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    Shane Hollander is 18 years old and a beta when he first competes at World Juniors in Saskatchewan. Shane's only expectation is to bring home gold. Instead, Shane unexpectedly presents as an omega during the gold medal game against Russia. Luckily, his rival Ilya Rozanov is there to help Shane, which is a good thing because Shane knows nothing about being an omega. Rozanov kindly offers to extend his stay to help Shane through his first heat.

    Only months later, Shane discovers that he came home with a whole lot more than a silver medal and an unwanted new designation. Somehow he's carrying the baby of a man who lives on the other side of the world. A man who never offered his phone number and doesn't have any social media to speak of.

    Somehow Shane is going to have to find a way to explain why he's suddenly pulling out of the 2009 draft, come to terms with giving up hockey and caring for a baby completely alone. All while desperately wishing he could share the joys of first smiles and the stress of sleepless nights with the alpha he's never quite been able to forget.

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    Shane gets pregnant the first time they meet, but doesn't find out until Ilya is back in Russia with no way to contact him.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Chap 18

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    In 2014, Shane Hollander walked away from hockey, from the spotlight, and from every dream he built since he was 8 years old.

    In 2014, Ilya Rozanov felt like he was losing himself. So he pushed everything away, so no one would get hurt when he eventually cracked.

    Years later, they reunite, Shane — with so many scars, a thousand secrets, and a heart that never learned how to let go.

    Ilya Rozanov thought he knew what losing felt like.
    He was wrong.

    Or: Sometimes, love doesn’t leave.
    Sometimes, someone keeps it for you.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    Two negatives make a positive and six positives make Shane Hollander throw up in Ilya's specially imported Japanese toilet.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Nothing feels right or good. Not the weight of his pads or the glide of his skates over fresh ice. Not the crispness of the rink air or the roar of a sold out Montreal crowd. Not his teammates’ triumphant shouts when he sinks a goal or cool water in his throat after a hard workout or well wishing texts from his parents before every game. It’s all just… faded.

    Grey.

    Empty.

    Shane doesn’t know how to bring color back into his life. Not when he leeched it out himself with every step he took away from the only person who has ever truly, honestly seen him.

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    After Shane walks away, his life falls apart one piece at a time.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    In 2022, Ilya wakes up in a hospital in Ottawa with no memory of how he got there. He has hazy recollections of 2015, but he can't remember anything about the past seven years. He is shocked to learn he is now married to Shane Hollander, a fact that forces him to reconcile the decisions of his past self with the expectations he inherited from his father.
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    “I have this for you.” Hollander reached into his pocket, pulling out something gold, glinting under the cold hospital lighting. Holding his fist out, Hollander unfurled his hand, and the bottom fell out of Ilya’s heart, cratering through his stomach and spilling onto the floor.

    Shane Hollander stood before him, palm outstretched, cradling Irina Rozanova’s golden crucifix.

    Ilya flinched back, like he had been burned. Hollander’s warmth had moved too close, too fast, morphing into a threat and a violation. Hollander should not have that cross.

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    28 Feb 2026

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