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  1. Public Bookmark 52

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    “Part of me kinda wishes Hayden hadn’t come this weekend.”
    Hayden’s entire body goes cold.
    The words echo inside his skull.
    His best friend. The person he hasn’t properly seen since Christmas outside of quick moments on the ice.
    Wished he hadn’t come.

    OR: After Shane leaves the team, Hayden becomes the target of his teammates harassment. He has no friends left in Montreal, and now he’s starting to realize his best friend probably doesn’t need him in his life anymore.

    How long can Hayden hold on before he finally breaks?

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    24 May 2026

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    Photos leak showing Shane Hollander being kissed by a mystery man. Ilya, Hayden, and J.J.'s paths converge when the three are searching for Shane. Shane is busy thinking about Russian literature, James Baldwin, and the ocean. When they all reunite, Shane has to face what's next.

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    24 May 2026

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    When Shane opens his eyes again they are so kind and warm, but swimming in tears.
    “I have never told anyone this.”
    “Shane, just tell me, please.”
    “It’s about… It’s about what you told me. About your mom.”
    Dread fills Ilya, ice cold in his veins. “Shane, you are scaring me.”
    “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to.” Shane takes a deep breath, hand still pressed against Ilya’s cheek, eyes locked into his.
    “Ilya. When I was eighteen, I tried to kill myself.”

    or, Shane tells Ilya he tried to kill himself and suddenly Ilya is more scared then he has ever been in his entire life. He didn't know he needed to fear this. But Shane won't let him drown in it. They will take care of each other.

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    02 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 57

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    Ilya understands now, what people mean when they say depression has a weight to it. It's as though something is holding him down, pressing his weary bones into the mattress and telling him no, no moving today.

    He doesn't want to be lazy, doesn't want to prove his father right, but the idea of moving from his bed, of reaching for his phone, of existing just feels like too much.

    Everything feels like too much.

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    The Boxing Day fight doesn't happen. Instead, Ilya's depression grows horns and forces itself into visibility.

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    01 May 2026

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    “Nah, Roz wouldn’t hold that against him. The guy’s a dick but he’s fair. Glad he doesn’t have to hide anymore now, they seem like a good couple. Both hot as fuck too. That wedding is gonna be fucking insane, I can’t wait.” It isn’t until Cliff finishes tying his skates and looks up, he realises that the entire locker room has fallen silent and is looking at him. “What’s up?” He asks with a confused frown.

    Cliff Marlow is a proud ally. And maybe not entirely straight.

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    05 Apr 2026