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“Ev,” Eddie’s soft voice had tears immediately welling in his eyes. He turned to face him.
Wait for me, he wanted Eddie to say, I’ll come back for you.
Please ask me to wait for you.
Eddie swallowed hard, sucking in a slow, deep breath.
Please. Please ask me to wait for you.
“Write to me?”
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Buck and Eddie meet just days before Eddie is set to be deployed.
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22 Jun 2026
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It’s on the tip of Buck’s tongue. Eddie can sense it—can practically feel the energy charging between them—and he needs it to stop. Once it’s out there, once they finally get tired of the dance they’ve been doing the day they met, it’s over. If they never say it, things could go back to normal. If they never say it, they’ll still be them.
Maybe one day, Eddie will be able to bring someone home who he loves less, but can stomach the possibility of losing more.
Love suffocates Eddie. Slowly, he learns to breathe.
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14 Jun 2026
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He’s so close. But Buck’s face sways even closer, eyes hyper-focused on Eddie’s mouth, like he wants to ensure that what he whispers next make its way inside:
“The quiet, closeted catastrophe of Edmundo Diaz—performed nightly for an audience of none.”
Eddie flinches. For a second, all the noise in his head goes silent.
“W-what—” Eddie’s voice cracks and he’s trying to frown, trying to be mad, but he feels exposed, so his words come out broken, confused. “What’s that supposed to mean?”or: buck fights back during the kitchen scene in 8x17 and it sends eddie spiralling
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28 Apr 2026
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“Eddie,” Buck breathes, laughing humorlessly, his voice wet and thick. “If we sat here and-- and went through the list of things I want…” his hands gesture aimlessly. “We’d-- be here all night.”
Eddie nods, catching Buck’s eyes again. “Maybe-- we start with mine, then.”
The space between them feels charged with static, like the second before the thunder finally rumbles.
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Eddie’s finally choosing to be better-- finally choosing joy. He just needs a push or two in the right direction, first.
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02 Apr 2026
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“Wanna dance?” Eddie asks, leaning only slightly away to look at Buck. He’s smirking now, eyes traveling all over Buck’s face, taking in his expression and the color blooming on his cheeks.
There’s a look in Eddie’s eyes now, one that Buck hadn’t quite seen before this trip. Or had he? Did it just not mean to him then what he realizes, or thinks, it means now? Regardless, it confirms a thought that has been niggling at the back of his mind all night.
Flirting. Eddie was flirting with him.
or, Buck visits Eddie in Texas a few months after he leaves LA. They road trip to Austin with Adriana to stay with Sophia, who has planned a night out on the town that none of them will soon forget - especially Buck and Eddie.
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09 Mar 2026