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    Part of Shane’s brain knew this slight fear in his mind wasn’t grounded in reality. He was one of, if not the best player in the league right now. It was hardly even a controversial opinion. But he knew he could do better. He wasn’t pushing himself enough. Hell, he was more drained after a summer with Ilya than he was when he left the rink.

    That wasn’t good enough. His efforts weren’t good enough. He wasn’t good enough.

     

    Or: Shane's control issues reach a breaking point as he develops an eating disorder disguised as a performance diet. Ilya tries his best.

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    29 Jan 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 84

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    In which Ilya is not taking the (unofficial) break-up well, and Scott Hunter has to deal with it

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    29 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 88

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    There is a point in a relationship when you realize you love someone. That has happened to both Shane and Ilya. However, they haven't done anything about it. Ilya just figured it out the night before the incident. The incident was really traumatic. Ilya was in Moscow, and Shane was back in Montreal. Shane called Ilya, crying and having a panic attack. But when Ilya realized he wasn't very coherent and was injured, everything changed.

    Shane came back to the hospital, and both Ilya and Hayden were in his room, looking so concerned. Little did he know that this wasn't just a brutal attack during a home invasion... it was a sexual assault and the beginning of a deranged stalker and serial killer's descent into madness. Suddenly, Shane never feels safe alone. His mental health gets worse... however, he has Ilya and Hayden to be there for him. Yet Ilya needs to learn how to let Hayden be there for Shane without getting jealous, and Hayden needs to learn to let his friend make his own decisions... no matter how much he hates his taste in Russian men.

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    20 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 80

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    It's one of the last games before Christmas. Everything's going great. Centaurs has been playing well so far this season. Shane and Ilya are enjoying playing for the same team for the fifth season in a row.

    Ilya ends up getting an early Christmas gift from one of the LA players that he didn't want or need, in the form of a devastating knee injury that puts an early end to his season.

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    13 Jan 2026

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    After the longest season of his career, Ilya retreats to the cottage with Shane, expecting rest, recovery, and a month of stolen peace. Instead, exhaustion lingers. Small things feel wrong. And the body that has always carried him through pain begins to falter in ways he can’t explain.

    As concern grows and outside eyes begin to notice, the life Ilya and Shane have carefully built—careers, borders, futures—starts to feel fragile. When a medical crisis shatters their summer before answers arrive, love is no longer something they protect quietly. It becomes something they fight with.

    A story about what happens when the body speaks before you’re ready to listen, and the people who refuse to let you face it alone.

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    10 Jan 2026