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    “Sorry, Yoshiki,” Hikaru groans as tears come out of one eye and more of him comes out of the other. “Ughh, I don’t – ”

    Yoshiki can see how hard he’s trying to calm himself down, but it just isn’t working.

    “It’s ok,” Yoshiki says, quiet. “It’s ok. Instead of shovin’ it back inside completely, can you try just...lettin’ it out? Just a little bit?”

    He has no clue how any of this works, but maybe a half-measure is better than trying to force it all at once.

    “Okay,” Hikaru says, but it sounds like a sob. More of the unknowable, incomprehensible swirl leaks out into the dark room.

    “Yoshiki – shit – ‘m sorry but can I…” Hikaru’s face – what’s visible behind the bloom of him – twists in a small kind of agony. “Can I touch you? Not much. Just – ”

    It's been years since Hikaru first took the body of Yoshiki's dead best friend. Despite everything - every horror and hurt - they managed to find a home in each other. Not quite friends or family. More and not. What they have is complicated, but precious.

    But when Yoshiki escapes their small town – to college, to Tokyo – Hikaru follows. And things start to change for them both.

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    09 Nov 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 47

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    Yoshiki didn't like playing Hide-and-Seek.

    The summer's heat would hit against his skin, wetting his clothes and making them sticky. And thorn bushes would scratch up his legs as he crouched.

    He didn't like the tension. It felt like nails rotating in his stomach; bile would threaten to rise from his esophagus for every single second he waited. His knees would shake, and his heart would bang against his ribcage in a way that almost hurt.
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    Or Hide and Seek, and the horrifyingly satisfying ordeal of being forced into something you want.

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    09 Nov 2025

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    During a sleepover, 'Hikaru' tries to kiss Yoshiki.

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    26 Oct 2025

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    Yoshiki won't let go of 'Hikaru's hand after their fight at the beach.

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    22 Oct 2025

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    In his first months of life, ‘Hikaru’ finds himself surrounded by a world of colors, smells, experiences, and tastes that - while they still exist deep within his memory - he finally is able to experience for the first time by himself. He doesn’t have much self-control however, and doesn’t understand the consequences of overindulgence in food. His still very human body begins to change after months of this behavior. Too much of a good thing takes its own toll after all, but Yoshiki thinks he might not mind.

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    21 Oct 2025