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Buck had lost-- he was sure of this now. His resolve only lasted a few weeks before his exterior began to crack; he was never a very good actor. He couldn’t keep up the greetings and the asking questions and the easy stroll. He let his shoulders creep up to his ears, let his foot tap incessantly. He did what his Captain told him, but stopped asking for anything more. Stopped following the conversation in the back of the engine on the way to the call; he just stared out the window, thinking about the case to come, preparing for it. When he woke every morning, there was no big recovery milestone to strive for, no big fight for the soul of his career to win. Not even the happy swell of being back on shift -- something so easy to dismiss, that had dominated so much of his life, that he had taken for granted-- that had catalyzed him each morning of his first week back.
An old habit of his had returned. A bad habit.~~
or: after the lawsuit, buck confronts what it was he wanted all along. he looks and looks and longs for it; the team looks right through him. buck breaks-- right down the middle.
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- Part 1 of Lighthouse Universe
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22 Jul 2026
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“This isn’t my life!” Buck exclaims. “This is not how it’s supposed to be. Abby is supposed to be gone. She’s supposed to have left. As in, left Los Angeles, not left me to marry Bobby. Bobby’s supposed to marry Athena.”
“Cap and Athena? But she’s—”
“Married. Yeah,” Buck huffs. “Like I said, that doesn’t work out.”
“Because Real Michael is gay?” Eddie asks skeptically.
“Real Michael is gay,” Buck confirms.
OR: After his break up with Tommy, Buck falls asleep on Eddie’s couch and wakes up in a world where Bobby is married to Abby, Hen and Karen are divorced, Athena and Michael are faking a happy marriage, Chim has a daughter that is not Buck's niece, and—just to really, personally fuck with him—Eddie and Maddie are engaged to be married.
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15 Apr 2026
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“I’m still a firefighter,” Eddie says adamantly. “That hasn’t changed.”
“But you have,” Buck counters. “You used to be the one who talked sense into me. You were the guy who made me think twice. But since you got back from Texas, you’re the one being stupid and reckless. Running into fires against orders, diving off fifty foot bridges--”
“You know, you’re such a hypocrite,” Eddie steps forward, jabbing an accusatory finger into Buck’s chest. “You would have done exactly the same thing if I hadn’t done it first.”
OR: Buck confronts Eddie about his recent recklesness.
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24 Mar 2026
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There is something so glaringly not Buck about the scene in front of him. That knot of dread becomes a boulder, plunging into Eddie’s gut and nearly knocking the wind out of him.
“Hey, Chris, wait here a second, would you?” Eddie’s already crossing the threshold.
“But, it’s just Buck-”
“Chris,” Eddie turns around, scrambling to collect the worries that are slipping through his internal defenses like a sieve. He meets Christopher’s gaze, his son no longer a boy but a young man. He doesn’t ask or demand. He begs. “Please. Please just wait.”
It’s probably fine. All a misunderstanding. Eddie is jumping to conclusions. Even at his worst, Buck would never—but if Eddie’s worries are well-founded, he would never forgive himself for letting Chris see what’s inside that house.
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Or, Eddie uses his key to Buck's house and finds himself in a situation that is all too familiar, only this time he's on the other side of the door. Meanwhile Buck struggles to cope with eight years of love and loss, oh, and that whole kidnapping thing.Bookmarked by lwtsxtbsl
21 Mar 2026
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Eddie finds out what Buck has been hiding from him.
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- Part 14 of What If (911 S9)
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21 Mar 2026