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The New Kid by noyeahforsure
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
30 Dec 2025
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Nesta isn’t depressed, she doesn’t need saving, she just doesn’t like hanging out with Feyre’s new friends.
Or, a somewhat cathartic rewrite of that TERRIBLE holiday party.
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31 Dec 2025
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The Bargain by TransientFireworks
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
08 Jan 2026
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No matter where she was, no matter what she was doing, she never left the Cauldron.
Pain and emptiness have been her companions since she was born. Her mother made sure of that.
The drinking was supposed to help; it was helping. Now confined to the House of Wind, Nesta can't escape the darkness that follows her every step. What happens when it finally catches up with her?
Cassian doesn't know how to help.
No one can help.
Would it would be better if she let the darkness have her? Maybe tonight, she can finally close her eyes and never wake up.
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26 Nov 2025
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He remembers his eyes bulging, his back hunching, his bones breaking, stretching, rearranging. Screams. A fear so primal he could taste it. The feeling of his claws cutting through flesh like it was butter. The texture of meat and bones between his teeth. The taste of blood in his mouth. Delicious.
But those memories are getting more blurry the longer he’s here. They tell him that he had a mental breakdown and that he made it all up in his head as a coping mechanism to deal with the physical and sexual abuse he suffered from
Laurel GatesMarilyn Thornhill. Yet even though they allow thatLaurel GatesMarilyn Thornhill is real, her face is also blurry, like paint melting on a canvas and leaving only puddles vaguely resembling the original portrait.There is one memory too vivid, too full of sensory detail for him to have made up.
The Kiss. Or rather, the series of kisses he shared with Her, just once.
He knows instinctively that if they ever find out about Her, they will try to take Her away, too, and that if he loses Her, he’ll lose the most important part of himself. He’d rather kill himself than let that happen, even if She only exists inside his head.
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18 Nov 2025
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Alchemised AU where the war didn't happen.
Helena has always kept a distance between herself and the Guild students—until she unexpectedly gets paired up with Kaine Ferron for an important assignment, and the world as she knows it is threatening to change.
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27 Oct 2025
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I'm Sorry I'm The One by ChelseaMorningGirl
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
03 Jan 2026
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Nesta hasn’t heard the sound of a voice—familiar or otherwise—in five days. Not since Cassian slammed the balcony doors behind him on his way out after a particularly nasty argument, wingbeats like thunder retreating into the clouds.
It seems that all she can do these days is anger the ones around her.
She hasn’t left the House of Wind in two weeks. She hasn’t been allowed to. Not since Rhysand told her, voice black with rage, “If it wasn’t for Feyre, if you weren’t my brother’s mate, I would have had you executed for what you did.”
Not since Amren said she belonged in one of the cells beneath the Court of Nightmares, because, “Some monsters don’t stay tamed, no matter how hard you try to civilize them.”
Not since Mor stared at her and said to her cousin, “I don’t know why you’re surprised, Rhys. You’ve always known she’s reckless and useless in equal measure. She never did become one of us.”
Not since Cassian stood in that same room and stayed silent.
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Even after the Mask is safely returned by Bryce, Nesta is confined to the House of Wind. Deciding enough is enough, she makes plans to sever something that was supposed to be her sacred forever.
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16 Oct 2025