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[THIRD PART OF THE TRILOGY. PLEASE READ “DEMON BLOOD” AND “SKY PEOPLE” FIRST.]
“The ocean does not ask who you were. It teaches you how to breathe again.”
Spider returns from the RDA as a hollow shell, empty, silent, and barely there.
With the Metkayina, healing is not rushed; it takes time, space, and the support of those around him.Surrounded by the love of his family, he begins to piece himself back together.
But healing is not easy. The past lingers. Some days feel like drowning, like the water is closing in, like there is no air left.
Yet the water does not heal only one person. Everyone around him carries wounds of their own, and slowly they begin to face them as well.
And with them, Spider learns how to live again.Series
- Part 5 of Demon Blood
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[SECOND PART OF THE TRILOGY]
Spider is now 16 years old and still struggling with self-harm. He is haunted by what he is and represents to the Na'Vi; he is Sky People, and he is the son of the man who brought death and destruction.
When he comes face-to-face with Miles Quaritch, the truth he has been running from his entire life becomes impossible to ignore.
You can’t outrun blood.
You can’t carve it out.
And sometimes the person you hate the most is the only one who sees exactly what you are.(Technically you can read this story without having read the others.)
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- Part 4 of Demon Blood
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[SPIN OFF episode of my story “Demon blood”]
When Tuk is born, 8 years old Spider watches from a distance.
He sees Neytiri hold her daughter with a softness he has never felt. He sees warmth, instinct, belonging, something effortless and unquestioned.
And the loneliness settles somewhere he can’t ignore.
He asks a quiet question: What was my mom like?
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- Part 3 of Demon Blood
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This story takes place shortly after the events of “Demon Blood.”
6 Years Old Spider is still struggling with Self Harm.
The urges don’t disappear overnight. Healing isn’t linear and some days are harder than others.
The difference now is that he isn’t completely alone.
There is a support system around him, imperfect, worried, trying their best.
Hands that don’t always know what to say or how to say, but stay anyway. People who are helping him to manage his feelings.
[Originally a scrapped chapter for "Demon Blood", this story has been adapted into a small DLC-style spin-off episode.]
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- Part 2 of Demon Blood
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[FIRST OF A TRILOGY]
It can be read as a stand alone!At six years old, Spider overhears being called “demon blood” and takes the words too literally.
Believing something evil lives inside him, he tries to bleed the demon out, unaware of the fear and heartbreak he leaves behind.Series
- Part 1 of Demon Blood
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MAIN STORY ENDED!!
Updating only for bonus and extras!At six years old, Spider overhears a word he was never meant to understand.
*Demon blood.*
He takes it literally.
If something bad is inside him… then maybe it can be let out.
So he cuts. Small hands. Simple logic. A child trying to fix what he thinks is wrong with him.
As he grows older, he understands there isn’t truly a demon in his veins. There is no creature beneath his skin. But the feeling of being wrong doesn’t disappear so easily. The cutting doesn’t either. It becomes something else: A way to quiet the noise, to punish himself, to feel control when everything else reminds him he doesn’t belong.
Because he knows he’s different.
He is human. humans are destruction. are war. are grief. He carries the face and the blood of everything the Na’vi have lost.
And no matter how much he tries to be good, to be useful, to bleed the bad out of himself, he cannot change what he represents.
This series follows Spider from six years old onward — from magical thinking and mommy issues, to identity, to self loathing, addiction and facing who he really is.
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