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  1. Public Bookmark 12

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    Soobin was about to throw himself out of the window if he heard the words “put your arms around yeonjun-ssi please” again. It had been 2 weeks since their last serious talk. Now the only words they exchanged were a simple “hello” and sometimes a “what’s the schedule for today?" Soobin didn’t know why the shift happened; he just knew he was going insane.

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    the yeonbin ff i started writing because we're finally getting the divorce era lore

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    24 Mar 2026

  2. Rec 4

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    “I'm not sure if I want to continue playing volleyball.” He turned his head towards Keeho.

    Keeho looked at him. “Do what you want to do.”

    Jiung kept looking at Keeho, they were so close that if Keeho moved forward even slightly, their foreheads would touch.

    “I want to be with you.”

    Keeho opened his mouth, but nothing came out.

    Stay with me as friends.

    That's what he meant.

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    Or, where Keeho is in love with his best friend, Jiung.

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    15 Feb 2026

  3. Rec *

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    Maybe Sieun should want less—maybe that’s his problem.

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    Suho grows distant.

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    23 Dec 2025

  4. Rec *

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    Tell me, what is queerness if not a kind of worship? Its holiness in the ordinary and the ache of being seen under a sun that forgives nothing. Beomgyu was a sun-dipped hostile air that Soobin was ready to take in even if it burned his lungs. 

    Maybe love is a sin, maybe it isn't. But if God was watching, Soobin hoped he was merciful enough to look away.


    Choi Soobin was sent off by his mother to a small, not-so-famous youth camp for the summer. Dull and too wide-eyed, he found himself sharing a cabin with Choi Beomgyu, the needlelike, unreachable boy whose presence seemed to pulse with cruelness. In the stillness between them, a question began to stick around the feverish and honey-thick summer; what does it mean to touch someone you're so afraid to be seen loving?

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    17 Dec 2025

  5. Rec 7

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    Shota and Jongseob have been secretly dating for over a year, until a saesang fan exposes them in public and their company finds out

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    10 Jan 2026