heavenlyherself
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Buck doesn't remember most of it.
He remembers what comes after.or: Buck uses sex, alcohol, and routine to cope with unresolved trauma.
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Buck isn’t in denial.
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Buck lost his grip on life itself, but part of him still wishes to remain alive.
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It was a shitshow, to say the least. Despite, what he’d told Bobby all those months ago, he did not have a handle on the problem. He had the opposite. He had zero handles, and he was too embarrassed to bring it up. It was definitely an issue, but it wasn’t too serious. And it didn’t affect anybody besides himself.
But it was definitely affecting him in a bad way. Hard day at work? Go have sex to feel better. Bobby yell at him for screwing up again? Find an old guy to tell him he’s good for something. See a happy family on a call and remember he hasn’t spoken to Maddie in seven years? Blackout so he doesn’t have to be reminded of that gaping wound.
It was really bad. Yeah. But like, privately bad. Secretly bad. Except for his roommates, who were starting to get pissed about him stumbling around drunk with his guests. So, he started to look for a new apartment in earnest.
And just when he was starting to think things were getting actually concerning, and pretty soon he wouldn’t even remember what the point of anything was, who walked into the fire station, looking perfect and attractive and ready to change Buck’s life?
Eddie fucking Diaz.
or: Buck's sex addiction taken seriously.
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27 May 2026
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After a dangerous rescue, tensions at the 118 remain high following Buck’s lawsuit, leaving him more isolated than ever.
While the team struggles with unresolved anger and distance, something begins to feel off—but no one notices the warning signs in time.
When an unexpected discovery turns everything upside down, guilt, fear, and old emotions rise to the surface.
As the team is forced to confront the consequences of pushing Buck away, Eddie finds himself facing the terrifying possibility that some mistakes can’t be undone.Bookmarked by heavenlyherself
24 May 2026
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To Open Up My Arms (And Give It All To You) by eddiebodywansum (butdaddyilovehim)
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17 Apr 2026
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“I can be your partner,” Eddie offers.
Now it’s Buck’s turn to say, “What?”
“If you want,” Eddie adds, shrugging—all casual like he’s not suggesting getting on a kink app for Buck and bearing the responsibility of being in charge of someone like that. “I mean, like you said, it’s an accountability thing, right? That’s what you want?”
Or, Eddie accidentally finds the Obedience App downloaded on Buck’s phone. He offers to help keep Buck accountable, only, they end up unintentionally stumbling into a 24/7 TPE relationship without even realizing it.
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16 Apr 2026
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"Yeah, well, we have—moved on." Eddie's expression didn’t soften. "You should too, Buck."
He deflated, the fight draining out of him. For the first time since they met, Buck felt like he was staring at a stranger.
“Uh— yeah I get it,” he finally said. “And I really am sorry.”
He watched as Eddie's figure retreated.
If Buck had stayed quiet, maybe he could have kept pretending that time would heal this wound. After that disaster of a conversation, Buck wasn't sure it ever would.
He stood there, windows forgotten, feeling something he’d known his whole life shift into place.
Buck never thought Eddie would be the one to show him he was right.
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A Buck and Eddie post-lawsuit fic.
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Please heed the tags! This fic explores alcohol and substance abuse and may be triggering for some readers. If these themes are difficult for you, please put yourself first.
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11 Apr 2026
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Lessons in Flirting (Unintentionally and Definitely Not Romantically) by shrimprangoon
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
13 Sep 2025
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Hen sighs. “Something had to be said before you idiots put us in mortal peril.”
“I’d never do anything to jeopardize our safety on a job! You know that Hen.”
“Maybe not on purpose,” Chim chimes in, “but, see, the thing is, when you flirt with our Buck, his brain turns off. He just bluescreens.”
“You’re flustering the poor boy, Eddie,” Hen adds. “And it’s making him dumb.”
“-er,” Chim adds.
“Wha- Buck isn’t flustered.”
Eddie is flustered. His face feels hot. He takes another sip of his coffee to give his hands something do to, but that only makes him feel warmer. Shit.
Hen levels him with the most deadpan look. “Last week he walked into a stop sign after you called him ‘big boy’ on a call.”
Eddie nearly spits out his coffee.
Or: the one where Eddie subconsciously flirts with Buck without realizing and Buck is actively trying not to have a heart attack at work about it
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