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    Beomgyu didn't really know what had happened to him. Of course, this was a recognisable feeling, but he thought he’d healed. Everything was going well. He was happy. His friends were happy. But his mind told him he shouldn't be. His mind told him to suffer, to skip meals again, to avoid talking to those he loved. And while the skipping meals part was difficult, he found it easy to shut down a little more everyday. He spent more time in his room, cracked less jokes during practice, declined innocent hangouts because he was “too tired” or “had other plans.”

    It genuinely came out of nowhere. But that was the art of depression: surprise attacks that lacked a catalysing force.

     

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    Choi Beomgyu struggles to balance idol life with his rapidly declining mental health.

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    24 Nov 2025

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    “Have you ever heard about the origami hearts tradition in the hospital?”

    Taking the heart, the child excitedly inspected it, nodding in glee. “Yes! My mama told me that when someone leaves the hospital to go to heaven, we all fold a paper heart for them! Like this, like this!”

    “That’s right,” chuckled Soobin. “But do you know how it started? It started here, in this room. From a boy who used to fold a paper heart every day for his lost love, hoping each one he makes will take him closer to the day those eyes would open again.”

    "Unfortunately for him, the day never came."

    In other words, a hopeless love story of two childhood best friends who didn't realise what it meant to have each other until it was too late; compiled of yearning, loss, forlorn hope, unrequited love, and every tragedy in between.

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    11 Jul 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 34

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    Some things are easier to feel than they are to say, and maybe that’s why it starts this way.

    Beomgyu hated shrimps, Soobin would peel it for him.

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    12 Jun 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 11

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    after another failed relationship, you're ready to accept your fate as hopeless. choi beomgyu has other plans, though.

    or, beomgyu's your best friend's little brother and he's tired of you treating him like a kid.

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    17 May 2025

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    “No one can find out about what happened today. No one.”
    “Why? Are you the shy type?”
    “No? Fuck off. There’s no way anyone can find out that I’m kissing you. Especially not Yeonjun.”

    Beomgyu's band got one problem: a rival band who is challenging their spots at the live clubs. It only starts getting personal for him when the vocalist of the said band storms into his life. Rude, and hot as hell.

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    01 Jun 2025