wait
- Castiel/Dean Winchester First Time Having Sex
- Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester
- Temporarily Human Castiel (Supernatural)
- Human Castiel (Supernatural)
- What did they do with the dead body in Nora's house
- Past Lee Webb/Dean Winchester
- Past Benny Lafitte/Dean Winchester
- Where to Cas?
- Lily Sunder/Akobel (mentioned)
- Past sex work (mentioned in a sentence)
- Destiel 100k
- DeanCas 100k
- Post-Episode: s13e02 The Rising Son
- Episode: s13e06 Tombstone
- Pre-Episode: s04e01 Lazarus Rising
- Episode: s04e01 Lazarus Rising
- Castiel Saves Dean Winchester
- Castiel Saves Dean Winchester From Hell
- Castiel is lost
- Case Fic
- Castiel and Dean Winchester in Love
- Castiel and Dean Winchester Falling in Love
- Castiel and Dean Winchester Hunt Together
- If Supernatural (TV) Were on HBO
- Infidelity Outside of Castiel/Dean Winchester
- Implied/Referenced Sexual Harassment
- Boss/Employee Relationship
- Bad Parent John Winchester
- Post-Episode: s12e07 Rock Never Dies
- Demon Blood Addict Sam Winchester
- Emma Angst (Supernatural: Slice Girls)
- Bottom Castiel/Top Dean Winchester
- Post-Episode: s11e13 Love Hurts
- Dean's Top 13 Zepp Traxx Mixtape
- Episode: s08e08 Hunteri Heroici
- Suicidal Castiel (Supernatural)
- Motel Conversation Between Dean and Castiel in s08e08
- Secret Relationship
- Episode s07 e11 Adventures in Babysitting (quoted)
- POV Castiel (Supernatural)
- Post-Episode: s13e06 Tombstone
- Post-Episode: s13e05 Advanced Thanatology
- Episode: s13e05 Advanced Thanatology
- Angst and cowboy hats
- POV Dean Winchester
- Dean Winchester With Angelic Grace
- Post-Episode: s05e22 Swan Song
- Praying Dean Winchester
- Episode: s10e18 Book of the Damned
- Post-Episode: s10e18 Book of the Damned
- Episode s09e06 Heaven Can't Wait (referenced)
- Episode s09e06 Heaven Can't Wait gap (referenced)
- Episode s10e16 Paint It Black (referenced)
- Episode s10e09 The Things We Left Behind (referenced)
- Dean Winchester Bears the Mark of Cain
- Mark of Cain (Supernatural)
- Castiel Loves Humanity (Supernatural)
- Sex in the Men of Letters Bunker Dungeon (Supernatural)
- Castiel/Dean Winchester in Purgatory
- Purgatory Sex
- Dean Winchester in Purgatory
- Castiel in Purgatory (Supernatural)
- Castiel Makes a Deal with The Shadow (Supernatural)
- Castiel's deal with the empty
- Post-Mary Winchester's Death
- Episode: s14e18 Absence
- Post-Episode: s14e18 Absence
- Sexual Content
- So much angst
- Suptober 2022 (Supernatural)
- Suptober 2022 - Sober
- This was written around the lyrics of the Tool song Sober
- Hurt Dean Winchester
- Post-Episode: s14e08 Byzantium (Supernatural)
- Episode: s14e08 Byzantium (Supernatural)
- Episode: s14e09 The Spear (Supernatural)
- Angst
- Post-Episode: s12e07 Rock Never Dies (Supernatural)
- Episode: s12e07 Rock Never Dies (Supernatural)
- Dean Winchester Wears Panties
- Dean Winchester Has a Panty Kink
- Past Rhonda Hurley/Dean Winchester
- Mentioned Rhonda Hurley
- Post-Episode: s15e09 The Trap (Supernatural)
- Episode: s15e09 The Trap (Supernatural)
- Shower Oral Sex
- But he's afraid to say it or the Empty will come
- Episode: s12e19 The Future - Mixtape Scene (Supernatural)
- Episode: s12e19 The Future (Supernatural)
- The Colt (Supernatural)
- Castiel finds the Colt under Dean's pillow
- He came into my room and he played me
- Episode: s14e14 Ouroboros (Supernatural)
- Pre-Episode: s14e14 Ouroboros (Supernatural)
- Cannibalism
- Gorgon (Supernatural)
- Description of Gorgon killing/eating people
- Dean Winchester and Castiel have a secret relationship
- Sex in a Vacant Motel Room
- Michael in Dean's Head
- Michael Possessing Dean Winchester
- Post-Episode: s05e14 My Bloody Valentine (Supernatural)
- Episode: s05e14 My Bloody Valentine (Supernatural)
- Where's your hunger Dean?
Summary
Imagines/fills in the gaps of the 12 year relationship between Dean Winchester and Castiel that led to the "Despair" confession scene and envisions that the confession scene was really just the culmination of a physical relationship/"profound bond" that turned into something else (for both of them). Canon-compliant, just "in between" that canon.
Not written in order of events.
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