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    “I should go,” Shane choked out, pushing himself off the couch. Ilya sat up, brow furrowed. And then — rather than breaking promises to himself like he had for the past six years — Shane forced himself to follow through as he gathered his clothes from their crumpled pile on the floor.

    “We can’t … I don’t think I can do this anymore.”

    Shane ended things in Boston. The universe had other plans.

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    "I say when you come," Rozanov explained, kneading the muscle of Shane's ass. "You listen. Only then, yes?"

    Shane blinked, processing. It felt almost too vulnerable, to give up all control that way. But underneath was a need to prove himself: to live up to the hungry want painted over Rozanov's face.

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    02 Jan 2026

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    He wanted to take it back instantly. Wanted to swallow his name down, down, down, shove it back into his heart where he’s been hiding it for - god - years. He wanted to go back in time a few seconds, to just before the moment when he ruined it all. He’d call him Hollander, instead. He’d whisper something sweet in Russian so Shane would never know - so Ilya could speak his feelings into existence without Shane hearing them.

    He’d do anything at all to fix it.

     

    (Or, Shane leaves. Then he comes back.)

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    01 Jan 2026

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    At the club, Shane realises what he wants.

    So he follows it out the front door.

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    01 Jan 2026

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    He runs his palms down over the one-size-too-big Bears jersey with Rozanov written in large letters across his shoulders and 81 underneath, whispering encouragement to himself. “You can do this. You’re Shane Fucking Hollander. He’s not going to laugh. Stop being an idiot and go out there.”

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