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derail the mind of me by probsdeleteltr
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
27 Apr 2025
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“You feelin’ alright?” Joel asks, voice breaking through the static.
“-ffeelnnn,” she tries, but the word crumbles in her mouth, slips away before she can catch it.He’s moving before she even registers it - crouching low, close enough she can feel the heat of him cutting through the cold sweat on her skin. His eyes are all over her face. He knows. No way he can't. His gaze skates down - eyes flicking from hers to her mouth. He's probably seeing pinpoint pupils and purple lips.
Her heart kicks once, hard, like it wants to run.
Something’s wrong.---
Joel promised Ellie things would get better come spring. They haven't. Ellie goes looking for the solution at the bottom of a little orange bottle.Author's note 4/27: This thing was untouched since Feb.'24. I have picked it up again and done a rewrite on the first two chapters. YAY!?! So it is updated with about 12k words worth of new story, even though the chapter count is the same (for now). Chapter 3 coming soon (crossing my fingers and toes)
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Turning in the undertow by probsdeleteltr
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
14 Sep 2024
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Her head tilts back towards the water where the wind twirls snow across its surface in large, airborne white waves. They billow towards them, kicking up a rough gust that splatters icy flecks of snow onto her face. Her eyelids flutter, trying to blink back the intrusion of the wind - barely mange more than a twitch with the frost clinging to her lashes. A shiver ripples through her body, the frigid air creeping into Joel’s unzipped coat, hanging loosely around her.
Ice floats; maybe if she gets cold enough, she could too.
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Just another “what happens after” fic for all the people that love post 8 fics. Picks up basically right after Ellie and Joel walk away from the restaurant, from Ellie’s POV. Girly is struggling, and will be struggling probs for quite some time. -
Next of Kin by probsdeleteltr
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
21 Apr 2024
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“This is on you, boy. So you march back in there, you take the reins, and you do right by that child. You hear?”
He only manages to nod his head, but Mr. Johnson finds it’s enough, and he is released with a final shove.In the silence that follows, a lifetime passes.
He stops being a kid, walks back in, and tends to his child.-------
The day Joel becomes a dad and how he deals with the sudden weight of fatherhood. Slight canon divergence where his wife dies instead of leaving. Big whumps ahead.
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Back & Forth by probsdeleteltr
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
04 Jan 2024
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It was Joel who stumbled first.
He had felt the strength seeping out of him with every step so viscerally it was like his body was a container with a slow leak. His gate would falter and his hand would slip further down her shoulder, power waning. He would cough in his throat and blink forcefully trying to reignite the spark of energy that had carried him to Ellie just hours ago, but it was all a losing battle. And eventually, he lost it.
It was Ellie who moved first after that.
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Another post-episode 8 fic cause there is really never enough. -
Just like the ones I used to know by probsdeleteltr for microsoftmad
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
29 Dec 2023
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“I’ve never done that,” she admitted, voice soft.
“Done what?”
“Christmas.”
Joel hummed in acknowledgement, not exactly sure what to say. It wasn’t much of a surprise - an orphan not having the chance to celebrate Christmas was a top holiday trope. Add in a fungal apocalypse and a fascist government, and it was really borderline remarkable that Ellie knew what Christmas was at all.
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After Silver Lake, Ellie is not herself. Joel tries to change that by giving her something she's never had.
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Whumptober 2023 by probsdeleteltr
Fandom: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
27 Oct 2023
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I don't care if it rains or freezes long as I got my wooden Jesus sittin' on the dashboard of my horse by StrawberrySh0rtcake
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV)
24 Aug 2025
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"I know Jesus says we're supposed to be more into giving than receiving or whatever, but I gotta say, I'm pretty into getting shit."
"Where the hell did you hear that?" he asks, bewildered. Ellie of all people, little heathen that she is, is the last person he would suspect of being religious.
As usual though, the little shit surprises him. "From the Bible," she says primly. "Acts 20:35 mother fucker."
Well he'll be damned.
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Or: Ellie and Joel and their respective relationships with God, religion, and Tia Blake.
OR: I project my own feelings about religion onto Ellie and Joel (but mostly Ellie).
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25 Aug 2025
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“Joel, get Joel. Please.” Bile is rising in her throat. She swallows it back.
Ian makes a scoffing noise, taking a step closer. “Seriously, you’re fine. You just knocked it, that’s all. You go crying to your daddy every time you get a bruise?”
Ellie fucking doesn’t. Ian bruises her almost everyday, and she never cries.
Someone tries to make Ellie grow up too fast.
Ft. Worried Joel and a teddy bear named Fuckface
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01 Jun 2025
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mechanical bull by monalisaaa
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
24 Sep 2024
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Ellie paused. Briefly, she shot a glance towards the door to make sure that it was empty before panning back over towards the flask. It was heavy to lift. It’s full, she realized, pausing again.
There was an idea that began to brew in the bottom of her stomach.
That idea was even further fueled by a corresponding slew of images of Joel drinking by the campfire every few weeks, especially after they’d had a bad week like when Henry and Sam had died or after they’d lost Tess.
It must help, Ellie thought as she stared down at the flask. At least a little bit.
She continued to stare.
“Ellie,” Joel’s voice echoed from down the hall. At the sound, as well as the sudden thump-thump of his approaching footsteps, she grabbed the flask from where it sat on the dust-brushed desk and then shoved it down into her pocket just as his face appeared in the door. "Hey. You find anythin’?”
“Nothing,” Ellie answered, all the while coiling her fingers around the flask hidden in her jacket pocket.
TLDR/ Exploring Ellie's recovery after Silver Lake and the methods with which she tries to cope, all the while Joel worries.
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18 May 2025
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Sleep Patterns by Cowboy_scribbles
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
29 Aug 2024
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After the incident at silver lake our silly guys have to learn how to cope :(
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Both Arms Cradle Me Now by screaming_lamb
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
13 Aug 2024
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Despite how much he had complained, Joel wished he was hearing another shitty joke right now. Anything but watching his girl fade away from him. Again.He slides his arms underneath her, picking up her body far too easily, and resigns to carrying her as far as he has to.
Ellie rests her head against his shoulder. She looks up at him with something he can't place in her eyes. But at least it's something.
Ellie does not tell him another shitty joke.
OR: The aftermath of David