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lonely i came, and i depart alone by nightrose
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 May 2026
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Ilya has heard people say that suicide is a selfish act. He's heard people say it about his mother, and it used to make him furious. He’d punched Alexei for it, once, broken his nose when he said, why are you still moping over that selfish bitch, she left us without a thought, even though he knew it was his brother’s grief speaking and not his heart.
That word, selfish, made him so furious, maybe, because some small part of him believed it. Some part of himself, a part of him that he was too ashamed of to acknowledge, let alone to name, believed that his mother should have been braver. Should have been stronger. Should have fought harder to stay with him, to keep taking care of him. Would have, if she’d loved Ilya as much as she claimed to.
He knows now, now that he has Shane, that it isn’t true. He knows it is possible to love someone entirely, completely, with the purest and truest love, and for life to still be unbearable.
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Another look at Ilya's depression in The Long Game.
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- Part 1 of a strange door
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31 May 2026
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Pretty face (He's everything I love about this world) by Miss_3625
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Feb 2026
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Ilya gets hurt during training and has to get anesthesia. Because of that, he doesn't remember who Shane is anymore when he wakes up - Shane, who is his husband.
So, of course, he flirts with him.
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- Part 1 of The Cracker of Despair and Doom
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25 May 2026
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One Dead, Two Souls Gone by Sunshine_Raye
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Mar 2026
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Each moment felt as if they were running from one place to the next. Chasing feelings they barely knew the names of and grasping at gaps in time. Holding on to them and fitting them into the most unlikely of places. They had an hour at this hotel, a single week at Ilya's apartment, a long weekend at Shane’s cottage. Each meeting was ephemeral, just as their relationship was proving to be.
Just as Shane Hollander was proving to be.
OR Shane and Ilya discover just how prominent gun violence can be in spaces with large crowds.
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25 May 2026
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A Rivalry of One by cowboyoftheconeyisland
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Jan 2026
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They call it a Lucid Interval. A brief moment of clarity after a traumatic brain injury where the patient appears fine. Awake. Alert. Happy.
After the hit, Shane Hollander wakes up. He jokes with the nurses. He smiles at Ilya. He makes plans for the summer.
Ilya Rozanov just outed himself to the entire world on live television to save him, but he can't save him from this. Shane isn't getting better. He is dying. And these are the last conversations they will ever have.
A story about the hit, the confession, and the long, slow silence that followed.
They weren't saying goodbye to each other; Ilya was too confident that Shane would win.
Shane loved winning.
He lost, the first lost that Ilya didn't enjoy.
Because he only left Ilya to suffer more.
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25 May 2026
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You forgive, you forget, but you never let it go! by Nbeng
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
17 May 2026
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Troy Barrett really wants to be friends with Shane Hollander. Ilya really wants Troy and Shane to be friends. But when they push Shane too far old hurts resurface and Troy is forced to confront the past pain he has caused.
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18 May 2026