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this is not enough (i am not enough) by blankjournals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jan 2026
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Shane's breath catches on a sob, and he muffles the sound with his hand. It’s too much. Everything feels like too much. He’s naked, and he can feel entirely too much on his body, inside his body, and he hates how it's starting to feel gross. His head is pounding, and he can't even focus on placating his mind when his lungs are also screaming in his throat for breath.
Ilya hears, and his hands reach out to hold Shane, tension lying in every part of his body. “Shane—”
“Don't touch me,” Shane snaps, more desperation than yelling as he rips his arm out of Ilyas's grasp. His tears have nowhere to go now, and they finally spill over, hot and humiliating, down his cheeks.
Ilya freezes in place, hand hovering mid-air. Shane watches, his vision blurry, as a myriad of emotions flicker across his face: confusion, hurt, fear. Ilya takes an unconscious step back like someone shoved him. His body curls in on itself, trying to make himself appear smaller.
He looks... terrified. Like, Shane just called him a monster, and he believes it.
OR: inspired by the fight in the long game when ilya had told shane he could have sex with other men because he did not believe in cheating.
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- Part 2 of missing scenes from TLG 📖
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07 Feb 2026
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love and lust (wanna be yours) by blankjournals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Feb 2026
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“You really wouldn’t mind if I had sex with someone else?”
Turns out, Ilya does mind. Hearing it said back to him, hearing those exact words come out of Shane’s mouth, almost makes him flinch, a sudden and brittle sound right next to his ear that he fails to recoil from in time.
But Ilya swallows back the bitter truth and replies instead into the phone, “Of course not. If that is what you want.”
He waits, sitting on his living room couch, phone pressed painfully against his ear, his other hand gripping his knees till his knuckles blanched. He could feel his own heart rattling behind his ribs, pulse rockingloudly; he was sure Shane could hear it, who had gone completely quiet. His mind was an echo of alarm, demanding of him: Why isn't Shane saying anything?
It was the loudest silence he’s ever lived through, until Shane finally replied, “Okay. If that's what you want.”
OR: inspired by the fight in TLG where Ilya tells Shane he can sleep with other men. But this time, Shane actually takes the offer.
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- Part 1 of missing scenes from TLG 📖
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- English
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07 Feb 2026
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Ilya’s Guide to Menacingly Soft Launching Your Relationship (and One Extremely Effective Hard Launch) by Lil_lightning15
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
17 Dec 2025
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“I think we tell world now,” Ilya declared grandly, pacing across Shane’s living room in Montreal. “Big announcement. Maybe fireworks. Maybe airplane banner over city—”
Shane, sitting curled on the couch in sweatpants, nearly choked on his tea.
“No,” he said immediately. “Absolutely not. No fireworks. No banners. No announcements. I’m not letting you hard launch us into oblivion.”
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Five times they soft launch and one time they hard launch, or Ilya is given free rein to soft launch their relationship.
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07 Feb 2026
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Ally...? Yeah Sure by CaptainKitler
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
31 Jan 2026
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Shane is sick of this whole ally shtick, so he decides to do something about it.
Cue Hayden and Jackie finding out about Ilya...
The world finding out that their beloved ally is in fact a homosexual...
Ilya being deemed the new face of hockey allyship...
But wait! He's bisexual?!
Hey why is Rozanov making dinner plans with Hollander in the middle of the game?
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Shane comes out, Ilya comes out, wait they're TOGETHER?!
A multi parted continuation of my previous fic!
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07 Feb 2026
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Hit Post by nineteenohtwo
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
08 Jan 2026
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A series of social media/epistolary fic exploring the world Shane and Ilya live in post The Long Game. Written before Unrivaled!
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Bookmarked by carlabnr
06 Feb 2026