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the tricks out of our sleeves by outherenow
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Mar 2026
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“Is Boston even interested.”
Ilya scoffs at him like Shane is an idiot.
“Is sky blue? Is water wet? Is English stupid language? Yes, Hollander, of course we want best player in the league.” Ilya mutters more in disgruntled Russian and Shane gets up off the couch to Google Russian lessons on his ipad while continuing their conversation.
Or, a Shane goes to Boston story.
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17 Mar 2026
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When a secret pregnancy forces hockey star Ilya Rozanov to choose between his career, his reputation, and a child no one else wants, he discovers that some futures are worth fighting for alone.
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16 Mar 2026
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Showing Up For Him by fandombarf
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Mar 2026
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Shane wasn’t his boyfriend. But for a while it had felt like it. They’d been alone in his house. He’d made them tuna melts and watched TV. They’d cuddled like a real couple. And then he had to go and ruin it. Like he ruins everything. The press won't stop talking about Shane and Rose. He's turning into his mother and for some reason, Scott Hunter is the only one who sees him. And it scares him.
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Ilya spirals after the tuna melt scene and engages in self-destructive behaviors. Scott Hunter notices and refuses to go away.
*This is a stand alone fic and is not related to the others in the series.
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- Part 3 of Seasoned Gay to the Rescue
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15 Mar 2026
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A Stranger at my Table by Tara_A_Begginer
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Mar 2026
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Two years ago in Regina, something went terribly wrong in a locker room after a Worlds Junior Hockey game.
Shane Hollander and Ilya Rosanov lived.
What followed was surgery, memory loss, months of recovery, and the slow discovery that the two boys who played against each other were not quite the same ones who survived.
Now it’s June 2009:
• Yuna believes she lost her son that day in Regina.
• Shane isn’t sure who he is anymore.
• Ilya, who remembers even less, is the only person who seems completely certain that the two of them will figure it out together.
Now the future has come knocking.Series
- Part 1 of Young Love and Hockey
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13 Mar 2026
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When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
____Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.
“Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”
“Mom,” Shane managed.
“Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”
Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.
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13 Mar 2026
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Switching Blades by KK3416
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Mar 2026
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The Metros were fine with hiring for diversity but they don’t want him to be the highest paid player on their team. This leads to Shane to think the Metros aren’t where he will be his entire career.
Svetlana knows Ilya, him deciding to come to the NHL, means he wants out of Russia even if it isn’t right away and forces him to apply for a green card.
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12 Mar 2026
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To my dearest by mochababy
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Mar 2026
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“Ilya–” Shane breathed, high and wheezy. “You can’t– You can’t leave me! Please, God, please, don’t take him. Please, please, I can’t lose– I can’t–”
A blaring alarm yanked him out of his panic like a fish out of water. He shot upright, flailing his limbs that were caught in something soft. Blurred splashes of colour steadily painted a picture of a bedroom he’d recognise anywhere. It was brighter now, light pouring in through partially shut curtains. His breath was heavy and he struggled making sense of how the hell he’d ended up in bed when just a moment ago, Ilya had–
“Hollander.” Ilya slurred, narrowing his eyes at him. “Turn that thing off.”
Or, Shane is stuck in a time loop that resets whenever his fiancé dies.
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12 Mar 2026
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I Keep You Safe by ShutUpGwen
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Mar 2026
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How did he let this happen?
Shane's not sure.
One moment, he was on the gym floor not staring at Rozanov's
gorgeoussweaty body. Then Shane was standing up, but his legs were weak for some god forsaken reason and Rozanov was there, just an arm around his waist to keep him upright, and now...Well.
Now Shane's on his knees on the floor of Ilya Rozanov's shower.
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Heated Rivalry, but the boys are forced to have an honest conversation around 8 years earlier than they do in canon.
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12 Mar 2026
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The Knife You Turn Inside Yourself by 4242424242424242424242424242424
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Mar 2026
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They're soulmates. They're out to the world, for better or worse. Ilya is safe and learning to heal. Everything should be good.
And yet.SEQUAL to Safer in Chains than to be Free
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- Part 2 of This is Love
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11 Mar 2026
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Boston pride to Boston home by Zaz14
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Mar 2026
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Shane is miserable, Shane is depressed, Shane wants to give up.
Ilya will never let him, and if he has to drag his boyfriend to another country to make sure he is looked after. He will.Shane will be signing with Boston and Ilya will wrap his precious in blankets.
Shane needs to stop assuming people hate him and his gayness.
Starts in 2019, Ilya and Shane have been dating for like 20 months at this point.
Important tag - Shane is a bad narrator and will assume the worst. People are not what Shane assumes.
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11 Mar 2026
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Safer in Chains Than to be Free by 4242424242424242424242424242424
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Mar 2026
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The name of your soulmate only appears once your realize you are in love with them.
"Shane Hollander" appears on Ilya's chest before the Sochi Olympics. He tells nobody, and then he disappears.Six months later, Shane gets a call from an unknown number. Ilya. In Montreal, and completely different.
It doesn't matter, though, and the next morning there's a line of Cyrillic across his chest.Timeline goes back and forth.
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- Part 1 of This is Love
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08 Mar 2026
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Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.
It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.
Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.
Right???
(or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)
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04 Mar 2026
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To only ever know the cold by IbecomewhatIbelieve
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Mar 2026
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Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.
She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.
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Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.- Language:
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02 Mar 2026
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Tommy Kinard had arrived at the apartment expecting to just drop off the box of things he’d found while packing up to move. He had arrived expecting Abby to snatch the box, maybe say something deservedly nasty, and slam the door in his face.
What he had not been expecting was Evan Buckley.
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02 Mar 2026
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A Thousand Miles by Darla_my_Darling
Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien, TOLKIEN J. R. R. - Works & Related Fandoms
18 Mar 2026
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This time, when Aredhel runs from Nan Elmoth, she runs alone. This changes everything.
This time, when Maeglin leaves Nan Elmoth and Eol behind, he leaves alone. This changes some things, and some things stay the same.
This time, Celegorm finds a fleeing Aredhel. This changes everything.
Maeglin wants…to leave Nan Elmoth, to find Gondolin, to have real family, to be safe, to be loved…it can be a long wait to find a place in the world.
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28 Feb 2026
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“Marley.” Ilya says evenly, suddenly knowing he can actually breathe. He had a plan and he knew what he needed to do. And he couldn’t do it from the locker room bench. “If he is very injured, if he cannot play again, if he is very bad, I will kill you. I will kill you painfully.”
Cliff gapes at him.In which the hit that Cliff Marleau had on Shane Hollander goes a little different. For one, they’re in Boston. For another, Ilya realizes he might be panicking? Which is probably not something to do in the middle of a game. And, oh yeah, he just outed both himself and his not-boyfriend to an entire locker room of hockey players.
But that’s okay, because while Boston may be vicious, they do take care of their own. And they quickly realize that their captain’s happiness and willingness to stay with the Bears is tied to Shane Hollander. The solution is easy, they’ll just have to make Shane Hollander a Bear.
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27 Feb 2026
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Second Chances by TylerReed
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Mar 2026
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Ilya Rozanov's life takes an unexpected turn when a deadly plane crash in 2021 takes his life, right after a fight with his long-time partner, Shane Hollander. Though instead of the afterlife, Ilya is sent back to December 2008, just before his NHL career began, on the very day that he first met Shane. He finds himself in a familiar world, with knowledge of both the future and knowledge of the man he loves and the friends he holds dear.
As Ilya navigates this new reality, he rebuilds his relationship with Shane, who is still finding his path in both hockey and his identity as a gay man. With their rivalry blossoming into a different experience than the one Ilya experienced the first time around, the two face challenges around acceptance, family pressures, and the struggles of being openly gay and lovers in the sports world. Throughout their journey, Ilya contemplates his first life, cherishes the present, and strives to alter the course of their futures (and the futures of their friends) for the better.
Or, Ilya Rozanov discovers first hand what the butterfly effect is, and how it can drastically alter the future.
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26 Feb 2026
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"Is this your first time with a man?"
"Yeah. Yours?"
"Oh—no."
"Really?"
"Really."
"Who, another player?"
He stopped. He hesitated.
"no, my coach's son back in russia."Just as they begin to believe in something stable and lasting, a scandal erupts: a former Russian national team coach is exposed as a serial abuser, and images from Ilya’s past begin circulating in the media.
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25 Feb 2026
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New Year, New Us by mrn945
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Feb 2026
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Post-tuna melt, Shane realises that he fucked up. Making things better comes with bigger consequences than he expected.
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23 Feb 2026
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When Ilya finds out of his teammates has been using, his decision to turn him over to coach has the entire team penalized and they lose their momentum right before playoffs. To make matters worse, even after a press release clears the rest of the Raiders of any wrongdoings, the whole league still things Ilya is a cheater. Including Shane's team, who talks about it nonstop until one night he snaps and starts a fight with his own team on the ice.
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Ilya stepped towards him, hand grazing his elbow to try to get him to loosen up a bit. “You said, earlier, that it was me,” he mumbled. “You fought because of me."“Just a bit,” Shane joked weakly, looking back up at him. “They just- they hate you, Ilya. My parents, my team, my fans. And I hear it so much in the locker room or during practice, but on ice I- I couldn't fucking stand it anymore.”
“Is sweet,” he murmured, threading his hand through Shane’s hair and nudging him to lay his head on his shoulder. “But their words don’t hurt me.”
Shane sighed, nuzzling against the fabric of his shirt for a moment. “Hurts me, though,” he said softly. “I don’t like hearing anyone accuse you of cheating.”
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22 Feb 2026