17 Bookmarks by Medanym

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    “A bet?” Fyodor says, incredulous, “You played me for a bet?

    Dazai smirks. “Well. I won, didn’t I?”

    /// Fyodor Dostoyevsky has held the title of World Chess Champion since age thirteen. On his tenth reigning year, a no-name brunette slips his way uninvited through the wall of cameras, past the belt barrier, and shatters Fyodor's decade-long unbeaten streak.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    It started with the clocks. They stopped working. They froze. Dazai knows time still exists. He knows. But somehow, he's ended up a prisoner of the Russian whose hands bring death to all but the one man who craves it, and he can't figure out how he got there.

    Fyodor says it's because they're in his reality; Dazai doesn't believe it. But the longer Fyodor tortures him, the more he forgets who he was and becomes who he must be: a sinner, subject to the punishment Fyodor brings.

    ...And just when he starts to give in, something strange happens.

    Or, Dazai is Fyodor's sick hobby until Fyodor accidentally feels something, too.

    Read at your own risk. Includes extreme and graphic depictions of trauma, violence, rape, and psychological abuse. (But with a satisfying ending, I promise)

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    25 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 43

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    "Yes, come in," the voice, Dazai's, answered him. He sounded rushed and Fyodor was elated at the thought that their small meeting wouldn't have to go on for so long. That was, until he stepped inside the studio.

    "Oh, I see you're from the church."

    Fyodor's eyes quickly flew to the direction of the voice after landing on the nude model posed on the platform in the middle of the room. After hearing rumors surrounding the "great artist" for years, Fyodor could finally attach a face to them.

    He was loathe to admit it was a beautiful face.

     

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    When Osamu Dazai is commissioned to craft the marble sculpture for the new church being constructed, Fyodor Dostoyevsky is tasked with assisting him and making sure the genius artist stays in line. Despite their vastly different backgrounds, Fyodor is willing to set aside their differences with their interests momentarily aligning. But can a man as devoted as Fyodor be able to resist such temptation?

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    08 Apr 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 92

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    After losing his one and only friend, aspiring writer Dazai Osamu sinks into an even deeper pit of depression and loneliness. The only thing keeping him going is a promise he made to that long gone friend.

    However, fulfilling that vow gets a lot harder when a mysterious Russian man takes interest in him.

    Things only get even more difficult when said man turns out to be the deranged serial killer stalking Yokohama’s streets.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Dazai has everything. A great job (he’d rather not do), a caring boyfriend (who he could live without), a brilliant mind (that’s bored to death). His life should be great. He shouldn’t feel that deep, hollow nothingness rotting him from the inside out, or the soul-aching loneliness that comes as a curse of his ‘gifted mind’. Perhaps that’s what leads to him spilling blood all across the streets of Yokohama, an unchecked terror of the night.
    But just when he’s convinced life will be a living hell until the blissful day he dies, something new happens. Something exciting. One day, a new serial killer comes to town, and Dazai is ready to play.

     

    A twisted, obsessive ‘love’ story between two serial killers, with the city as their chess board, and the citizens their pieces.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    In which one Dazai Osamu, freshly out of the the port mafia with a dead best friend, reaches out to the closest person he has to an equal, for… comfort?

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    23 Feb 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 4

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    Dostoevsky goads people into bullying him because he gets off of seeing Dazai get annoyed, and Dazai kills people who bother Dostoevsky because he wants to be a "good person" and also because it makes Dostoevsky happy enough to cling to him.

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    22 Sep 2025

  8. Public Bookmark 3

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    Dazai is obsessed with Fyodor and littearly kills half the school.

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    21 Sep 2025

  9. Public Bookmark 60

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    For Dazai, joining the Decay is just a ploy - a way to gather information for the Agency. Until its much, much more

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    The broken sobs Dazai made were too rough to not be real.

    Fyodor would know.

    Many years ago, before he learnt to wear an emotionless mask at all times, he had heard the same sobs coming from a different - smaller and rounder - mouth.

    Those sobs can not be faked by most people, like a confession of love or extreme happiness, for they are the purest expression of feeling, as if you're baring your soul for the world to see.

    Those sobs are a clear sign of a broken mind.

    He had known Osamu was broken (had known since he met him; many years ago), yet it was still unsettling to witness such a sign of weakness from a man he considered so strong.

    Dazai was almost saintly in Fyodor's eyes, his ability the hand of an angel purifying the sin that was 'abilities' in this god-forsaken world.

    But even angels can fall from heaven.

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    21 Sep 2025

  10. Public Bookmark 3

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    "...trying to think of the perfect gift for my boyfriend, it had to be something cute but also show care on my part, I couldn't just give him something pointless or that would break in a few years, it had to be something more..."

    Dazai needs to find the perfect gift for his lover, until it shows up, and now Dazai knows what to do.

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    13 Sep 2025

  11. Public Bookmark 8

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    Fyodor Dostoyevsky was a fanatic collector from a young age. He'd build impressionable collections of all he loved, dissatisfied if he ever was within a competitors reach. These traits of his never truly left the growing body, as now, after attaining his coveted half, Fyodor's sense of competitiveness wound up simply playing by a different codex.

    With Dazai Osamu, a world renowned actor, living under his roof, Fyodor turned into a worshiper, bending at the knee for any of his requests. His love for the god gifted artiste was unending. There were no lenghts he would not go for his beloved.

    But it all looped back to a simple home-cooked meal.

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    13 Sep 2025

  12. Public Bookmark 8

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    Where Dazai learns about love and how to love as well.

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    07 Sep 2025

  13. Public Bookmark 3

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    Before the bad omens and sensing any storms, there used to be faith and occasional worships. They were in Fyodor’s admiration of the instability that hovers above Dazai’s impulsive motivations, the cuts he draws on his fingertips and the prints on his neck he boasts. The preciseness of his erraticism is sacred, as fluid and changing as an unwritten future.

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    07 Sep 2025

  14. Public Bookmark 16

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    Everything is perfect for Fyodor and Dazai, who are happily married.

    They have a little cottage to call home, crops to harvest and sell in the small little town they reside in, two beautiful horses named Sugar and Cookie, and they adopt two adorable but abandoned kittens whom they later name Flora and Fauna.

    Nothing will stop them from achieving the happy ending they deserve.
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    Or, Fyodor and Dazai live in a rural town, away from the city and the acquiescences they used to know.

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    04 Sep 2025

  15. Public Bookmark 7

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    Sometimes, unwanted and unanticipated, Dazai invites himself into Fyodor's bed. Fyodor only ever burns in the cold of his presence.

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    31 Aug 2025

  16. Public Bookmark 17

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    A small flirtatious smile spreads over the man’s features when he realises he’s staring and he tilts his head to the side a little. “Can I help you?”

    “I’m here for my daughter.” Fyodor informs him, arms folded as he lifts his chin in a dignified manner.

    “…Sonya…” Realisation dawns on the man’s face and he whips his head back towards the little girl.

    OR

    Dazai is a daycare teacher who struggles at life and finding love and it’s not his fault. At least he thinks so.

    Fyodor is the single father of his darling little girl, Sonya, and does not struggle in that domain. At least he thinks so.

    Together, they are a disaster of likeness and conflicting feelings- a man who hasn’t been loved and another who doesn’t know how to do so.

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    17 Aug 2025

  17. Public Bookmark 10

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    “You know,” Dazai begins, breaking the silence with a rather late pondering, “you’re really quite pretty.” Fyodor hums in acknowledgment as Dazai pushes a piece of hair back behind Fyodor’s ear, hand lingering to trace down the sharp curve of Fyodor’s jawline. He was staring, cogs and gears whirring behind curious brown eyes. “I think I should kiss you.”

    “Is that what you’re thinking?” Fyodor asks, amusement clear in the small quirk of his lips as he looks down at the boy with his head in his lap. Brown hair flared over his thighs, brushed back from his face by Fyodor’s restless hands. His lips were mildly chapped and Fyodor couldn’t help the thought that passed through his mind of one way he could get chapstick on them.

    “Among other things,” Dazai admits, turning his head to look at the flames crackling safely within the fireplace, letting the light dance along the solemn lines of his face.

    “It’s the other things I’m worried about,” Fyodor mutters.’
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    Fyodor finds a stray before the storm and decides to take him in

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    1,116

    13 Aug 2025

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