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    Shane Hollander finally gets the chance to say what he should've said to the Montreal Voyagers.

    When Shane trips during the final play of the 7th game in the playoff series against Ottawa (and his soon-to-be husband), his teammates are less than supportive. Instead of walking away, Shane decides to say something.

    When the Centaurs hear what happened, they invite Shane to go out with them in an effort to bring up his spirits. What ensues is a night of bonding and reminding Shane of exactly who he is. There's laughter, tears, and sentimental moments, and Shane finally finds the second family he always deserved from Hockey.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    The Quiet Fight was survival.
    After the Fight was aftermath.
    The Life We Build is legacy.

    With retirement on the horizon, Ilya and Shane are trying to build a future beyond the ice. But the world hasn’t softened. Old hate resurfaces, a long-dormant fear returns, and just as they begin the fragile process of starting a family, everything fractures again.

    This time, the fight isn’t about staying alive. It’s about choosing what comes next.

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    09 Apr 2026

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

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    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    30 Mar 2026

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    Shane swallowed heavily. “We should talk, I-”

    “Go. Leave, Hollander. You did it before. So go.”

    “Rozanov…”

    “You got what you wanted. Now you can go.”

    Ilya didn’t even look at him as he delivered his final words, his voice cold and devoid of any emotion. Shane waited for a few silent seconds before he gave up, realising Ilya wasn’t going to change his mind. He pulled open the door, hovering in the doorway, waiting for words that never came. His feet refused to move, his heart half hoping Ilya would call his name. But there was only silence. And now that the silence was turned on him, he had no right to hate how much it hurt.

    This was exactly what he’d done months ago - turned away, shut down, left Ilya sitting there alone, confused... hurt. Back then, Shane had told himself it was easier this way. Cleaner.

    Now he knew what it felt like to be the one left behind.

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    Shane walked away from Ilya after the tuna melt incident.

    But what if Shane never turned up at the All Stars Game in Tampa?

    What if that moment had never existed?

    Would it have been easier if they’d never become anything at all?

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    29 Mar 2026

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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    21 Mar 2026