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Something horrible in Dazai's past comes back to haunt him in the form of a brown envelope full of pictures.
He expects to be abandoned and shunned, but for all his precision in foreseeing outcomes, he finds that he is not the best at predicting the emotional reactions of those that care about him.
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Slowly, Dazai bends down and picks one of them up in a shaking hand.
Kunikida has never seen him like this.
"I don't understand..." Atsushi is saying, but he stays with Ranpo, Kyouka and Kenji where he is, "What are those pictures? What's going on?"
Dazai is terrifyingly held together and calm and collected, his eyes half-lidded and hollow, when he gathers them up from the floor and straightens, when he moves towards the desk and sets them by tapping them against the top, and then carefully puts them back in the envelope.
The silence that follows after is deafening and unbearably long as Dazai stands there with his back to the room, his head bowed, his eyes hidden by his hair.
"I'm going to kill him," he whispers, so quietly it took Kunikida several seconds to make it out.
In one swift motion, he turns with the envelope in hand and storms out of the office.
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This pattern of pain washed away by the rain by eto (dudettedoodlezz)
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
18 Apr 2024
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Is he really a better man? Regardless of how much he bends himself over backwards to put on his show, regardless of how natural smiling and laughing have become now, they still feel foreign to him. Smiling is an intricate baring of teeth and a painful stretch of his cheeks, and his own laughter sounds like an unusual and bizarre sound, rattling his vocal chords and leaving him breathless. It is as close to humanity as he’s going to get. At this point, his body knows what to do to make himself appear humane, even though his mind is far from it. It’s in its own way a frightening experience - he finds himself doing all these things, without really understanding them.
It feels more natural nowadays, but it still catches him off-guard sometimes. Just like it did now.
Or: After the defeat of the Decay of Angels, Dazai does some self-reflection, and decides the best course of action is to slowly distance himself from those he cares about.
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Every year on Oda's death, Dazai suffers. On the sixth, he decides to try and end it in a way he thought was sure to work.
Or, Dazai takes the wrong drugs, breaks down, scares the Agency and Chuuya comes to help
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After a series of love letters Dazai wrote for Chuuya are accidentally delivered, Dazai has to deal with the fall out he was never prepared for.