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neil and andrew sitting in a tree k-i-l-l-i-n-g (themselves with their own capacity to feel things softly) by DoYouYahooHaveYouYahooedWhenWillYouYahoo
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
22 Jun 2026
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Andrew reached forward, letting his hand peak through the sleeve of his oversized sweatshirt, and looped the errant curl. Neil leaned into the movement, even before Andrew was using it to yank Neil closer.
Neil paused and looked up at Andrew, assessing again. Neil knew what Andrew was after. It was usually one of their safe touches these days – along with hand-holding and hair playing – but Neil would never have thought to ask here.
Andrew nodded.
Incrementally, Neil gave himself to Andrew, loose and completely, letting his head fall onto the blonde's shoulder - his whole weight into the crook of Andrew's neck.
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A sort of 5+1 where Andrew helps Neil fall asleep five time and one time Neil returns the favour.
Featuring the foxes being their totally nonchalant selves and lots and lots of cuddles :)
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06 Jul 2026
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Neil swallows back blood. “Andrew.”
“Abram,” Andrew returns.
“I’m losing my mind. I think I’m losing my mind.”
“You aren’t,” Andrew says, so easy, so certain. “You’re tired. You’re scared. That’s it.”
Neil grits his teeth. “I’m,” he exhales shakily. “I’m – seeing things,” he admits.
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In which Andrew gets into a car accident one week into the off-season, and everything is fine right up until he starts dying every night in Neil’s dreams. Things get worse, and then they get better.
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Or, how trauma and triggers persist even after decades of safety, and how Andrew and Neil navigate them and take care of each other throughout it all.
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02 Jun 2026
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i'm not a boy with a lot of nerve (do you wanna toy with me?) by joachimlelewel
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
20 Apr 2026
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"Abram was Neil's anchor. Hearing the name leave Andrew's lips reminded him he was home; {...}. Yet the urge to run and leave it all behind was growing strong in him parallel to the feeling of newfound safety. Things he once recognised only as "Neil's" became Stefan's, Nathaniel's, William's, and all others' whose names he wore as his own at some point. The association was dangerous — Andrew wouldn't be able to count on his ten fingers or even twenty, if he borrowed Josten's, all the times the man got lost in his futile attempts to merge his past memories into one story and call it his own, call it Neil's. "
OR: 5 times Andrew wasn't aware of Neil's alters + 1 time he was
[fic title taken from Adrianne Lenker's song title]
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Four times Neil remembered something from Evermore and one time he forgot.
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10 May 2026
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Set after the third book, this fanfic dives deeper into the what if Neil has a DID theory.
Neil josten felt dizzy. Dizzy and not fully awake. He glanced at his team, no one seemed to notice except Andrew. Of coarse Andrew noticed, he always did when something was wrong.
“Rabbit..” Andrew murmured in his ear, Neil felt a hand slip onto the back of his neck.
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07 May 2026