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1. Rec 1

   Diaries by Gavin_Bell

   Fandom: Narcos (TV)

   • General Audiences
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply
   • F/M, M/M, Multi
   • Series in Progress

   02 Aug 2021

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Steve Murphy/Javier Peña
   • Steve Murphy & Javier Peña
   • Javier Peña
   • Steve Murphy (Narcos)
   • Connie Murphy (Narcos)
   • Pete/Petra
   • Chucho Peña
   • Horacio Carrillo
   • Embassador
   • Diary/Journal
   • Javier's breaking point
   • burden
   • Fear
   • Responsibility
   • Pressure
   • Smoking
   • nicotine
   • POV Steve
   • Steve POV
   • Sex
   • Crying
   • Self-Harm
   • Hurt
   • Angst
   • Panic Attacks
   • Hurt Javier Peña
   • Homoeroticism
   • Pain
   • Heartache
   • internal struggles
   • Javier Peña Needs a Hug
   • Soft Javier Peña
   • Stray Dogs
   • Eyes
   • Despair
   • Javier POV
   • POV Javier Peña
   • Implied Crush
   • Implied/Referenced Homophobia
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Love
   • Friendship/Love
   • Trust
   • Trust Issues
   • Alcohol
   • Stress Relief
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Sweet

   Words:

   7,963

   Works:

   3

   Bookmarks:

   1

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   05 Jul 2024

2. Rec 9

   You'll have to stop the world just to stop the feeling by crab_boy_blues

   Fandoms: Narcos (TV)  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   29 May 2025

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Steve Murphy/Javier Peña (Narcos)
   • Steve Murphy & Javier Peña (Narcos)
   • Steve Murphy (Narcos)
   • Javier Peña (Narcos)
   • idk how to tag for shit
   • javi is worried about steve
   • but thats not the only reason he thinks about him
   • mostly angry and horny but also mildly mildly sweet?
   • steves life is a steaming shit-pile as of late
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Panic Attack
   • but i mean theres nothing gay sex cant fix
   • i really meant for this to be just hot and angry but idk man the fluff just fell out of me
   • Period-Typical Homophobia
   • Light Angst
   • Eventual Smut?
   • It has yet to earn its rating but I'll only change it if for some reason this fic wraps up without smut
   • no beta we die like carrillo

   Summary

   (set after season 2 episode1)
   Steve is still pissed at Javi, and he won't stop pushing his buttons.
   But why does it bother him so much?

   updates happen whenever they happen, but it's sorta been like every two weeks ish? don't quote me on that tho if it takes longer

   (Spoiler alert, it takes much much longer most times)

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   6,583

   Chapters:

   8/?

   Comments:

   8

   Kudos:

   57

   Bookmarks:

   9

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   947

   Bookmarked by CastielIsLoved

   05 Jul 2024