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How could I have just not been wary? I could not easily accept genuine kindness without thinking it was another show of unwanted pity from someone who did not understand.
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𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘬𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘯, 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘮𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘧. 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘺𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘧𝘵 𝘴𝘬𝘪𝘯 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘭𝘦, 𝘳𝘦𝘥𝘴, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘭𝘶𝘦. 𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘬𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘪𝘹 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘷𝘢𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘳. 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘶𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘳𝘨𝘶𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘱𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘤𝘦𝘳𝘶𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘯 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘬. 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘣𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘤𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘢𝘳𝘣𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴. 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘬𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘯 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺.
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It's Over, Isn't It? by chenxingluvr
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tiān Guān Cì Fú - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
25 May 2021
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𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘯? 𝘐𝘧 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘮𝘴. 𝘐𝘧 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘯…. 𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘨𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘥.
These excuses of debt, the pretense of friendship, my repressed years of emotions, and everything the both of us have suffered through. Did all of these matter? Was it worth it?
In this world, I'm destined to never achieve the epitome of humanity, the summit of existence, what makes life worth living and re-living— 𝘏𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴. True genuine ecstasy of freedom, knowing, love, and empathy.
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Lifetime by chenxingluvr
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tiān Guān Cì Fú - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù, Heaven's Official Blessing
04 Nov 2020
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Your Highness there is no one in the world like you, there is no one in heaven or earth that I love more than you, how many times shall I have my heart trampled and bruised til I can finally touch you without being smoldered?
Hate me, forgive me, see me as your friend. You are still all I've ever wanted and waited for, no matter how much I try to forget and replace you there is no one that could amount to you.
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or feng xin and his 800 years of self-hatred, guilt, and longing
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I really thought we would make it, that we could make it together.
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you're beautiful, mark. the most amazing person to exist
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As I hide my scared heart, I will look for you by emperorseijoh
Fandoms: 伪装学渣 - 木瓜黄 | Wěi Zhuāng Xué Zhā - Mù Guā Huáng
07 Nov 2020
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The sun hasn’t come out yet and the wind is still cold yet in this little corner of what they called ‘home’ Xie Yu’s worries slowly dissipated, his shoulders now relaxed as his limbs starts melting, placing his forehead on He Zhao’s shoulder as an indication that he has no energy left in him.
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11 Feb 2021
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The Darker The Weather, The Better The Man by capyshota
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tiān Guān Cì Fú - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
28 Jan 2021
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At the point where Xie Lian is struggling to breathe through the intense winds, he stops and turns his back to the source of it all. He squints to trace back his footsteps, but finds they’ve already faded into smooth snow drifts at the thirty foot mark.
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“…A lot of things out here can catch you off guard if you aren’t careful.”
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05 Feb 2021
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The apartment is still. Early morning light gently filters through sheer curtains in the nursery, and birds could be heard as well as a few far off honks from morning traffic. If someone from the outside were to glance into this home, they would think it be the normal setting of a wealthy single father with his young son. No possible way it could be two heavenly officials.
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Jun Wu has had enough of watching Xie Lian struggle and get hurt, so he decides to whisk him away to care for him like a son. Xie Lian is not pleased with this decision. (Set in an obscure timeline before the black water arc.)Series
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31 Dec 2020
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On his third ascension, Xie Lian finds heaven in complete chaos. Crimson Rain Sought Flower had just demanded a virginal sacrifice, or else he would wipe out the three realms. Xie Lian, having destroyed many buildings during his ascension, is deemed the best option and is immediately carted off to be wed to the infamous Ghost King.
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17 Dec 2020
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Felix calls Chan 'Daddy' as a joke, but then it's suddenly not a joke anymore.
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17 Dec 2020