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    “For fucks sake Ilya, will you just let it go?”

    “No, I will not.” Ilya rounded on him, and in a single second Shane was being spun around to face him, hands firm and a little tight as they clasped his skin, fingernails pressing into his forearms. “You passed out Shane.”

    Shane shook his head, eyes burning as he found an interesting spot on the ceiling.

    “No, listen to me,” Ilya shook him. “You are stressing about something, you are barely eating, you are exercising too much. You FUCKING FAINTED in the gym today. Do you not get that? You were down, out completely for several seconds, if Luca hadn’t found you....”

    They stared at each other for a few moments, Ilya’s chest heaving, eyes shining bright with something heavy as Shane just glared back at him.

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    Shane joined the Centaurs a few months back, and god he loves this team. But the eyes of the Hockey world are sitting there, waiting, fingers at the ready to accuse him of losing his edge, now that he can be distracted by Ilya. The weight of it all has him scrambling to make everything right again, to give him back the control that’s steadily slipping away.

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    A little rattled by Rozanov's sudden coldness after the olympics, Shane decides to follow a gut feeling that something might be wrong, even if it's not really any of his business. Even if they don't do that. Don't care.

    He does find Ilya, eventually. But Sasha gets to him first.

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    “Mn you’re not wrong. If that couch could speak,” Ilya said, his lips pulled in a smirk, “it would also complain about my libido.”

    Silence descended on the room once again. Wyatt slowly turned his head to look at the fabric of the sectional he was sitting on.

    Luca was the first to move. He launched himself off the couch as if electrocuted. “OH MY GOD!”

    Troy scrambled up next, wiping the back of his thighs frantically. “YOU ANIMALS!”

    Harris stood up slowly, a look of profound betrayal on his face. “I’m sitting on the ghosts of your dead would-have-been-children.”

    Wyatt simply stood, walked to a wooden dining chair in the corner and sat down with the solemnity of a man choosing a life of celibacy.

    (or, 5 times Ottawa Centaurs teased Hollanov for their crazy love and 1 time they showed that crazy or not, Shane and Ilya are family. And no one fucks with their family)

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    Shane doesn’t realize he’s braced for silent eyes until he feels the absence of it — the weight of teammates immediately finding him and going quiet, waiting for him to fuck up, to say the wrong thing, to exist wrong. He expects the chatter of a room to drop when he enters and its disconcerting to find it doesn't yet in Ottawa.

    He stands at the entrance a beat too long.

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    It’s the start of Shane Hollander’s first season in Ottawa and he should be settled. The Centaurs are friendly, the room is easy, and Ilya is finally close enough to touch. But, as Shane is intimately aware of, old habits learned the hard way will linger.

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    06 Mar 2026

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    “You are not broken, Ilya,” Terry says, sounding a little stern now. “I told you to keep an eye on the side effects. How long have you been experiencing this?”

    “Since last night.”

    “What?”

    “Since last night,” Ilya repeats. “Or afternoon, technically.”

    And Terry…Terry fucking laughs.

    Ilya is going to die, and Shane will be sad forever and Terry fucking laughs.

    “It hasn’t even been a day?” Terry clarifies, still chuckling. “Well, this could have nothing to do with the medication. It could just be an off day—”

    “Off day?” Ilya repeats incredulously. “Have you seen my husband? There are no off days with an ass like that.”

    OR: Ilya starts taking antidepressants only to realise it's fucking up his sex life. And, he acts totally very chill about it.

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