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    Shane knew himself well enough to admit it, there were real feelings there. Complicated, messy, painful feelings.

    And despite everything, despite the rejection, the distance, the confusion, he still craved him.

    Craved the intimacy.

    Craved the softness he had seen in flashes but never fully received.

    Why couldn’t Ilya open up like this?

    Why couldn’t he just… talk to him?

    Because this, this right here with Hayden, was easy.

    Shane looked at Hayden and couldn’t believe how natural it felt.

    Why was it so hard to be like this with Ilya?

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    OR: Hayden finds Shane after the MLH Awards in Vegas where Ilya left him sub dropped and hurting. Hayden makes Shane feel better, and then things get complicated. Ilya's jealousy soars. He pushed Shane right into Hayden's arms, now he's fighting for him back.

    *No threesomes, some Shayden and Hollanov action - gets a bit messy but don't worry it should all end well

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Everybody else on earth was born with a manual on How to Be. A sort of silver spoon already tucked into their mouth.

    Shane wishes he had gotten one.

    After an exhausting day of masking and overstimulation, Shane has a panic attack. He loses the ability to speak. Thankfully, Ilya is there to help him through.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    An unexpected snowstorm forces Shane and Ilya to spend the night at Shane’s parents’ house.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    Shane is still learning that he doesn't have to be perfect in his own relationship. Ilya is still learning the rules of Shane's bad days. So when Shane tries to push him away after a crushing loss, it leads to a tense argument. But ten years of rivalry are no match for Shane’s tears; the second he starts to cry, Ilya folds like a house of cards.

    Or: Shane tries to starve himself as punishment for losing, Ilya tries to feed him, and it turns into a very soft night of pampering because Ilya is legally incapable of staying angry at a crying Shane.

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    29 Jan 2026

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    “Hollander? You are still here?” Rozanov called, breaking the TV static silence filling Shane’s head. He blinked. 

    “Uh. Yeah, just leaving,” he answered, surprised by how steady his voice sounded. Good, that was good. He knew he couldn’t show Rozanov any weakness if he wanted to keep coming back.

    But did he want to come back if it made him feel like this?

    “Door is too heavy? Or I fuck you too good, you cannot move legs,” came Rozanov’s taunting response. Shane could practically see the tilted smirk on his face, cigarette smoke wafting around his freshly-showered curls. 

    “Fuck off, Rozanov,” Shane muttered.
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    Or, I wrote something to add to the pile of subdrop!Shane in Vegas fics because legally by law I had to

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    22 Jan 2026