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    A second, then a blur. Ilya knocking over one of the kitchen island stools to engulf Shane. His shaking frame holding Shane so tight, Shane felt himself shaking back. He could only hold on back, just as tightly.
    “Please.” Came the strangled voice by his left ear. “Please, tell me.”
    And who was Shane to ever deny a wish of Ilya Rozanov.
    “I’m signing to Ottawa. Tomorrow. If you would want to come with.”
    And then Ilya was shoving him back, holding him close to his face. “Of course. I drive. Of course I come.”
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    Shane, fed up with Montreal, signs to Ottawa before their relationship is revealed. While he doesn't plan on keeping that a secret for long, he asks Ilya to let him get to know the team first, before they come out. To maybe have a normal season. Meanwhile, the rest of the Centaurs are going crazy trying to figure out what is going on between their captain and Shane Hollander and why they keep showing up in the same car??

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    10 Mar 2026

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    It's the 2020-2021 season. Ottawa Centaurs forward Derek Briggs, an undrafted player from the Swedish Hockey League, is having a fantastic rookie season. He makes the team out of camp, claws his way up to the second line, lives through an almost plane crash, and has a crush on his fellow rookie that just might be reciprocated. The Centaurs might even make the playoffs.

    Then, news breaks that Shane Hollander is suing the Metros and MLH for terminating his contract after he came out to them in 2017. Derek, who played with Shane in Sweden after he was forced out of Montreal, gets a lot more popular for all the wrong reasons. The media seems to think he's the secret hockey player Hollander's dating, Crowell is breathing down his neck, and all of a sudden, Centaurs captain Ilya Rozanov has it out for him.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    That thought settles into his brain dangerously. Ilya’s been with everyone. Girls. Guys. Others. What's another person on the list?

    If Shane wants experience…

    If he wants to stop feeling behind…

    Why not Ilya?

    Yes, the Russian was a complete asshole that Shane wished he could choke to death sometimes and his brother's childhood bestfriend, but it wouldn’t mean anything. It's for the experience, the education of it all.

    For hockey.

    Obviously.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has always been Shane Hollander’s older brother’s best friend. He was never supposed to become Shane’s first everything.

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    04 Mar 2026

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    Shane’s never had his first kiss. Because he’s trans, he hasn’t had the opportunity to mess around in high school the way others have. He desperately wants to learn the ropes before he goes off to college. His best friend Ilya is more than willing to help out.

    “I could show you.”

    Shane’s eyes widened. “Like—kiss me, you mean?”

    Ilya forced a shrug, aiming for casual. “Sure.”

    “You would do that for me?” Shane asked, voice quiet with disbelief.

    I would do anything for you.

    “Yeah,” Ilya said, softer now. “Is no problem.”

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    25 Feb 2026

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    “I’m sorry, Mom,” managed Shane, sobs returning. He was getting really sick of crying but it was the main reaction his body was supplying. “I really messed everything up.”

    Yuna pulled back from the hug, tugging his hands into hers. “Shane, you did nothing wrong here. We love you so much. None of this is your fault”.

    “I really tried,” he continued, stomach twisting in fear that they would be disappointed. “I swear. I didn’t mean to keep this from you. I didn’t mean for this to happen”

    “Son, you don’t need to explain anything to us.” David was trying to cut through his returned panic, keeping his hand on Shane’s shoulder. “And no apologies. We are just so sorry this happened to you.”

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    It's December 2017. Shane is happy. He's figuring out how to navigate long-distance with his boyfriend, enjoying the fact that they're getting the plan together. That's until his conversation with Rose from a year earlier is leaked online. His carefully considered plans to come out to his friends and family before telling the whole world are fucked. He hasn't even started devising the plan to tell them all who he's dating. How on earth is he going to do any of that?

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    24 Feb 2026