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“Asked me if I was the Chinese food delivery guy on my first day.” Chim contributed in a whisper, like he was afraid Buck might wake up and hear. Maybe he felt disloyal admitting it now. It was no secret to anyone paying attention how much Chim loved Buck, even if he often pretended to be exasperated with him.
Hen nodded solemnly. “One of the many people who wouldn’t even acknowledge me when I started.”
It was news to Eddie, and apparently Ravi too, but not Cap, who resolutely stared down at the table in front of him, shaking his head.
“Oh, so he fucking sucks.” Ravi contributed casually, never one to pull punches with his thoughts.
No one responded, but the agreement was in the air.
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Eddie starts gathering information about why no one trusts Tommy. As he grows to hate their relationship more, he learns more about himself and what he wants.
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30 May 2025
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Eddie reckons with the forces that have kept him stuck in the past on a holiday visit to his hometown. He has a choice to make, but not the one he believes he's facing down when he gets on the plane just before Thanksgiving.
Meanwhile, Buck can see the writing on the wall. This is how he loses his best friend. The same way he's already lost Christopher to the miles of distance between California and Texas. He's trapped in a cycle of loss and not sure how he's going to cope.
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In which I make El Paso matter, Eddie and Chris repair their relationship, and Buck goes through a period of self-discovery. Could all of their introspection lead Buck and Eddie to come crashing back together in a new way?
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26 May 2025
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The first time he sets foot inside of a Church after he moves is when Shannon dies. He carries her coffin to the altar and doesn’t cry.
The second time is years later, when Buck gets struck down from the ladder by lightning, stops breathing for three minutes and seventeen seconds and Eddie performs CPR the whole way to the hospital. He tries to breathe life back into Buck’s body, and silently prays to a God he’s sure has forgotten and abandoned him. He cracks Buck’s ribs trying to get his heart pumping again, and when it does, Eddie cries.
The third time Eddie steps inside of a church it’s three pm on a Thursday and he has the day off. Buck is out with Tommy somewhere and can’t hang out, and Eddie can’t help the feeling of jealousy that runs through him like a wave. Even though Buck has been always at least three feet from Eddie for the past three days.
The third time he walks into the 'house of God', it’s four days after his parents came all the way from El Paso to take Christopher.
(or, chris leaves and eddie deals with all the things religion, grief and buck)
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22 May 2025
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Eddie shrugs. “We can just order in, it's fine.” He turns to look at Buck, mirrors his position from his spot next to the sink. “You do know you don’t have to cook every night, Buck.”
“I feel bad.” Buck admits. “I’m staying over, you buy groceries, you do laundry, you drive us to work. I wanna repay you somehow.”
Eddie shakes his head. “You’re staying over because I asked you to. I do those things because you’re my best friend and I want you to be comfortable. You don’t have to do anything to repay me.” He pauses, looks right at Buck. “You do enough by just existing by my side.”
(or, buck offers his apartment to bobby and athena, and living with eddie is easy.)
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19 May 2025
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Eddie clenches his jaw. When he looks at Buck again, his eyes are lit up with anger.
“Butt out, Buck. You're not his dad."
“You don't get to say that,” Buck replies harshly. “You don't get to come to me and tell me you put me in your will, and that you did it because you knew I'd fight your parents for Chris, and then get mad that I want to fight your parents for Chris.” Buck knows how to get angry too. Buck can fight too.
They can't both be the good cop.
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19 May 2025