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lonely i came, and i depart alone by nightrose
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 May 2026
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Ilya has heard people say that suicide is a selfish act. He's heard people say it about his mother, and it used to make him furious. He’d punched Alexei for it, once, broken his nose when he said, why are you still moping over that selfish bitch, she left us without a thought, even though he knew it was his brother’s grief speaking and not his heart.
That word, selfish, made him so furious, maybe, because some small part of him believed it. Some part of himself, a part of him that he was too ashamed of to acknowledge, let alone to name, believed that his mother should have been braver. Should have been stronger. Should have fought harder to stay with him, to keep taking care of him. Would have, if she’d loved Ilya as much as she claimed to.
He knows now, now that he has Shane, that it isn’t true. He knows it is possible to love someone entirely, completely, with the purest and truest love, and for life to still be unbearable.
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Another look at Ilya's depression in The Long Game.
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- Part 1 of a strange door
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31 May 2026
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Pretty face (He's everything I love about this world) by Miss_3625
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Feb 2026
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Ilya gets hurt during training and has to get anesthesia. Because of that, he doesn't remember who Shane is anymore when he wakes up - Shane, who is his husband.
So, of course, he flirts with him.
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- Part 1 of The Cracker of Despair and Doom
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- 6,516
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25 May 2026
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One Dead, Two Souls Gone by Sunshine_Raye
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Mar 2026
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Each moment felt as if they were running from one place to the next. Chasing feelings they barely knew the names of and grasping at gaps in time. Holding on to them and fitting them into the most unlikely of places. They had an hour at this hotel, a single week at Ilya's apartment, a long weekend at Shane’s cottage. Each meeting was ephemeral, just as their relationship was proving to be.
Just as Shane Hollander was proving to be.
OR Shane and Ilya discover just how prominent gun violence can be in spaces with large crowds.
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25 May 2026
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A Rivalry of One by cowboyoftheconeyisland
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Jan 2026
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They call it a Lucid Interval. A brief moment of clarity after a traumatic brain injury where the patient appears fine. Awake. Alert. Happy.
After the hit, Shane Hollander wakes up. He jokes with the nurses. He smiles at Ilya. He makes plans for the summer.
Ilya Rozanov just outed himself to the entire world on live television to save him, but he can't save him from this. Shane isn't getting better. He is dying. And these are the last conversations they will ever have.
A story about the hit, the confession, and the long, slow silence that followed.
They weren't saying goodbye to each other; Ilya was too confident that Shane would win.
Shane loved winning.
He lost, the first lost that Ilya didn't enjoy.
Because he only left Ilya to suffer more.
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- English
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- 17,162
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- 5/5
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25 May 2026
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You forgive, you forget, but you never let it go! by Nbeng
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
17 May 2026
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Troy Barrett really wants to be friends with Shane Hollander. Ilya really wants Troy and Shane to be friends. But when they push Shane too far old hurts resurface and Troy is forced to confront the past pain he has caused.
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18 May 2026
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A not so secret relationship (anymore) - thanks a lot internet. by mikrh_snobara
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
27 Apr 2026
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AU where David never went to the cottage, so Shane's parents never learned about Ilya.
A couple of months later, a private photo is posted on the internet and they all come rushing to Shane's house. Meetings ensue and truths are revealed.
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09 May 2026
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biting my tongue swallowing it down by yellobaby
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 May 2026
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Shane can’t look at him. He can’t really look at anyone but he manages to lift his head and stare right back into Troy’s glistening eyes.
“I never had that advantage, Troy. I never got to take it out on anyone, for any of it. All the times I got on that ice to play some hockey and some… fuckwit idiot like Kent, or whoever was calling me slurs— whether they were gay ones or racist ones… I couldn’t just hurl them back and call it a day like you did.”
He swallows hard. He thinks he might be sick a little bit in his mouth.
“You know how fucking lucky you are? To have gotten away with it? They love you, Barrett. This team loves you! You’re fucking celebrated because you overcame this big, terrible thing but for me it’s—”
He thinks about his mom in that very split second. His beautiful, wonderful mom who’d coached him his entire life on how to be polite, how to be well behaved. How to answer to teachers the right way, to coaches, to cops to the press to the general public to his fucking teammates—
He looks away. The fight suddenly drains right out of him and he goes back to his bag.
or: shane decides to confront troy if no one else will
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03 May 2026
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Grin and Bear It by Giveemhale
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 May 2026
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Ilya tries to get Shane to be friends with Troy. It goes horribly.
AKA Shane crashes out at Troy
Chap 2: Shane and Rose talk about fame and rage
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- English
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- 2/2
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02 May 2026
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Enemy Lines by winter_ninja
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Jun 2026
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“Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”
Shane doesn’t answer.
He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.
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Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.
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- English
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- 47,144
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- 17/?
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31 Mar 2026
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A Moment Lived (And Time Left Behind) by gimme_the_mf_tea
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Mar 2026
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Ilya receives a gift that captured one of his happiest moments
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Or in which Ilya receives old footage that his mother took from long ago
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25 Mar 2026
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In which people find out that Shane Hollander yelled at the montreal metros by spnispain
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Mar 2026
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Someone leaks the video of Shane going off on the metros. The internat reacts.
*A sequal to a previous work but can absolutely be read as a stand alone*
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- Part 2 of The downfall of the Voyageurs
- Part 1 of Social media
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- English
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- 7,713
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- 2/2
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16 Mar 2026
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baby, baby, i'm on fire by arsvitae
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Mar 2026
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“Who would have thought Hollander would be such a freak?” Wyatt asks, a big smile on his face.
“Shut up, Hazy. Yes, my husband is a freak. And he’s mine. Don’t perceive him,” Ilya says smugly, looking at his teammates over Shane’s body, a big smirk on his face.
“You’re too chronically online, Cap,” LaPointe laughs.
“Yes, I know. I’m too hot. I play too much good hockey. My husband is too sexy. They will kill me,” Ilya says, smirking into his beer. The rookies all laugh, and Shane snorts into his neck, even though Ilya is pretty sure he has no idea what he just said.
Or in which the Ottawa Centaurs go clubbing, Shane sits on Ilya's lap, and Ilya loses his mind.
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13 Mar 2026
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Celebration of a Funeral by ilyarozanovsblacktanktop
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changer (Web Series)
05 Mar 2026
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Heated Rivalry has consumed me completely I don't believe I have a life anymore.
This is a poem based on Ilya and his struggles. My friend, who is obsessed with fanfictions from her own fandom and who essentially introduced me to AO3 asked me to post this here. She is crashing out over her final exams while I'm doing this by the way lol
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06 Mar 2026
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To catch a homophobe or two, (or twenty) by VicIsWriting
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Feb 2026
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Shane volunteers to be mic'd up on his first game against the Voyageurs in his first season with the Centaurs. What could go wrong?
A lot... He hopes.
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11 Feb 2026
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I think of you all the time (now that you're gone) by Andi_xx
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Feb 2026
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Ilya finds himself falling into old habits. Featuring: drug abuse, and eventually !!Recovery!!
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04 Feb 2026
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Learn How to Deal by sunnylobster
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Feb 2026
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Shane Hollander had never dealt with another person’s mental health.
Shane tries his best to take care of Ilya when he’s depressed. How was he supposed to know that Ilya was doing so badly?
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29 Jan 2026
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when i'm gone don't even try to find me by byulelle
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
22 Jan 2026
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…What the fuck was Shane doing on the highway back East? His fingers fly across his phone quickly, calling up Troy. “I think Shane is going to Montreal,”
“What?”
“His phone is off, but his car GPS is on. He is going to Montreal,”
With all the events of being outed, getting married, getting drafted to a different team, and winning a Stanley Cup for said team on his first year - the emotions Shane hadn't processed are now catching up to him, grasping him by the throat. And he doesn't know how long he could outlast it with such disastrous results from his new season.
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22 Jan 2026
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there I saw you standing (must have been a holy light) by nobodyknows11
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Jan 2026
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There’s a sudden cacophony of yells. As Shane turns to find the source of the noise, the only thing he can see is red splattered across the ice and a #81 jersey.
For an absurd moment, all he can think is “my parents are at this game. Hayden and Jackie are in the stands. Thank god the kids aren’t here.”
He doesn’t remember moving, but the next thing he knows, he’s kneeling in a pool of blood with his hands on Ilya’s neck, certain that he was about to die.
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13 Jan 2026
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It’s more about motel rooms than chapels. The prophet of the Lord is an alcoholic who struggles to keep afloat—God doesn’t have time to drag every hack writer out of the gutter, you know? And the angels are more willing to kill than either of them had expected. Dean thinks they’re supposed to have fluffy wings and Sam thinks they’re supposed to be wheels of eyes with incomprehensible power, and it turns out they have trench coats.
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- 1/1
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06 May 2024
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It took Sam a while to notice it. Longer than he’d like to admit. But to be fair to himself, he had been watching for impulses of a more murder-the-world kind, not whatever was going on now.
It all really boils down to this: Dean styles his hair. Which Dean has always done, and Sam has always known. But the hair gel is no longer tucked away in the bottom of his duffel bag; it stays out in the open of the shared bathroom of the Bunker, and Dean doesn’t hide what he’s doing if Sam walks in.
“Heya Sammy,” Dean greets happily, running a hand through his hair.
“Hi,” he says back, nervously watching Dean’s actions.
He’s looking in the mirror, and it’s not until he stopped that Sam realizes Dean’s always flinched at his reflection.
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06 May 2024