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cross your thoughtless heart by PrincessAmericaChavez
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
08 Apr 2026
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“Is that it?” Ilya ask dryly at the exact same time.
“Are you fucking kidding me, Rozanov?” Shane snaps, still feeling his heart in his ears. “Is that not bad enough for you?!”
“Some people burn dolls, some people shoot them,” he has the gall to shrug. “I get threats like that all the time. No big deal.”
“Yeah, well, I get them too, asshole, so I know this isn’t normal. It is a big deal.”
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In the middle of a Montreal vs Boston game a threat against Ilya Rozanov becomes a security concern… and Shane Hollander kinda loses it. Just a little. In his defense, he’s pretty justified to be worried, okay? He is NOT overreacting.
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09 Apr 2026
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love in exile has nowhere to go by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Mar 2026
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“We’ve made a trade,” Coach announces. “For Shane Hollander.”
It’s like the ground drops out from beneath Ilya, and his heart falls from his chest. It tumbles past rock bottom, down to the cavern that shattered open inside of him on that night five years ago. The night when Ilya walked away from Hollander for the last time.
He can’t breathe.
(Or: Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.)
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07 Apr 2026
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Chris smiles up at him like it’s any other day, like Buck didn’t almost kill him less than twenty-four hours ago. “Are you staying for breakfast?”
“Buck’s staying the whole day,” Eddie announces before he can answer.
“You are?” Chris asks at the same time Buck says, “I am?”
“Yep,” Eddie says with a finality to it that Buck is hopeless to argue over.
“Cool!” Christopher grins.
“Cool,” Buck echoes with a forced, strained smile. He’d rather be alone and hiding under the covers right now, throwing himself another pity party.
or, Eddie takes Buck home after the tsunami
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07 Apr 2026
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Reckless & Young by some1_around
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Apr 2026
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Ilya was used to hazing. He had been subjected to it, he had participated in it, and, as a captain, he had stood guard over the rookies and protected them from anything truly harmful. But if he had been asked, Ilya would have approved of this prank. He would have authorized it, given Cliff and Vicky his seal of approval, perhaps even helped orchestrate it.
Any other day, Ilya might have been happy to play along.
But, in perfect dramatic irony, it had not happened any other day. It had happened today. And, cherry on top, of course the rookie had to walk in when Shane was already freaking out about Ilya saying his name.
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A prank-gone-wrong leads to the Boston Bears finding out about Shane and Ilya’s relationship in 2016. The day Ilya first invited Shane into his house. Right after they say each other’s names for the first time. Fuck his life, honestly.
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- Part 1 of lost in the haze
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07 Apr 2026
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Ilya Rozanov does not make it two weeks on Zoloft before the worst side effect hits hard and fast.
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“Barrett, I fucked up,” he says.
“Roz?” Barrett sounds dazed.
“I fucked up,” he repeats, and he realizes how drunk he sounds. He’s in so much trouble he almost hangs up.
“Roz, what's going on,” Barrett says.
Bozhe, he’s going to have to say the words.
Now with part two, featuring buckwheat pancakes, psychiatry for millionaires, important conversations, and Troy and Ilya’s worst “your mom” joke.
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Not a New Man (Or Crispy Realization) by SilverDancers
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Mar 2026
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Ilya Rozanov told the hockey gods his plans: sign in Ottawa, start a charity named after his mother, date Shane Hollander, play hockey until the shelves in the trophy room collapse, retire, come out (?), kiss his someday husband in every boring restaurant and boring grocery store and public place imaginable.
After being carted off the ice with a career-threatening injury, Ilya has the distinct feeling he is being laughed at.
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- Part 1 of Good Winter
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05 Apr 2026
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"Can I try something?"
"Yeah, sure, g-go ahead, man." Buck cringes, and even that is adorable.
"Close your eyes."
"E-Eddie," Buck croaks helplessly.
"I'm not gonna bite, Buckley. Trust me?"
Buck closes his eyes. Squeezes them shut, really.
Eddie tugs his face into the curve of Buck's shoulder before he can lose the nerve, Buck's pulse fluttering wildly against the tip of Eddie's nose.
OR: Buck is struggling after the events in New Mexico. Eddie decides to move in with him about it.
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"Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."
"You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"
"I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."
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Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.
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- Part 11 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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02 Apr 2026
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Ilya Rozanov does not come pre-installed with good communication or healthy coping skills. Is he going to seek out help on his own? Hell no! But when a family member kills himself, fellow Boston Raider and friend Cliff Marleau decides that Ilya is going to therapy come hell or high water. And Ilya... well, Ilya is just playing along to keep the peace. Right? He doesn't need therapy. But if it helps his friend be less worried, so be it.
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What if Ilya came into the tuna meltdown with slightly upgraded social skills and no one actually ran away before they had a conversation?
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01 Apr 2026
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He could fall asleep like this, maybe, leaning on Eddie. He's comfortable, slowly warming where they do touch, and he can even ignore the way his neck is going to get a cramp as long as neither of them move a muscle and nobody turns the big light on and the nausea doesn't surge up again and his head doesn't start splitting in two. Maybe he could get a half-hour's sleep in, even. A cat basking in the sun, Buck could shut his eyes and stay right here forever.
or: Buck's withdrawal leaves him freezing. Eddie keeps him warm.
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01 Apr 2026
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Buck knows it’s not sustainable by the fourth night, when he wakes up sweating and unable to breathe, one hand clutching his ribs where she’d stuck him the first time with the cattle prod and the other reaching to turn on the lamp at his bedside.
It’s been one week since he got back, so four sleepless nights puts him firmly in the "more bad than good" territory. What the hell is he supposed to do about all this shit? He alluded to therapy when he talked with Eddie at work the other day, but he’s not going to do that. Therapy is totally hit or miss for him. He’s been to two therapists, one was a miss, one a hit, which means he’s due for another miss.
He’s sure as hell not going to talk to Maddie about it, because that’d be, like, super triggering or something. She just got over her own kidnapping a few years ago. And who else, Eddie? Eddie had a traumatic experience in New Mexico as well; he doesn’t need to be responsible for Buck’s too.
But the fact of the matter is, something’s got to change. So, Buck decides to start self-medicating.
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or canon compliant up until s9ep14 (DIY), after that it's just angst and hurt and maybe occasional comfort
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Buck is a lot. Eddie knows Buck is a lot. Buck knows Buck is a lot.
But every single person who ever said that to Buck said it like a warning. Like a disclaimer, a heads-up, a you-should-know-what-you're-getting-into before getting too close so they can't say they weren't told.
And Eddie has never, not once, wanted Buck to be less.
The surplus, the overflow, the fourth tangent on a story that started somewhere else entirely — that's not the price of Buck. That is Buck. And more of Buck has only ever meant more to love, and Eddie spent enough years running on empty to know what it means when someone fills up every room they walk into so completely that Eddie is overflowing with it most days.
"Eddie. Are you listening?"
Eddie nods. "Gym Katie is alone at the gym and she's upset."
Buck blinks. His mouth is still open from the sentence he was about to say, his hands still mid-gesture, and he looks genuinely thrown, like he expected to catch Eddie zoning out and instead got caught himself. Caught being heard.
"You were listening," Buck says, a little breathlessly.
Eddie smiles. "I'm always listening."
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25 Mar 2026
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“Do none of you care about the children? It’s a bachelor auction, and you, my friend, are a bachelor. Abracadabra, put your name on the list.”
“I can’t,” Eddie repeats. He can’t. He cannot. “I’m not.”
“You’re not? Since when?” Chimney frowns. “Who?”
It’s not Eddie’s fault that, at that exact moment, Buck walks in. So it’s not his fault that he opens his mouth and says, “Buck.”
Or, Eddie trips and falls into a lightly fraudulent HR-disclosed "consensual romantic relationship" with his best friend. Really, if you think about it, it's a win-win.
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The car Eddie bought smells like stale cigarettes and mildew, and the seat creaks ominously when Buck heaves himself gingerly into it. He watches Eddie limp around to the driver's side and ease himself behind the wheel with the kind of studied caution that suggests he's in a lot more pain than he's letting on. The engine coughs as it turns over, but it starts. Buck watches through the rearview mirror as Los Nietos fades into the distance with a sense of relief that feels so enormous he could choke on it.
Or: Buck, and Eddie, and a ten hour drive home.
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20 Mar 2026
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He realizes it right before everything goes to shit. He’s just standing there in the loft and Eddie’s handing him Christopher’s backpack and talking about “he’s not that fast” and “order pizza” and Buck sort of stares at him—partly in shock, partly in reverence—and he thinks "I love you." He shoves it down immediately, of course, as far down as it’ll go, but the fact of the matter is, it’s there somewhere, floating around inside of him. He can’t get rid of it now.
Not that it matters all that much, though, because there’s the whole quitting thing and the lawsuit thing and the argument in the grocery store and by the time he’s given his (re)start date he knows; he well and truly fucked up.
or: another classic post-lawsuit fic. Angst, hurt, some comfort, more angst, more comfort. -
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“On the other side of this,” Eddie whispers. “Maybe we can try it.”
“Hm, okay,” Buck hums, apparently awake, but barely. “What are we tryin’?”
“I know now isn’t the right time. I’m not - - we’re not ready. But this next bit isn’t going to be pretty. It’s going to be hard. And I need you to know, so you have something to hold on to. So that I don’t forget what it feels like. What it felt like. We could - - we could try.”
Or, after the kidnapping, Buck goes through it. Eddie goes through it with him.
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all around you, all the time by peculiarblue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Mar 2026
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“I am out for the season?”
“Probably."
“Are you by any chance looking for a trophy husband?”
“Ilya.”
“Yes? No?”
“It’s one season, Ilya, we’re not—it’s bad because you’re hurting, not because—I’m not letting this fuck anything up for us, okay? We’ll figure something out,” Shane says, resolutely.
or, you know what they say about the best laid plans
ilya’s first year in ottawa looks a little different than originally planned, maybe sort of because he ends up spending it recovering a broken leg in his boyfriend’s apartment, but probably mostly because he meets jackie pike
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17 Mar 2026
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Toltec, Stanfield, Bighorn. Shuffling around parking lots. Buck gets down some of the warm applesauce cups the nurse gave them. He can’t take the pills on an empty stomach, and he’s been warned off solid food for the next few days. His nose wrinkles every time, but he doesn't complain.
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Eddie and Buck, driving home
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16 Mar 2026
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Hayden just wanted to surprise Shane with a guy’s night in. Shane had been flat lately, and he and JJ thought it would be nice to distract him with friendship.
How they ended up stuck in a fucking closet watching Shane get dicked down harder than anyone in the history of the world has ever been dicked down, Hayden would never quite understand.- Language:
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15 Mar 2026
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Thundering footsteps come down the hallway, bust into the room.
Eddie, pausing at first in the doorway, then eyes bursting wide in shock. He jumps to Buck’s side, hand warm and heavy across his back.
A guttural sound comes from deep in Buck’s chest–not a scream or a groan, something instinctual and animalistic, a rabbit as the wolf's teeth dig into its neck.
"Buck? Holy shit. Buck, Buck, what did she give you? What did you give him?" Eddie shouts.
"Mom?" Buck whimpers.
or, Margaret Buckley has munchausen by proxy
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- Part 2 of preacher's daughter
Bookmarked by FormerKnight
15 Mar 2026