Ms_Snicket



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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    27 May 2026

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    “You scream in your sleep.”

    “That was one night.”

    “It was three.”

    “You’re counting?”

    “Yes. Because I’m awake for all of them.”

    “I don’t want you to see me like this.”

    “I see you.”

    “It’s just a plate.”

    “I can’t—”

    “Can’t what?”

    “I didn’t stop it.”

    “I was fourteen.”

    Or, Shane starts having episodes—flashbacks he doesn’t fully remember—that bleed into sleep, into games, into the space between him and Ilya. He loses time. He loses weight. He loses control of the carefully engineered life he built to feel safe. Ilya isn’t the only one confused—because Shane won’t let himself remember. And when the ice finally cracks, it’s not just their marriage on the line.

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    26 May 2026

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    Healing isn't linear and Ilya is learning this.
    Healing is also not a quick process.

    After his world is upended, Ilya works to return to normalcy. His body doesn't feel like his, his mind is playing tricks on him, and he wants to be OK again.

    Most of all, he wants to hold his boyfriend again. He wants to feel his touch without being thrown into dark memories or flinching away from a touch he once chased. Ilya is determined to recapture the intimacy that was stolen from him.

    As long as it takes.

    This story is a sequel to I'll Crave Your Touch Again .

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    08 May 2026

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    Angry tears spring to his eyes and his head spins. His breath picks up.

    Something bad is happening, he thinks.

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    Shane is finally settled into married life with Ilya when ghosts from his past unearth troubling secrets he didn't even know were buried. He's forced to go on an odyssey in search for the answer to one question: what really happened to him all those years ago?

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    08 May 2026

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    After the events on the roof in Vegas, Shane finds himself wandering the streets and ends up at a bar where he later becomes the victim of sexual assault.

    "Something is wrong with Shane Hollander.

    He no longer returns Ilya’s texts, not even to tell him to fuck off. Over the summer, Ilya thinks this is about Vegas. Thinks maybe he somehow pushed Hollander too far that night. The look on Shane’s face was anger, but Ilya had seen the terror below it too. He understood that terror.

    It’s the pre-season when Ilya realizes something else is going on. The charming, bright-eyed golden boy is no longer present in interviews. Hollander answers questions like he’s a wooden man reading from a book. No fire, no passion, no personality, no smile. He is a dense brick. The light of him has gone out and Ilya clocks is immediately."

    This will follow Shane's path of recovery from unimaginable violence through his eyes, Ilya's eyes, and those of close friends and family.

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    28 Apr 2026

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