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    Ilya hurts Shane.

    It’s an accident, of course, but his mind goes to the only place it knows how afterwards: He deserves to hurt too.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Based on a tumblr post from @notahungrywish, ending with:

    Just Shane casually assuming he'll always have to share and never be enough for Ilya and Ilya horrified to realize just how resigned Shane is to assuming Ilya will never be satisfied with him the way Shane is with Ilya.

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    05 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    03 Mar 2026

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    series of fics about ilya & shane discovering & engaging in dom/sub dynamics.
    should be read in chronological order, but can be read as standalones.

    warnings: references to homophobia, physical abuse and suicidal ideation,

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    03 Mar 2026

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    Shane hates himself for being an omega, hates his body and what it can do. He has tried to keep away from having heats using strong birthcontrol. He's a world famous Hockey player and it hasn't been a problem. Until one day, a game day, he suddenly faints on the ice. The doctor tells him it's the birth control, he should take a break from them. The doctor tells him it can be a lot going through a heat alone after not having one at all. The doctor tells him about this alpha service, where you can order an alpha to help you through it. Shane looks into it, he finds a alpha name Ilya, he's profile speaks to him. Ilya is assigned as his heat-season guardian—purely professional, no feelings, obviously 🙃They meet up at Shane's cottage. Except Ilya is way more attentive than expected. Shane starts realizing that the way Ilya sees him isn’t as fragile or lesser. The tension builds not only around sex—but around trust, vulnerability, and letting someone close to him.

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    03 Mar 2026

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    It's Shane's first season as a Centaur and he can’t help but feel like it’s still Ilya’s team, not his. When he gets sick midway through the season and is instructed to quarantine away from his husband to avoid both of the team's star players being out of commission, he wonders if the Centaurs—and Ilya—would be better off without him.

    Or, a sick and miserable Shane who misses Ilya but doesn’t want to burden his husband or his team

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander was not a boring person. He knew this at heart. He had his own private world of intricate thoughts and was a man of discipline, with a dry wit and a capacity for passion and love that had once felt bottomless. But he had never ever considered his life dull. That was until he started seeing himself through Ilya Rozanov’s eyes.
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    Or: years after him and Ilya got together, Shane starts to resent the 'boring' banter.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    "You and Svetlana. When you - I mean, you don't have to tell me any details, obviously. But do you use condoms, with her?"

    This must be a translation issue, Ilya thought wildly. He'd missed something crucial.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    “What is this ‘ball and chain’?” Ilya frowned.

    Ilya's teammate grinned. “Wife. Girlfriend. Nagging you. Controlling. No fun allowed.”

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    22 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    this author has a way with words that makes my stomach ache

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    It’s dark, and Ilya’s not quite sure where he is.

    His entire body is numb. His shoes are soaking wet from trudging lazily through the snow. His nose is running, and his lips are chapped.

    Selfishly, he wishes Shane would fuss over him now. Pull him close, whisper “I forgive you” even though he shouldn’t, because Ilya would never change, because something inside him- in his family line, in his soul- was broken.

    Ilya wondered how long ago it had clicked- when Shane had realized that Ilya wormed his way into this country and tricked the Hollanders into caring for him, then returned the favor by botching their language and leaving a trail of mess in his wake. He still can't help but wonder if that will be part of his punishment- being doomed to miss him in death, too.

     

    or: Ilya’s mostly been able to cope with the fact that he’ll never be able to articulate himself fully in this country- but he’s also never been good at talking about feelings in the first place.

    "I'm tired" is the best he's got. It definitely doesn't capture what's going on in his head, and Shane can't read minds.

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    11 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    the best angsty hollanov fic to date

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    ...I guess I should just say it. I was wondering if you'd—”

    “I think we should stop seeing each other.”

    “—like to come to my cottage this summer.”

    The plate slips from Shane's hand and shatters on the kitchen floor.

    Or: Shane doesn't get injured that night Montreal plays Boston. Ilya follows through on his plan to break things off with him. Well, he tries, at least.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    What should a wife be to a husband? What should a wife be that Shane isn’t?
    Maybe Ilya wants someone who will let him take charge. Shane isn’t that kind of person; he desperately clings to control with everything he has. He folds his clothes before sex and cleans his windows after Ilya fucks him against them. He controls his food portions, nutrition, his training schedule, image, and public appearances. He’s competitive. He would never roll over and take anything he didn’t want to.
    The thought makes his stomach clench. The one place he doesn’t cling desperately to control is in the bedroom. He lets himself be molded, shaped, and coaxed into anything Ilya wants when they fuck. Giving up that control, is that all that Ilya likes about him?

    Or: Shane starts making a different kind of plan after the conversation where Ilya says he could marry Svetlana.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    4 times Shane was strict with Ilya and the 1 time he wasn't ft Ilya having an emotional crisis over it.

    OR: inspired by the tweet: ilya actually love having a strict boyfriend. like no his bitch do not let him have friends NO he not allowed to be out past 11 and NO U CANNOT SIT HERE!!!

    Translation in Russian and Mandarin!

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    02 Feb 2026

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    Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.

    The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.

    It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.

    There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.

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    Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    Shane is asleep next to him.
    But Ilya is hit with the overwhelming wave of fear and longing and heartbreak.

    He has four hours.

    Four hours before Shane has to wake up and pretends he’s not tired.
    Four hours before he has to pull on clothes, skin still warm from Ilya’s touch and drive back to Montreal because the universe doesn’t care that they love each other.
    Four hours before the distance stretches between them again and Ilya is left with a bed that feels too big and a chest that feels too small.

    Four hours before the leaving starts all over again.

    or: ilya lies next to shane. he drowns in his own mind, the love he feels for shane all that feels certain.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    Ilya clocks it very quickly when Shane comes home from an additional practice, carrying himself awkwardly and holding his weight off of his right ankle. He watches without a word as Shane attempts to walk properly, fighting the wince in his face. He wants to ask if Shane thinks he’s that good of an actor, or if Ilya is that stupid he can’t pick up on a hidden injury.

    Or, Shane hides an injury. Ilya isn’t impressed.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    “I don’t think I can hold it,” he gasped out, “Think m’ gonna leak.”

    Ilya swore softly, looking around the path. They were surrounded by trees on both sides, miles away from Shane’s parents' cottage. Shane was crouched on the ground, clamping his thighs together in a desperate attempt to hold it in. Ilya tapped Shane’s back, prompting him to stand up,

    “Hollander. Put your hands on that tree.”

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    5 times Ilya Rozanov suspects he might have a piss kink + 1 time he admits it.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    “Do you want to know how it feels?”

    Shane let his hand fall back to the couch. He pushed himself up onto his elbows and lifted a brow at Rozanov. “What – holding the Cup? You’ve already made that joke once.”

    “No.” Rozanov’s fingers encircled Shane’s wrist and then he was pulling Shane’s hand between his legs.

     

    Or: Shane tops.

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    31 Jan 2026

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    Shane isn't used to people touching him. Then he meets Ilya Rozanov.

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    60,126

    25 Jan 2026

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