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    For Shane Hollander, life has always been about playing a part. On the ice, he plays the best (or second best, depending on who you ask) hockey player in a generation. With his family, he plays the role of golden boy - kind and resilient and responsible. Even with Ilya, Shane has a part to play; reliable, happy, secure.

    But after the big move to Ottawa and a summer full of life changes, Shane can't catch his footing. This is supposed to be the start to the best chapter of his life – so why does he feel like he's drowning?

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    Shane Hollander-Rozanov navigates an Autism diagnosis during his first season as an Ottawa Centaur.

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    11 Mar 2026

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    has your brain ever been so consumed by gay hockey players that you suddenly feel compelled to make nsfw art? yeah me too.

    (a collection of my nsfw hollanov art. very nsfw.)

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    09 Mar 2026

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    nsfw collection of drawings with hollanov

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    09 Mar 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 92

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    [Updates atleast every other week]
    Married, out, and still drowning, Ilya plays reckless hockey, carries old grief, and tells everyone he’s fine while getting dangerously close to proving he isn’t. But after a loss to Boston, alone in the middle of the night, he comes closer than ever to making a choice he can’t undo.

    Shane loves him. But love, terrifyingly, might not be enough.

    This fic takes place after 'The Long Game' so spoiler warning in case you haven't read that.

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    08 Mar 2026