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    “Is Boston even interested.”

    Ilya scoffs at him like Shane is an idiot.

    “Is sky blue? Is water wet? Is English stupid language? Yes, Hollander, of course we want best player in the league.” Ilya mutters more in disgruntled Russian and Shane gets up off the couch to Google Russian lessons on his ipad while continuing their conversation.

     

    Or, a Shane goes to Boston story.

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    When a secret pregnancy forces hockey star Ilya Rozanov to choose between his career, his reputation, and a child no one else wants, he discovers that some futures are worth fighting for alone.

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    Shane wasn’t his boyfriend. But for a while it had felt like it. They’d been alone in his house. He’d made them tuna melts and watched TV. They’d cuddled like a real couple. And then he had to go and ruin it. Like he ruins everything. The press won't stop talking about Shane and Rose. He's turning into his mother and for some reason, Scott Hunter is the only one who sees him. And it scares him.

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    Ilya spirals after the tuna melt scene and engages in self-destructive behaviors. Scott Hunter notices and refuses to go away.

     

    *This is a stand alone fic and is not related to the others in the series.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    Two years ago in Regina, something went terribly wrong in a locker room after a Worlds Junior Hockey game.
    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rosanov lived.
    What followed was surgery, memory loss, months of recovery, and the slow discovery that the two boys who played against each other were not quite the same ones who survived.
    Now it’s June 2009:
    • Yuna believes she lost her son that day in Regina.
    • Shane isn’t sure who he is anymore.
    • Ilya, who remembers even less, is the only person who seems completely certain that the two of them will figure it out together.
    Now the future has come knocking.

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    13 Mar 2026

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    When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
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    Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.

    “Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”

    “Mom,” Shane managed.

    “Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”

    Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.

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    13 Mar 2026