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    Shane Hollander was traded to the Ottawa Centaurs without ever being outed. His relationship with Ilya Rozanov is still a secret to most people.
    Everything was going just fine, until they both get added to the Centaurs WAGs group chat.

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    16 Mar 2026

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    Before a game against Chicago, Ilya receives a text from Shane that he never thought he'd receive. As he rushes to be by Shane's side, Ilya gets in contact with Hayden and Shane's mom to hopefully make it in time to save Shane from himself. When they'd been outed months before, Ilya hadn't worried because Shane had told him he was fine. Now he's questioning everything to figure out what he missed.

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    12 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    10 Mar 2026

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    The image of blood spreading across white ice is burned into Shane's mind. So is the way Ilya Rozanov looked at him across a hundredth faceoff—sharp, challenging, alive.

    Now Ilya needs a place to recover, and Shane needs to stop having nightmares. It's practical. Convenient.
    It's also the most dangerous thing Shane's ever done.

    Because you can't feed someone smoothies, wash their hair, and watch them nearly die (twice) without catching feelings. And Shane's been running from those feelings since 2010.

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    06 Mar 2026

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    Nothing feels right or good. Not the weight of his pads or the glide of his skates over fresh ice. Not the crispness of the rink air or the roar of a sold out Montreal crowd. Not his teammates’ triumphant shouts when he sinks a goal or cool water in his throat after a hard workout or well wishing texts from his parents before every game. It’s all just… faded.

    Grey.

    Empty.

    Shane doesn’t know how to bring color back into his life. Not when he leeched it out himself with every step he took away from the only person who has ever truly, honestly seen him.

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    After Shane walks away, his life falls apart one piece at a time.

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    05 Mar 2026