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    Luca Haas has a meltdown on the ice in the final five minutes of the game.

    Confidence scarred, he throws himself into a summer athlete campaign with the Centaurs to outrun the fear that he’ll never be as skilled, confident, or sexually expressive as Ilya Rozanov was at his age.

    But when “polite” Luca Haas snaps and shocks everyone by starting a fistfight with Filipino-Canadian youth athlete Angelo Perez, summer quickly derails into a dilemma to be seen as mature, living up to the expectations of the team, and these newfound, guilty urges for the very guy he fought on day one.

    Centaur matchmaking. Missing home. A messy summer fling. A mean article. An exploration of what sparks are supposed to feel like. And Ilya catches Luca buying condoms.

    And a “bad influence” that makes Luca feel—maybe for just one summer—that it's okay to be a little selfish.

    OR; Practically a character study of Luca Haas' insecurities + his foil to Rozanov disguised as me trying to revive the scrapped Haas book

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    08 May 2026

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    When Shane's out for the season with a broken ankle, issues around food and control come to a breaking point.

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    07 May 2026

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    What if Troy Barrett was one of Dallas Kent’s victims?

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    28 Apr 2026

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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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    22 Apr 2026

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    It's a long standing hockey tradition for veteran players to take in a rookie player for their first year, but when Coach Wiebe came to Ilya about taking in promising prospect Luca Haas, the last thing he expected was to actually agree.

    Luca had just moved from Switzerland to Ottawa and the transition had been anything but smooth. More stressed than he had ever been in his life, unsure how he was going to get through the season, and the last thing he expected was to be taken right under his childhood idol's wing. In what turns out to be a manageable season with the newfound mentorship of Ilya Rozanov.

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    22 Apr 2026