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i don't want to be the owner of your fantasy (i just wanna be a part of your family) by bloomstarswrites
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV)
02 Nov 2023
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Ellie is content like this, Joel busy doing something, and her just sitting with him, watching. It reminds her of after Silver Lake, when Joel would drag her around because she couldn’t stand being without him. She thinks back to the first time she woke up and couldn’t feel Joel’s presence at her back. She had rolled over, expecting to find him sitting across from her, stoking the fire, only to notice that Joel’s sleeping bag was empty, and he was nowhere to be seen. She remembers the fear, that all encompassing fear she’d felt thinking that David had come and snatched him away from her, just like he snatched everything else from her. That fear had been mixed with white hot anger, and she had clung onto her sleeping bag so tight, she’d almost ripped holes in it. She’d cried, hard, and only calmed down once Joel had returned. She remembers the trembling, and the shaking, but mostly the feeling of being held by strong, yet gentle arms. She also remembers when she came to later that night, and apologised to Joel for acting so childish.
“You have nothin’ to apologise for, baby,” he’d said, running his fingers through her hair in a way that always helps her calm down, even now. “You’ve done nothin’ wrong,”.
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03 Nov 2023
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October/November: Interlude by two_birds_alone_together
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
02 Nov 2023
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Missing scenes from A Safe Place To Land, Chapter 4 ("October").
Whumptober 2023 Finale!
27. Matches | Scars | “Let me see”
30. Borrowed Clothing | Bridal Carry | “Not much longer...”
31. Emptiness | Setbacks | “Take it easy.”Series
- Part 15 of whumptober 2023
- Part 3 of a light in the dark of this danger (bookshop!au)
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03 Nov 2023
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Awake and Dreaming by TuttleAsHimself
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
30 Jul 2023
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When weighed down by nightmares, Ellie doesn’t cry herself awake.
On bad nights, she mostly just startles herself into consciousness with a sharp intake of breath. On the really bad nights, she wakes up paralysed.
While they're on the road, Joel learns about the latter at the worst possible time.
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life isn’t a sentence (but you’re my semicolon) by joel_is_my_father_figure
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV)
05 Jul 2023
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Joel is a man in his fifties with a ton of secrets that was convinced to sign up for the foster system by his late ‘friend’ Tess.
Ellie is a fourteen-year-old girl with every fuck to give and has never been able to stay in one placement for longer than two weeks.
What could possibly go wrong?
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02 Jul 2023
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It's like being buried at the bottom of a very deep, very dark well. Castiel has lived enough, sinned enough, for the weight of his mistakes to pin him flat in the darkness. It's shame and guilt and grief and each memory anchors him with a razor specificity, there in the lightless silence. This is how it works, he supposes. His own thoughts will devour him alive until he sips oblivion by choice, out of sheer desperation, and the void will know peace at last.
But that was the bargain. He took that upon himself. His choice. Choice, he thinks, and would laugh if he still had a mouth to laugh with. Freedom is a length of rope.
Then, after what could have been many eternities or just one, a pang of agony comes that isn't his own.
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Or: the one where Castiel saves himself.
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- Part 7 of season 15 fix-its
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13 Sep 2021