afraidtobelieve
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The death of someone you truly love will always devastate you in inescapable ways.
[missing scene from “In the Wind”]
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“This can’t be happening.”
In the immediate aftermath of “Perverted,” Olivia still can’t seem to catch a break.
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She'd been okay, at first. Really.
[This story begins in the aftermath of "Undercover."]
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Every time she thinks she knows what to expect from him, he swerves.
[post-episode for The Five Hundredth]
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I don’t care about the government and I really need a hug by afraidtobelieve
Fandoms: Law & Order: SVU, Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021)
12 Sep 2023
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“When he looks back on his admittedly short life, Eli Stabler can’t help but feel… cheated.”
[The first in a two-part series that focuses on Eli and Noah, respectively, and the process of growing up.]
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- Part 1 of Boyhood/Manhood
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Boyhood/Manhood by afraidtobelieve
Fandom Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021), Law & Order: SVU
12 Sep 2023
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Holding Patterns by boopboop
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
23 Feb 2026
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Shane and Ilya's peace is hard-won and devastatingly fragile. A phone call from Russia threatens to bring the whole house of cards down around them.
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- Part 2 of Duty of Care
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Bookmarked by afraidtobelieve
23 Feb 2026
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Lovers, or, English is a damn funny language by Basingstoke
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Feb 2026
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Ilya asked Shane’s father while Shane and his mother were talking outside: “Is boyfriends correct? Lovers is incorrect, but I am not sure what is correct.”
“Well,” Mr. Hollander said. “‘Lovers’ is usually used for, hm, a mistress or an affair. Something kind of sordid. Though--you would say Romeo and Juliet is a play about two lovers,” he said. He paused his knife on the chopping board. “Somehow that’s right and using it for real people isn’t right. English is a damn funny language, Ilya."
“Yes,” Ilya said from the bottom of his heart.
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Bookmarked by afraidtobelieve
20 Feb 2026
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Say I couldn't want you less, but I just want you more by foulrescent
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
17 Feb 2026
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He really didn’t know where his night was going when it started, but he knows it began with a girlfriend. He didn’t know if it would end with a girlfriend, because all he could think about was –
“Ilya Rozanov,” he says loudly, and proudly, when his call gets picked up but no one answers. He thinks he’s slurring, but he knows what he’s saying. “Are you still in Boston?”
The smoker’s area is full of people watching him. He turns quieter and whispers into the phone, “Ilyaaaa Rozanooooov.”
“What do you want, Hollander?”
(Shane is messy)
Bookmarked by afraidtobelieve
18 Feb 2026
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If you’re afraid of wolves by gsmaxwell
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
20 Feb 2026
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Shane was on the mend. Really. Ilya had pulled him out of that icy river before there was any lasting damage.
It didn't matter that he couldn't just fucking forget what had happened.
Ilya wasn't okay, but he wasn't going to tell anyone that. Telling people would mean dealing with it.
And he had Shane now, which was enough.
Or: Shane and Ilya deal with the fall out of being kidnapped and traumatized by the Montreal mafia.
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- Part 2 of Kidnapped AU
Bookmarked by afraidtobelieve
15 Feb 2026
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I trace your constellations by stupidnephlim
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Feb 2026
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When Ilya and his mother move to Ottawa after escaping his abusive father, he didn't expect to find his new neighbour Shane Hollander so endearing.
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- Part 6 of Hollonov written to song lyrics
Bookmarked by afraidtobelieve
14 Feb 2026