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Courage is not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it by Spruce_Goose
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
20 Jan 2026
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Eddie sits as close to the door as he can, pressing his body against the metal and appearing smaller than he should. His left hand is on his thigh, which has a slight bounce to it, something anyone else could put down to the movement of the rig. His right curls around the St Christopher medal hanging around his neck. There’s a slight tremble in his fingertips, something Buck isn’t sure anyone else has noticed.
He has.
When it comes to Eddie, he always notices.
Eddie’s face is turned towards the window, but in the glass, Buck sees the pinched expression etched into his features. He sees the tightness in Eddie’s jaw, the way his throat works, and the small tilt of his head towards the sky.
It’s the face Eddie makes when he’s trying not to cry.
OR Eddie deals with the trauma of having yet another gun in his face. 9x08 Coda
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21 Jan 2026
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Eddie can’t move. Like this, Buck is illuminated by the sunlight streaming through the window; dust motes shimmering around his head, his hair haloed in gold. Beautiful, Eddie thinks. And to his surprise, he doesn’t feel any sort of guilt about doing so.
Except — he should. Because Buck is dating Tommy, and he’s happy, and Eddie would rather go to his grave repressed and miserable than ever take away from Buck’s happiness.
Or: Eddie starts to untangle his complicated feelings about himself, and Buck. Mainly Buck.
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07 Jan 2026
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“You were drunk. I know it didn’t mean anything. Everything’s alright.”
Buck visibly winces. “That’s not — Eddie.”
There’s a suspended moment where Buck looks torn, standing on the edge of something, eyes fixed on the horizon to avoid looking at the drop, the precipitous canyon below. But then Buck, who can’t lie, who would tear his own chest open to a complete stranger on the street because the truth of him spills so loudly out of every jagged edge, sighs out:
“It meant something.”
There’s a ringing sound somewhere in the distance, getting closer. “What are you…” Eddie trails off.
“I wasn’t — well, I was drunk. But that wasn’t what. Wasn’t why. Not entirely, or — god.” Buck shudders in a breath, steeling himself. “I have feelings for you.” He closes his eyes. “I’m so sorry.”
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Buck confesses his feelings. Eddie’s straight. If he spends all his time thinking about Buck and looking at Buck and wanting to be around Buck, well, that’s just being a good friend, isn’t it? He’s being so normal about this, actually.
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23 Nov 2025
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How do you begin to explain to someone how you’ve, in less than a week, managed to kiss your straight best friend twice.
Yes. That’s right. He’s kissed Eddie. Twice.
All because Eddie asked him to.
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06 Nov 2025
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“But with Bobby, I’ve been trying to do better,” Eddie says.
A hand rests on his shoulder, a thumb stroking. It’s a familiar gesture, but the fingers aren’t calloused enough to be her brother’s. Maddie’s fingers are slimmer, more delicate. It eases the hurt all the same.
“I think you have been,” Maddie reassures him, “at least you’re not joining illegal fight clubs this time. Just very legal book clubs.”
Eddie snorts. The callout was unexpected.
“You’re not what?” Karen’s eyes bulge out of her head as she sits back down.
Eddie chuckles and finally meets Maddie’s gaze. “I hate that Buck tells you everything.”
OR: Eddie joins a book club with Maddie and Karen after Bobby’s death, while Buck slowly drifts away.
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20 Oct 2025