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    She feels like a ghost in her own house, but Billy is the one who haunts her.

    Billy has done some horrible things, there's no way around it. However, this story is about a little girl who lost her brother and the way she copes with his death and how she gets to know her brother after he dies. Being the only one left is frightening, and Max has to come to terms with a lot of things that are difficult for even adults to admit, especially when those things are grounded in abuse.

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    18 Aug 2019

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    this remains to be one of the best things ive ever read i will never recover from it i come back to read ever so often just so i can get punched in the fucking gut again.

    12/29/22
    reread this again and i stg. the most heart wrenching shit ive ever read in my life. i relate so strongly to both billy and max and u flesh out their reality so profoundly im just astounded. i experience literal chest aches every time. every damn time. thank u for writing something that can move me so deeply.

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    “You’re Rafael Barba. Assistant District Attorney for Manhattan,” he answered and Rafael let out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding. At least until Carisi smiled so wide and happy and added, “My husband.”

    The words were so alien to him that he honestly couldn’t respond for a second, just kept staring at Carisi’s happy face and at the stitches in his head while he saw flashes of blood on the car window. He couldn’t imagine his expression but knew it was something less than comforting as he watched Carisi’s face fall, his eyebrows draw together.

    “What?” Carisi asked finally, eyes flitting to the nurse still hovering in the corner of the room. “What’s the matter?”

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    [Or, Carisi gets amnesia and believes they're married and Rafael has to play along... risking his own heart in the process.]

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    31 Dec 2021

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    one of the best things ive ever ever read. talked to all of my coworkers abt it even tho they dont watch svu i could Not handle it alone.

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    Move on. Let it heal.

    Maybe that’s why Steve said yes when Max asked him to help move boxes out of Billy’s room after the dust settled. He could hear her voice. Too many. Too heavy.

    Just like his wounds. His grief. Too many. Too heavy.

    (Or, Steve steals the glass ashtray from Billy's bedside table and things start to go bump in the night.)

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    03 Oct 2022

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    ghost ghost ghost ghost ghost my shiiiiit. fucking beautiful nothing could comare wish i was on this level.

  4. Public Bookmark 38

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    It’s outrageous, Joe thinks, flipping through the stack of glossies. It’s outrageous how Dacre looks at the camera. It’s bedroom eyes dialed up to eleven. It’s too fucking much.

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    05 Jul 2022

  5. Public Bookmark 45

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    Joe’s brain just sort of fizzles out whenever Dacre’s in his orbit and all he can focus on is the way Dacre rubs his chin while he’s thinking through his answers, all slender fingers that Joe wants in his mouth.

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    05 Jul 2022

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    horny horny horny horny horny horny